有時候心情會受影響。。。 Sometimes mood can get affected…
尽管已经很习惯的节目或活动，或有充足的预备，有时候因着某种原因还是会出一些状况，心情难免也会受一些影响。。。
Even if it is a very familiar programme or activity, or there is enough preparation, sometimes due to some reasons, certain situations might arise too, and unavoidably our mood can get somewhat affected…
有时候是赶时间，有时候是车程，有时候是身体状况。。。
当然还是一样要上台。。。
Sometimes it can be rushing for time, sometimes it is the journey, sometimes it is physical health…
Of course you still need to go on stage…
给唱歌的人，音响效果绝对会有一些影响。。。给讲说的人，台下的人的反应也会影响。。。
但再这么受影响还是要尽力的唱、尽力的讲。。。
For those who sing, the condition of the sound system wold definitely affect the mood… and for those who speak, the rapport of the audience…
But no matter how affected, we must still sing our best and speak with all our passion…
要做到完全坐怀不乱、心平气和、全然不受影响，的确是一门不容易的功课。
所以很多时候在台上的我，边唱边讲的时候，其实心里也一边祷告求主平静我的心，让我能够很专心。。。
To be totally unperturbed, completely calm, entirely not affected, is indeed a tough lesson to learn.
So many times while on stage singing and speaking simultaneously, I am at the same time praying in my heart for the Lord to calm my heart and to help me to concentrate…
在那笑容的背后，你们都看不出内心的挣扎和沮丧吧，特别是自己觉得无法完全平静或专注的时候，那时也会对自己灰心和失望。。。
但感恩的是，过后上帝都会亲自鼓励和安慰我，需要的时候，祂当然也会教导我一些该注意和改善的事情。我真有一个很好很好的上帝与父亲啊！
Behind that smile, you cannot really see the struggle and frustration inside, especially when I feel I could not completely calm my heart or fully concentrate, and I would be feeling discouraged and disappointed with myself…
But I am always grateful that God will always personally encourage and comfort me after that, and when necessary, of course to teach me when there are things I need to take note and improve. I really have a god good God and Father!
