Day 31 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary （我没有力气了 / I Am Feeling Very Weak)
～ 腓立比书 4:13 ～
Day 31 : Nov 2nd (Wed)
Actually I got up quite early this morning, but I felt totally strength-less, did not feel like moving, and once I sat down, I did not feel like getting up and so on…
Went to the morning prayer at church, as usual Bong will be leading first and I just take over when I arrive.
When I took over this morning, I felt no strength in me, even the microphone felt heavy! To sit or to kneel, nothing seemed right, no strength to sing as well… After about 15 minutes, I really could not stand anymore, I walked over to Bong and asked him to continue leading. I went to my office for a rest.
When I lay down on my office couch, I fell asleep instantly, and I woke up more than three hours later! Still I had no strength to get up, and I had a slight headache too. After a while, it was the noon-time prayer again. I garnered all my strength to lead, after enduring for about 20 minutes, I could not handle again and asked Yi Wei to take over…
Without God’s support, strength and mercy, I know there is no way I could continue with this “plain water only” fast. Today, once again I am reminded, it has never been my capability, my strength, my ability, my determination etc… all along everything comes from God, it is all His grace and mercy…
“I can do everything through him who gives me strength.”
~ Philippians 4:13 ~