Day 31 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary （我没有力气了 / I Am Feeling Very Weak)
第三十一天：11月2日(三)
今早其实还起得蛮早，可是就觉得全身无力气，不想动，一坐下来就不想站起来什么的。。。
去教会参加晨祷，如往常阿黄会先带领，我到了就接下去。
今天我接过来，感觉有气无力，连麦克风都觉得重！坐也不是，跪也不是，唱歌没力气。。。差不多15分钟过后，我不行了，我走过去叫阿黄接下去带领，我去办公室休息。。。
在办公室的沙发一躺下来，马上睡着，一睡就睡了三个多小时，还是没力气起来，头还有点痛。一下子又是中午祷告时间了，我用尽力气带领，撑了差不多20分钟，又不行了，交给毅伟带下去。。。
没有上帝的支撑、力量与怜悯，我知道我是没办法继续这纯白开水的禁食的。今天，我再次被提醒，本来就不是我的本事，我的力量，我的能干，我的坚持等等。。。一切本来就源自与神，都是他的恩典和怜悯。。。
“我靠着那加给我力量的，凡事都能做。”
～ 腓立比书 4:13 ～
Day 31 : Nov 2nd (Wed)
Actually I got up quite early this morning, but I felt totally strength-less, did not feel like moving, and once I sat down, I did not feel like getting up and so on…
Went to the morning prayer at church, as usual Bong will be leading first and I just take over when I arrive.
When I took over this morning, I felt no strength in me, even the microphone felt heavy! To sit or to kneel, nothing seemed right, no strength to sing as well… After about 15 minutes, I really could not stand anymore, I walked over to Bong and asked him to continue leading. I went to my office for a rest.
When I lay down on my office couch, I fell asleep instantly, and I woke up more than three hours later! Still I had no strength to get up, and I had a slight headache too. After a while, it was the noon-time prayer again. I garnered all my strength to lead, after enduring for about 20 minutes, I could not handle again and asked Yi Wei to take over…
Without God’s support, strength and mercy, I know there is no way I could continue with this “plain water only” fast. Today, once again I am reminded, it has never been my capability, my strength, my ability, my determination etc… all along everything comes from God, it is all His grace and mercy…
“I can do everything through him who gives me strength.”
~ Philippians 4:13 ~