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禁食40天反思。。。 Reflection on fasting 40 days…

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这一次,2011年10月3日一直到11月11日的40天禁食,应该是我第三次40天全禁吧,21天全禁也做过两次,几次都碰到我生日的时候,这一次也不例外。。。
若不是神,我无法想像也无法做到这样长时间的禁食。所以,我没什么厉害,也没什么了不起,不必称赞和羡慕我,若神的灵没有带领、感动及加添力量,这是不可能的事,我也不会想要这样做。。。

This time, the 40-day fast from 03/10/11 to 11/11/11 has to be my third time fasting 40 days completely. I also did 21-day full fast twice, and a few times my fasting period coincided with my birthday, this time is no exception…
If not for God, I cannot imagine and I will not be able too to go on such a long fast. So, there is nothing great or super about me, there is no need to compliment or admire me, if the Spirit of God does not lead, prompt or give me strength, this is impossible and I will not want to do it as well…

有人问我一些健康、体力、营养的问题等等,问我怎样处理、克服或解决等等。。。
我也没答案,我只能说我每天一样操作,一样上班,服事等等,健康没出问题,我觉得反而变得更健康。。。

Some people asked me questions with regard to health, physical strength and nutrition issues etc, they asked how I handled, overcame or dealt with and so on…
I have no answer. All I can say is, I still functioned like normal everyday, I still went to work and serve etc, my health is alright, and in fact I feel I have become healthier…

 

我只记得第一次禁40天的时候,第39天的早上发现自己躺在房间门口,可能血糖太低突然起来时晕倒了,但当然我一点也没受伤。也是在那一次开始吃的时候,第一次上厕所排泄粪便很困难,甚至流血了;我就向上帝祷告医治,也“提醒”他我禁食是为了他的国,马上就得医治了!

所以一切都得归荣耀给上帝,没有他是不可能的!

All I remember was the first time when I was having the 40-day full fast, I found myself lying near my bedroom door in the morning on the 39th day, perhaps my blood sugar was too low and I fainted while getting up abruptly, but of course I was not injured in any way. And it was also that time when I began to eat again, I had great difficulty the first time I went to the toilet to excrete my motion, I even bled. So I prayed to God foe healing and “reminded” Him that I fasted for His kingdom, and I was healed immediately!

That is why we must give all the glory to God, it is impossible without Him!

 

最后一次禁40天是好多年以前的事了,一直不敢想像还有下一次,因为那种40天不吃东西的情景想起来也太恐怖了,人再爱漂亮、再怕肥胖,还是不能不吃东西的。所以里面会“很怕”上帝突然又感动我全禁40天。。。其实这种“担心”真的是多余的,因为倘若是来自上帝的感动,他自然会帮助你完成!就如同现在,不知不觉又开始全禁40天了。。。

The last time I went on a 40-day full fast was quite a few years back, since then I did not dare to imagine another time, because the scenario of not eating anything at all for 40 days was kind of scary to think about. No matter how beauty conscious you are, how scared of being overweight you are, you still cannot do without food. So inside me, I was kind of “scared” that God might prompt me to do another 40-day full fast… Actually this kind of “worry” is really unnecessary because if the prompting is really from God, He naturally will help you to accomplish it! Just like now, all of a sudden we have begun the 40-day full fast again…

 

老实说,这一次全禁40天的感动年头就有了,我只是等候上帝的时间。起初也有一点担心自己是否做得到,因为太久没这样做了。。。可是当我看到很多年轻人都愿意陪着我一起全禁40天的时候,那莫名的力量就从我心里涌现,我就不再惧怕了。。。

这一次的禁食,我比以往更认真和兴奋,心里也充满期待,要看到神要做又新又奇妙的事,也期待神每天的启示和感动;所以我这一次会每天记录灵里的领受和感动,尽量每天都在这里刊登我的“禁食日记”,好跟你们分享,希望也会鼓励到你们,阿们!

Honestly, this prompting to have a full 40-day fast came at the beginning of the year, I was only waiting for God’s timing. At first I was kind of worried whether I could do it as after all I have not done it for a long time… but when I saw many young people are willing to accompany me through this journey of fasting 40 days without food, that unexplained strength started to well up from my heart, and I no longer feel afraid…

The fasting this time, I am feeling more serious and excited than all the previous ones, and my heart is full of expectancy to see God doing new and wonderful things. I also long for God to reveal His heart everyday. So this time I will record what I receive or sense in my spirit, and will try my best to post here everyday as “Fasting Diary” to share with you all, hopefully this will encourage you all as well, Amen!

七年就这样如飞而去。。。 7 years fly by just like that…

七年里面一个人的外貌、环境、心境等等,可以有很多改变。。。至于我呢?那你呢?
你比以前快乐吗?你比以前满足吗?曾经认真想过吗。。。?
Within seven years a person’s appearance, environment, heart condition etc can experience a lot of changes… what about me? And what about you?
Are you happier than before? Are you more satisfied than before?Ever considered that seriously…?

七年前在灯塔 / Seven years ago at Lighthouse – 2004

 

今年在灯塔 / At Lighthouse this year – 2011

 

2004…..

2011…..

因这一次到灯塔教会带给我很大的冲击和鼓励,所以翻开相簿看我2004年在灯塔留下的画面。。。再跟最近刚去灯塔的照片相比较,七年的变化肯定会有,尤其是外貌,岁月的痕迹等等。。。
七年的回忆不仅涌上心头。。。走过的岁月、心路历程、感慨、欣慰、酸甜苦辣等等。。。
七年,脑子里可以浮现很多的画面。。。有些人已去、事已非,但最重要的,我们的心是否对主依然执著、依然单纯?

Due to the impact and encouragement on myself after the visit to Lighthouse this time, I looked into my album again and found the pictures captured at Lighthouse in 2004… comparing them with those photos just taken during the recent visit to Lighthouse, the differences of seven years are definite, especially in terms of appearance, the footprints of years gone by etc…
Memories of seven years inevitably surfaced in my heart… all the days trodden, journey of the heart, remorse, comfort, bitter sweet memories etc…
Seven years, many pictures can come to mind… some of people long gone, things that cannot be undone, but most important of all, is our heart still as determined and pure towards God…?

 

2004…..

 

2011…..

七年里,我知道我不是每次都合神心意,也不是每次都那么专注。。。我也有不顺服的时候,也有分散注意力的时刻。。。
太多时候不明白上帝为什么要使用像我这样的人。。。

In these seven years, I know I may not be after God’s own heart all the time, and may not be completely focused every moment… there were times I did not obey, and times I got distracted…
Too many times I have wondered why God would use a person like me…

 

我想这就是所谓的神的恩典和怜悯,发现他始终没有丢弃我,他对我的心始终如一。。。
只有这样我才能服事下去。。。不是因为配得,而是感恩。。。

I guess that is what we call the grace and mercy of God, to realize that He has never once forsaken me and His heart towards me is ever true…
It is because of this that I can carry on serving… not because I am worthy but grateful…

 

主啊,求保守我的心,永远就只事奉你,永远都把荣耀归给你。。。阿们!
O Lord, please guard my heart to forever serve You alone, and to forever give all the glory to You… Amen!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

这就是我最好看的时刻。。。 Such is my best looking moment…

上次有问过你们想看我最美或最好看的时刻吗,我也叫你们猜猜看那是什么时刻。。。虽然不是很多人有兴趣想知道,但我就偏偏要跟你们分享!好厚脸皮哦!哈哈。。。
I did ask you the other time whether you wanted to see my most beautiful or best looking moment, and I asked you to make a guess too as to which moment that could be… though not many people are interested to know, I still insist on sharing with you! Very thick-skinned! Haha…

看吧!这就是我认为我最“美丽”的时刻!
Take a look! Such is the moment which I think I am the most “beautiful” looking!

有没有搞错?那么难看!瘦得像个难民一样,怎么会说是最美丽的时刻呢?。。。再看一张证实一下!
Anything wrong? So ugly! And as skinny as a refugee, why would anyone say that wa the most beautiful moment?
Let’s take a look at another to confirm!

真的!还是真的非常难看!可以解释一下为什么说这最美丽吗??
Really! It’s still very ugly! Care to explain why this is said to be the most beautiful??

原因是,我认为美丽和好看最重要不是看外表,而是内心世界和跟神的关系而言。。。这些照片是我很多年前禁食了40天过后所拍下作纪念的。我曾经经历了两次40天全禁和两次21天全禁,所谓“全禁”就是三餐都不吃,一直到40天或21天后,不像我们现在的禁法每天还有吃一或两餐。。。

当我说这是最美丽的时刻,指的未必是那个时间或日期,更不是指外型,而是指那种心境和“生命” - 能够顺服主做一些你平常不肯或不可能做的事情,只因听他的话和讨他喜悦,我想这应该就是任何人最美丽的时刻吧,你不认为吗?

我的祷告是,但愿我一辈子都能活出这样美丽的生命。。。阿们!

The reason being, I think beauty or good looks are not based on your outward appearance, but your inner world and relationship with God… These photos were taken many years ago for remembrance after my 40-day fast. I have experienced two times of 40-day complete fast and two times of 21-day complete fast. By “complete fast” I mean not eating any meal at all until after 40 or 21 days, unlike what we are doing now which we still eat a meal or two each day…

When I said this was my most beautiful moment, I was not referring to that specific time or date, even less so referring to looks, I was referring to that inner attitude and “life” – to be able to obey the Lord to do something you normally would not or are not willing to do, just to listen to Him and to please Him. I feel that ought to be the most beautiful moment of anyone’s life, don’t you think so?

My prayer and desire is that I will live out such a beautiful life throughout my life… Amen!