Day 17 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary

 

第十七天1019(三)

在这段禁食时间,其实都有安排不同的同工或领袖带领每天的祷告会;可是从第一天开始,几乎每一次我都有感动自己带领。。。
感谢主,每一次带得很轻松、很享受,上帝也不断引领启示;神一定给我们知道当天要祷告的事项,和当天要我们学习的真理和属灵功课。事实是,每一天上帝所启示的不止我“禁食日记”里写的那么少或短,只是时间有限,所以我只将部份或重点记载在这里与大家分享。

今天中午神也说了很多话,但我要分享的是晚上的:

“愿我的祷告如香陈列在你面前;愿我举手祈求,如献晚祭。
耶和华啊,求你禁止我的口,把守我的嘴。
求你不叫我的心偏向邪恶,以致我和作孽的人同行恶事;也不叫我吃他们的美食。”
~ 诗篇141:2-4~
第一节的第一个字“愿”告诉我们事实未必是如此,它是一个心愿,既是说,我们的祷告搞不好在神面前不是香,而是臭气!
若内心不干净,存有妒忌、怨恨、苦毒、批判、论断等等恶劣态度,那发出去的肯定是臭气;若嘴巴不圣洁,又赞美神,又咒诅、论断、讲人是非或污秽话语等,那发出去的也将是臭气。。。若生命虚假、假属灵、只做给人看,要讨人喜欢等等,发出去的也是臭气。。。
因此神说,不要以为表面上很会赞美敬拜和祷告,禁食、服事等等都很摆上。。。献上的祷告未必是香气!若是臭气,神根本就不会靠近。。。

Day 17 : Oct 19th (Wed)

During this fasting period, I actually did schedule different leaders to lead the daily prayer meeting; but since the first day, I felt led to lead almost every time…
Thank God each time I could lead with much ease, I really enjoyed it, and God kept on leading and giving revelations. God would certainly reveal to us the prayer points that day and the spiritual truth and lessons He wanted us to learn that day. In fact, what God revealed each day is not that short or little as you have read in my “Fasting Diary”, but because time is limited, I can only record parts or the main points here to share with you.
This afternoon God said a lot of things too, but I want to share the revelation from the night prayer:
“May my prayer be set before you like incense; may the lifting up of my hands be like the evening sacrifice.
Set a guard over my mouth, O LORD; keep watch over the door of my lips.
Let not my heart be drawn to what is evil, to take part in wicked deeds with men who are evildoers; let me not eat of their delicacies.”
~ Psalm 141: 2-4 ~
The first word of the first verse “May” tells us that the fact may not be so, it is a wish or desire, meaning our prayer may not be like incense or sweet-smelling before God, but a foul smell instead!
If our heart is unclean, harbouring all sorts of bad attitudes like jealousy, hatred, bitterness, judgments on others etc, then it will give out foul smell; if our mouth is not holy, we praise God and curse others, judge, gossip and speak filthy words, then foul smell will come out too… If your life is fake with false spirituality, only acting to show people or to please people etc, then it will smell bad too…

Therefore, God said: Do not think that just because outwardly you seem very good at praising, worshipping and praying, very sacrificial in fasting and serving… the prayer you offer up may not be incense! And if it is a foul smell, God will not even come close…