第五天：10月7日(五)

昨夜有个奇特的梦。。。我相信跟这一次禁食有关。。。
异梦，虽然不是常常，但也曾经有过，然而昨夜的是第一次。

我梦见与耶稣散步、聊天，感觉像跟一个很熟悉的朋友做很平常的事情，但其中一幕出现至少两次。。。
梦里，我们一起去一些很平常的地方，聊很平常的话题，是在这个世界，这个世代。我相信耶稣要告诉我，他其实都常出现在我们日常生活当中，非常参与我们平常的一切。。。

最后一幕就是重复几次的那一幕。走到一个地方，主说这是他要被抓、受苦的时候。然后，我就从旁边看到他被人用现代的方式，手脚上铐绑在地上，完全失去自由，准备被折磨受苦。。。他的头却是转向我这一边望着我，眼神充满爱。他告诉我这是他必须经过的，为了我们。。。我在梦里不停的哭泣，一直跪着无法停止哭泣到从梦里醒来。。。梦境很真实。。。

刚才带领祷告过后分享，讲到这一幕，我感觉又想哭泣，感受到主的爱、他的牺牲、他的摆上，受苦至死只为了拯救我们。如今，我们为了灵命突破，学习更爱主，也为灵魂得救而禁食祷告40天，这一点“小苦”算什么呢。。。？

“我 受 苦 是 與 我 有 益 ， 為 要 使 我 學 習 你 的 律 例 。”
～诗篇119：71～

Day 5 : Oct 7th (Fri)

I had a strange but unique dream last night… I believe it has to do with our fasting this time…
Spiritual dreams, though not very often, I did have some in the past. However, the one last night was the first time ever.

I dreamt I was taking a walk with Jesus and chatting with Him, felt like something very ordinary with a very familiar friend, but a certain scene repeated at least twice…
In the dream, we went to some very ordinary places, talked on very ordinary topics, it was in this world and this age. I believe Jesus is trying to tell me He is there in our everyday living, very much involved in our ordinary life…

The final scene was the one that repeated a few times. We reached a place and the Lord said He was to be arrested and tortured. Then from the side I saw Him being bound by people with modern methods, chained to the ground losing all His freedom, preparing to suffer… His head turned towards me to look at me, His eyes were filled with love. He told me He had to go through this, just for us… I cried uncontrollably in my dream, I was kneeling all the time and could not stop crying till I woke up from my dream… The dream was very real…

As I was sharing this after leading the noon-time prayer, I felt like crying again when I talked about that scene. I could feel the love of Jesus, His sacrifice and laying down everything for us, even to suffer and die. And now, for our spiritual breakthrough, learning to love the Lord more and also to pray for souls to be saved, we are fasting 40 days, what is this little “suffering” as compared to the Lord’s…?

“It was good for me to be afflicted so that I might learn your decrees. ”
~Psalm 119:71~

第四天：10月6日(四)

饥渴或挨饿让人深感无力、无法集中精神做事情、心情不好、不快乐、不满足、没动力。。。不吃不喝，生活缺乏乐趣，无法享受人生，严重的话还会死人！
长时间禁食40天更能体会这种感觉。相信上帝要我们将这很真实、贴切的感受，转向对他的渴慕，即没有他，以上的种种状况就出现！愿这40天过后，我们对神的思念和渴望就如同这40天对食物的渴望一样。。。

“神啊，你是我的　神！我要切切地寻求你；在乾旱疲乏无水之地，我渴想你，我的心切慕你。。。
因你的慈爱比生命更好，我的嘴唇要颂赞你。”
～诗篇63章1和3节～

＊＊＊是的，当我们愿意为了属灵的事情或神的国，而放弃生命需要的食物，我们基本上已经学习“因你的慈爱比生命更好”。。。

Day 4 : Oct 6th (Thur)

Thirst or hunger makes people feel weak, unable to concentrate on doing things, bad mood, unhappy, unsatisfied, no drive or
motivation… Without drinking or eating, there will not be pleasure in life, we will not enjoy living, and in more serious cases, you
may die!
Long period of fasting for 40 days gives you a greater sense of such feeling. I believe God wants us to transfer this very real and practical feeling to Him, i.e. without Him, all the conditions above will appear! May after these 40 days, our longing and desire for God will be similar to this desire for food…

“You, God, are my God, earnestly I seek you; I thirst for you, my whole being longs for you, in a dry and parched land where there is no water… because your love is better than life, my lips will glorify you.”
~ Psalm 63:1&3~

**Yes, indeed, when we are willing, for spiritual things or the kingdom of God, to give up the food we need to survive, we have basically begun to learn “because your love is better than life, my lips will glorify you.”

第三天：10月5日(三)
我们的身体既是圣灵的殿，即圣灵的屋子，圣灵就是屋主。那屋子里面有什么要丢掉、修理、装饰等等的，都是主人的决定和工作。我们既不再是主人就没权力乱动屋子，意思即，不再是靠自己的努力、想法，还怎么样去改变自己，当交给圣灵自己决定、动工和指示我们。

Day 3: Oct 5th (Wed)
Since our body is the temple of the Holy Spirit, meaning, the house of the Holy Spirit, then He is the house owner. So whatever that needs to be thrown away, repaired, decorated etc is the owner’s decision and work. As we are no longer the owner, we do not have the right to simply do anything to the house, that means it is no longer our own hard work or thinking or whatever that can change ourselves, we should just hand over to the Holy Spirit Himself to decide and do the work or instruct us.

另，我们求上帝医治或赐我们健康的当儿，我们也当醒悟很多时候身体的状况都与我们饮食和生活习惯有关。所以，尽管上帝真的医治了，我们过不久很可能又因坏饮食习惯而糟蹋了这个“殿”。。。可是所谓“江山易改，本性难移”，几十年的饮食、生活习惯等等，如何能改变，自己很难做得到。但既然这屋子已属于圣灵，就求圣灵来动工，让他来调整我们的喜好、兴趣等等，在不知不觉的情况下也偏爱与享受健康及营养的饮食等等。。。这绝对是可能的，因亲身经历！