第二十五天：10月27日(四)

今天发生了一件很奇怪的事情。。。
晨祷过后，接到吉隆坡来的电话，让我决定飞过去一趟，明天再飞回来，所以就忙着上网查机位和时间。
正忙碌的时候，我也传简讯向身在温哥华的思秀要一些资料，她马上也把资料传给我。我继续忙着要订机票。。。

突然，看到思秀又一则简讯进来说“哦，阿们！”，我停顿一下想她在“阿们”什么？我刚才说了什么？
在好奇之下，我打开简讯箱去看她“阿们”我讲的什么东西。。。看到她“阿们”的简讯上面一则“我”所传给她的简讯。。。
但是。。。咦？我有传给她这则简讯吗？才两分钟前传的信息，我怎么毫无印象或记忆我有打这一行字？！

我停下工作企图再想一想，我有传这则简讯给她吗？难道我的手指这么快，潜意识里传简讯自己都不察觉？！
这简讯说：“God will bless you beyond your imagination.” （译：神会赐福你超越你所能够想像。）

我就赶忙回复思秀说：“Hey hey hey, something very strange!!!”（嘿嘿嘿，很奇怪的一件事！！！）

我就告诉她怎么我都想不起来我有传那简讯给她，而且只不过是两、三分钟前！她听了非常感动！

总之，不管是不是我在潜意识里传给她，或者“不是我”。。。我都相信是神的作为！能在潜意识里也祝福人的确是很不错的一件事；另，我们能接受耶稣会传简讯吗？对我来说，邪灵所传的简讯我都收过，难道耶稣不能吗？

下午我就飞往吉隆坡，参加晚上的聚会，在敬拜的时候，带领敬拜的姐妹被圣灵感动放声大哭，起初我听得真的还有点不习惯，而且也蛮长的一段时间她这样子。突然间，她停止哭泣，她大声的说了几声“嘿！嘿！嘿！”。。。我马上想起我早上简讯里的“嘿！嘿！嘿！”，感觉是上帝叫回我“嘿！嘿！嘿！”！。。。我有点微笑因觉得好笑。。。

里面一个念头出现：上帝如果要做一些新事，是我们无法想像的，尽管是耶稣传简讯鼓励我们，我们真的能相信和接受吗？
我感觉上帝问我那个问题。。。

“神能照着运行在我们心里的大力，充充足足地成就一切，超过我们所求所想的。”
～ 以弗所书3:20 ～

Day 25 : Oct 27th (Thur)

Something very strange happened today…
After the morning prayer, I received a call from KL, and I decided to fly over and come back the next morning. So I quickly went online to check the flight situation.
While I was busy doing that, I sent a text message to Esther in Vancouver asking for some information. She sent me the information immediately. I continued with my ticket checking…

Suddenly, another text message of Esther’s came in saying “Oh Amen!”, I paused a while to think as to what she was saying “Amen” to? What did I say just now?
Out of curiosity, I opened the messages box to see what was the thing that I said to cause her to say “Amen” to… Then I saw above her “Amen” message was another message that “I” typed…
But… wait! Did I send her this message? Only about two minutes ago, how come I had no impression or memory at all of sending her this message?!

I stopped work to try to recall, did I send her this message? Are my fingers so fast that I typed this subconsciously without realizing?!
The message says: “God will bless you beyond your imagination.”

I quickly replied her and said: “Hey hey hey, something very strange!!!”

I told Esther I just could not recall ever sending her that message, and it was only sent about two or three minutes ago! She was very touched when she heard!

No matter what, whether it was me sending it subconsciously or “not me”… I believe it is the work of God! To be able to bless people even in your subconscious state is indeed a very good thing; also, can we accept the fact that Jesus knows how to send text messages? As for me, I have received text messages from demons before, so why can’t Jesus send text messages?

I flew to KL in the afternoon, joined the evening meeting. During the worship, the worship leader was filled with the Holy Spirit and crying loudly, I was kind of not very comfortable at first, and it went on for quite a while. Suddenly she stopped crying, and she said loudly a few times “Hey! Hey! Hey!”… I was immediately reminded of my text message in the morning saying “Hey hey hey”, and I felt like God was answering me back with “Hey! Hey! Hey!”… I felt kind of funny and smiled…

Then a thought appeared inside: If God were to do something new that is beyond our imagination, even if it is Jesus sending a text message to encourage us, can we really believe and accept that?
I felt God was asking me that…

“Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us.”
~ Ephesians 3:20 ~

第二十四天：10月26日(三)

昨晚的梦又有点奇特。。。一般上，晚上睡觉做梦，若半途醒来，再睡下去梦境就会不一样。昨晚我一入眠，如往常一样又开始做梦了；可是不知怎的，昨晚睡得不是很好，陆陆续续醒来至少五、六次！奇怪的是，每一次再倒回去睡，又开始进入同样或类似的梦境！虽然未必一模一样的情景或人物，但梦的主题都一样。
在梦里，我都是在不断的计划如何帮助及祝福到更多人。。。

这仿佛是上帝在鼓励我说：

“弟兄们，你们行善不可丧志。”
～ 帖后3:13 ～

因为昨天我又再想，若要真正帮助到很多人，真的是很多东西要做、想、预备、计划等等，而时间又很有限，人的体力也有限，难免也会有无力感。
况且，这一次的禁食祷告，上帝又不断给我感动、指示、带领、看见人的需要。。。所以昨天我在想，我能做得了多少？
晚上就一连续做了继续帮助人的梦！

其实，这情形已经是这一次禁食祷告中的第二次，上个礼拜我也感觉有点累时，我的外地朋友也莫名其妙做了一个鼓励我继续帮助人的梦！

是的，主啊，我愿意顺服，但求你也加添力量、智慧、和资源，也求袮带来愿意及真能够协助的人一起来搭配，谢谢！

Day 24 : Oct 26th (Wed)

Last night’s dreams were kind of special… Normally, when I dream at night, if awakened half way, the next dream would be different when I fall asleep again. Immediately after I had fallen asleep last night, as usual I started dreaming. Strangely I did not sleep well last night, I woke up at least five or six times in between! But the strange thing was, each time when I went back to sleep, I would re-enter into the same or similar dream! Though it might not be exactly the same scenario or people that appeared, the theme of the dreams was all the same.
In all the dreams, I was doing the same thing as in planning unceasingly to help and bless more people…

This is just as though God is encouraging and telling me:

Because yesterday I was thinking once again, if I were to seriously and truly help many people, then there would be many things to do, think, prepare, plan etc, and my time is so limited, physical strength is limited as well, so inevitably I felt kind of helpless.
Furthermore, during our fasting and praying this time, God continually prompts me, directs, leads and shows me the needs of people… That is why I was thinking yesterday, how much can I do?
And immediately I had dreams of continuing to help needy people last night!

In fact, this situation is the second during this fasting season, last week when I was also kind of feeling tired, my foreign friend also unexpectedly had a dream that encouraged me to continue helping others!

Yes, O Lord! I am willing to obey, but please increase my strength, wisdom, and resources, and also do bring along co-workers who are willing and able to help, thanks!

第二十三天：10月25日(二)

几天跟朴传道的搭配服事，看到多少人得释放、医治等等，真让我感到鼓励和欣慰。再一次，我看到上帝的真实。。。
最重要的还不是当时的神迹奇事，而是多数人过后生命的改变与成长。

我相信蒙福教会之所以灵里洁净、顺服、谦卑和同心，多多少少都跟朴传道的服事有一些关 联；因为自我做牧师第一年开始，朴传道就开始来我们教会服事。她真的在邪灵问题，和砍断咒诅和捆绑方面帮了我许多忙！然而，朴传道独特的服事方式，会让很多老掉牙的基督徒，或头脑充满圣经知识的人批判和排斥；但我看到其服事 的长远果子和人生命的更新与改变，所以我很确定那是神给她的特别恩赐，让灵里单纯与会分辨的人蒙福。我也很确定那些不能接受她独特服事方式的，也一定不能接受耶稣的很多服事方式。

我为蒙福教会的谦卑、受教、顺服和同心感恩，因为这样，我们不断看到神的作为，灵命和信心也持续成长。
我的原则和准则始终是耶稣在马太福音里说的：

“这 样 ， 凡 好 树 都 结 好 果 子 ， 惟 独 坏 树 结 坏 果 子 。好 树 不 能 结 坏 果 子 ， 坏 树 不 能 结 好 果 子 。。。所 以 凭 着 他 们 的 果 子 ， 就 可 以 认 出 他 们 来 。”
～ 马太福音7:17,18,20 ～

Day 23 : Oct 25th (Tue)

These few days of ministering with Pastor Park, I saw many set free, healed etc, and that really encouraged and comforted me. Once again I saw how real and powerful our God is…
The most important thing is not so much the miracles at that moment, but the change and improvement of many people’s lives after that.

I believe the fact that that Blessed Church people are clean in their spirit, obedient, humble and united, is more or less connected to Pastor Park’s ministry to some extent. Because since the first year I became a pastor, Pastor Park also started coming to our church to minister. She really helps me so much in dealing with demonic problems as well as breaking curses and bondages!
However Pastor Park’s uniqie way of ministering will certainly arouse criticisms and disapprovals from “old and ancient” Christians or people who are filled with Biblical knowledge in their heads. But I saw the long lasting fruit of her ministry and the renewal and transformation of people’s lives. So, I am very certain that is a special gifting God has given her to bless those who are pure in spirit and able to discern correctly. I am also very sure people who cannot accept her unique ministry will not be able to accept many of Jesus’ ministering styles too.

I give thanks for the humility, teachability, obedience and unity of Blessed Church, because through that, we are able to see God’s work continually, and therefore our spiritual lives and faith continue to grow. My principles and standard are always what Jesus said in Matthew:

“By their fruit you will recognize them. Do people pick grapes from thornbushes, or figs from thistles? ¹⁷ Likewise, every good tree bears good fruit, but a bad tree bears bad fruit. ¹⁸ A good tree cannot bear bad fruit, and a bad tree cannot bear good fruit… ²⁰ Thus, by their fruit you will recognize them.”
~ Matthew 7:17, 18, 20 ~