我的声带坏了。。。感谢主？！ My vocal cord is damaged… thank God?!
有位好朋友听了我1998年后的专辑，说过好几次，最近听了我的最新专辑又再重复：“你应该感谢主，你的声带坏了！”
对这种评语该怎么回应呢？
原来她不是幸灾乐祸、落井下石，或讽刺。。。她只是实话实说！
我1998年后声带就“坏”了，因着牧养需要常讲道、大声带领祷告、赶鬼等等，喉咙透支。。。
过后老朋友若听到我的声音（包括今天）都会问我的喉咙或声音怎么了。。。
还记得当时灌录第七张专辑“是不是今天？”里的“钉痕的手”时，第一句都唱不到，以至于录到气馁坐在地上哭出来了！当时录音师等人都吓了一跳。。。
坐在地上那一刻我以为没办法再录唱片了，我与上帝有一些沟通。。。
我说声音、才华、恩赐都是属于他的，若他打算不再让我出唱片了，我愿意顺服。。。
过后我又能唱了，而且到如今还刚发了第十六张专辑“这到底是谁”！神真的很奇妙！虽然声音跟以往已不一样了。。。
今天我的声音是沙哑式的，以前的如有位台湾歌迷说的：“你以前的声音很干净，现在的很有经历（不懂是什么意思）。。。”
今天我没办法唱假音，所以很羡慕“例外人”的丘历，他说唱假音很容易。。。
但虽然如此，刚才第一位好朋友的评语：“你应该感谢主，你的声带坏了！”，可是她的真心话，她是真的觉得我“坏而变沙哑”的声音很好听，哈哈！
所以我也只能说，万事都互相效力，让我们凡事都感恩吧！
A very good friend of mine, after listening to my albums recorded after 1998, said more than once, and again after listening to my latest album : “You should thank God that your vocal cord is spoilt!”
How should I respond to a comment like that?
In actual fact, she was not rubbing salt into wound, neither was she being sarcastic… she was telling the truth!
My vocal cord was “damaged” after 1998, due to much preaching as a pastor, leading very loud prayer meetings, casting out demons etc, my throat was stretched to the limit…
After that, whenever my “old” friends hear me speaking (including today), they will surely ask whatever happened to my throat or voice…
I can still recall I was recording the song “Nail-scarred Hands” from my 7th album “Is It Today?” then, I could not even sing the first line! I felt totally defeated and sat on the floor and literally cried! The recording engineer and others were shocked…
At that moment on the floor, I thought I could never record any album again, I had some conversation with God then…
I said my voice, talent, giftings are all from Him, if He should decide that I not release any more album, I will obey…
After that I could sing again, and I have just released my 16th album “Who Is This Really?” last week! God is really amazing! However my voice has become different from the earlier days…
Today my voice is coarse, my voice before was as what a Taiwanese fan once said : “Your voice used to be very clean, now it sounds very experienced (whatever that means)…”
I can’t sing falsetto nowadays, so I’m very envious of Remnant’s Danny who said singing falsetto is peanuts to him…
Despite all that, the comment of that very good friend : “You should thank God that your vocal cord is spoilt!”, was really sincerely from her heart. She really thinks that my “damaged coarse” voice is very nice, haha!
So what can I say but all things work for good and give thanks in all circumstances!