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我不会写歌了! I don’t know how to write songs anymore!

我不会写歌了!
I don’t know how to write songs anymore!

那段日子我真的是这样想过,特别是2003年。。。几天前翻开我旧创作歌本而回想起。。。
发现原来2003年就只写了一首歌!然后我也读旁边与下面的笔录。。。

During that period of time, I really had such a thought, especially in 2003… I recalled those days when I turned the pages of the song book of my older compositions…
I discovered I only wrote but one song in the year 2003! And I read too my notes I wrote down beside and below that song…

下面写着我已怀疑自己失去这恩赐,所以当写完“爱到永远”时都不会分辨这首歌好听不好听,却只有感恩无论如何还是写完了一首歌。。。

没写歌其中一个原因是有好几年我的喉咙出现严重状况,只要是不在台上我就无法好好唱歌,私底下无论是要灵修敬拜或尝试要写歌都会唱得非常辛苦,常常失声、走调,或唱不上。。。
久而久之私底下就放弃唱歌了,也逐渐失去写歌的灵感或因为我的状况而根本没心情写,所以也渐渐有这个隐忧在心中,认为说:我不会写歌了!

是什么又激发我写歌的恩赐呢?我当时写完”爱到永远“也有记录下来。。。
原来是去了印尼棉兰诗歌布道后,回程在飞机上的感动。。。

Below wrote, I wondered whether I had already lost my song-writing gift, that was why after completing “Love Forever” I was not even sure whether the song was nice, but I was grateful nonetheless then because at least I could complete a song…

The reason I did not write songs then was, for a few years I encountered serious vocal or throat problem. As long as I was not on stage, I was not able to sing properly. Privately, whether wanting to worship during my quiet time or attempting to write songs, it was a torture just to sing, I often lost my voice, sang out of key or could not reach high notes…
So after a while, I gave up singing during my private time, and I began to lose the inspiration to write or I simply had no mood to write at all due to my condition. So I slowly had that nagging concern in my heart: I don’t know how to write songs anymore!

What motivated my song-writing gift again? I recorded that after completing “Love Forever” too…
It was the conviction I received in the flight on my way home after my evangelistic concert in Medan, Indonesia…

因之前的“牵我的手”和其他福建诗歌在棉兰引起的共鸣,和救了许多灵魂,让我自觉惭愧为什么没有善用上帝给我的写歌恩赐来继续创作,祝福听福建话的社群。。。
但我的另一个问题是,我的福建词汇非常有限,所懂的福建词句就只那么几个,感觉是已江郎才尽!所以,我在飞机上就跟上帝认罪悔改因我没继续认真写歌,但也求他印证是还要我写福建歌,若是他就要给我新的感动。。。结果上帝就以这首“爱到永远”给了我印证,也让我发现在我糟糕的喉咙状况之下,在我软弱和放弃的当儿,他对我的爱是不改变的。。。

Because of the previous “Khan Gua e Chiu” (Hold My Hand) and other Hokkien songs that won good rapport in Medan, and saved many souls, I felt ashamed that I did not properly use the gift God gave me to continue writing songs to bless the Hokkien community…
But I had one other problem, my Hokkien language is limited, I thought my Hokkien vocabulary was totally used up and I felt I had nothing more to offer! So in the flight I repented to God for not continuing to write songs seriously, and I prayed for His confirmation too that if He wanted me to write Hokkien songs again, then He would have to give me new inspirations…
As a result, God used this song “Love Forever” to confirm, also to show me despite my terrible throat condition and in the midst of my weaknesses and giving-up, God’s love for me was still unchanging…

 

感谢主,“爱到永远”也是一首感动了很多人的歌。。。可是之后,我又没写歌了!很大的原因跟我的喉咙有关,结果2004年也只写了三首歌,而且没有一首是福建歌!
好吧,那就改天再跟你们分享我其他写歌的故事吧。。。
Thank God “Love Forever” is also a song that touches many people… But after that, I stopped writing again! The biggest reason was to do with my throat condition, so I managed to write three songs only as well in 2004, and none was a Hokkien song!
Oh well, I shall share with you some other song-writing stories again some other day…

 

但有一件事我很清楚知道,若不是上帝,我真的是不会写歌。。。
But one thing for sure, if not for God, I really don’t know how to write songs…

 

 

 

GT Lim’s meetings in Jakarta Feb 25-27

Friday Feb 25th and Saturday 26th, 2011 – At GBI Pluit.

Address: Pluit Raya Selatan No. 11
Time: 6 pm.

Sunday 27th: Two service at 8 am  and 10:30 am.

Contact person: Ernie +62 213 398 4848

 

有时候模糊不清。。。 Sometimes kind of blurred and unclear…

“我们如今仿佛对着镜子观看,模糊不清,到那时,就要面对面了。
我如今所知道的有限,到那时就全知道,如同主知道我一样。 ”     ~哥林多前书 13:12~

“Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror, then we shall see face to face.
Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known (by the Lord).”     ~1 Corinthians 13:12~

耶和华说:
“我的意念非同你们的意念,我的道路非同你们的道路。
天怎样高过地,照样我的道路高过你们的道路,
我的意念高过你们的意念。”
~以赛亚书 55:8-9~

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord.
“As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.”
~Isaiah 55:8-9~

“其实明天如何,你们还不知道。你们的生命是什么呢?你们原来是一片云雾,出现少时就不见了。
你们只当说:主若愿意,我们就可以活着,也可以做这事,或做那事。”
~雅各书 4:14-15~

“Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes.
Instead, you ought to say, “If it is the Lord’s will, we will live and do this or that.””
~James 4:14-15~

“所以,不要为明天忧虑,因为明天自有明天的忧虑;一天的难处一天当就够了。”
~马太福音 6:34~

“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”
~Matthew 6:34~