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Day 33: 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary (不轻言放弃 / Do Not Give Up Easily)

第三十三天:11月4日(五)

今晚跟邵牧师翻译时,其中一点他提到的再次提醒我,有些事情若有感动神要我们做,就不可轻言放弃;因为尽管是上帝的旨意和引领,也难免会有挑战和困难的时候。。。

例如:禁食啦、帮助人啦、布道啦、牧养啦等等。。。

“耶稣说:“我的食物就是遵行差我来者的旨意,做成他的工。”
~ 约翰福音 4:34 ~

原来要得着真正的满足,如同一个挨饿的人吃了一顿很满足的饭菜一样,我们不止要遵行神在我们生命中的旨意,还要完成他托付给我们的工作。。。所以,让我们的字典里面没有“放弃”!

当然首先也要先跟上帝亲近,才会晓得他在我们生命中的计划和旨意,这样我们才能去完成它。。。

Day 33 : Nov 4th (Fri)
As I was interpreting for Rev Shao tonight, one of the things he mentioned once again reminded me, when we feel led by God to do certain things, then we must not give up easily; because even if it is God’s will or guidance, sometimes inevitably there will be challenges and difficulties as well…
For example: fasting, helping others, evangelizing, shepherding etc…
“My food,” said Jesus, “is to do the will of him who sent me and to finish his work.”
~ John 4:34 ~
So, in order to receive real satisfaction, like a hungry man having just eaten a very satisfying and sumptuous meal, we not only need to obey or do God’s will in our lives, we have to complete the work He has entrusted us too… Therefore, let the words “give up” not be found in our dictionary!
But of course first of all we must be close to God, then will we know His plan and will in our lives, only then can we go and complete it…

 

Day 32: 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary (梦想成真 / Dream Came True)

 

第三十二天:11月3日(四)

这情景很熟悉,似曾相识。。。原来是多年前在我脑海里浮现,我梦想拥有的房间。。。
一个舒适的房间,有大的玻璃门看出去外面的风景,纱布的窗帘等等。。。后来也没再去想,因为日子久了,不是忘了,就是觉得很不可能。。。

如今却不知不觉的实现了!也没刻意向神求,只是在我自己心中的一个梦想,在我脑海里的一个画面,上帝都看见且赐给我了!
我只能说:袮为何对我那么好?

“我的心哪,你要称颂耶和华,不可忘记他的一切恩惠。 。。 他用美物,使你所愿的得以知足,以致你如鹰返老还童。”
~ 诗篇 103:2,5 ~

我相信当你有一颗感恩、赞美、事奉神的心,求他的国和他的义,很多你没有求的东西,他都会赐给你了。这是我这些年来所经历的。
深感不配,却是那么感恩,我好喜欢他给我的房间。。。其实不只这个,还有很多梦想,他都让它们一一的成真了!

上帝晓得你的心愿,只要你紧紧跟随他,他不会留下什么好处不给你。


Day 32 : Nov 3rd (Thur)

This scene looks very familiar, like I have seen it somewhere before… Then I realized it was something in my mind, the “dream room” that I would love to have many years ago…
A very comfortable room with big glass doors to look out at the scenery outside, flowing curtains etc… But I did not think about it again later, because after a long time, it was either I had forgotten about it or I thought it was not so possible…

And now, without even realizing, it came to pass! I did not specifically ask God for it, it was just a dream in my heart, a picture in my mind, and God saw it and gave it to me!
I can only say: Why are You so good to me?

“Praise the LORD, my soul,
and forget not all his benefits… who satisfies your desires with good things
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s. ”
~ Psalm 103:2,5 ~

I believe when you have a heart that is grateful, full of praise and wanting to serve Him, seek His kingdom and righteousness, many things that you do not even ask Him, He will nevertheless give them to you. This is what I experienced all these years. I deeply feel I am not worthy but am full of gratitude at the same time, I really like my room… In fact, not just this, there were many other dreams too that He has made them come true!

God knows your desires, as long as you follow Him closely, He will not hold back any good thing not to give you.

Day 31 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary (我没有力气了 / I Am Feeling Very Weak)

第三十一天:11月2日(三)

今早其实还起得蛮早,可是就觉得全身无力气,不想动,一坐下来就不想站起来什么的。。。
去教会参加晨祷,如往常阿黄会先带领,我到了就接下去。

今天我接过来,感觉有气无力,连麦克风都觉得重!坐也不是,跪也不是,唱歌没力气。。。差不多15分钟过后,我不行了,我走过去叫阿黄接下去带领,我去办公室休息。。。

在办公室的沙发一躺下来,马上睡着,一睡就睡了三个多小时,还是没力气起来,头还有点痛。一下子又是中午祷告时间了,我用尽力气带领,撑了差不多20分钟,又不行了,交给毅伟带下去。。。

没有上帝的支撑、力量与怜悯,我知道我是没办法继续这纯白开水的禁食的。今天,我再次被提醒,本来就不是我的本事,我的力量,我的能干,我的坚持等等。。。一切本来就源自与神,都是他的恩典和怜悯。。。

“我靠着那加给我力量的,凡事都能做。”
~ 腓立比书 4:13 ~

Day 31 : Nov 2nd (Wed)

Actually I got up quite early this morning, but I felt totally strength-less, did not feel like moving, and once I sat down, I did not feel like getting up and so on…
Went to the morning prayer at church, as usual Bong will be leading first and I just take over when I arrive.
When I took over this morning, I felt no strength in me, even the microphone felt heavy! To sit or to kneel, nothing seemed right, no strength to sing as well… After about 15 minutes, I really could not stand anymore, I walked over to Bong and asked him to continue leading. I went to my office for a rest.
When I lay down on my office couch, I fell asleep instantly, and I woke up more than three hours later! Still I had no strength to get up, and I had a slight headache too. After a while, it was the noon-time prayer again. I garnered all my strength to lead, after enduring for about 20 minutes, I could not handle again and asked Yi Wei to take over…
Without God’s support, strength and mercy, I know there is no way I could continue with this “plain water only” fast. Today, once again I am reminded, it has never been my capability, my strength, my ability, my determination etc… all along everything comes from God, it is all His grace and mercy…

“I can do everything through him who gives me strength.”
~ Philippians 4:13 ~

 

Day 30 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary (那单纯的小孩 / That Innocent Boy)

 

第三十天:11月1日(二)

这几天脑子里一直想着那个孩童,即约翰福音6:9的:

“在这里有一个孩童,带着五个大麦饼、两条鱼,只是分给这许多人,还算甚么呢?”

一个单纯的小孩,却有无私的心,愿意把自己很有限的分享出去给别人。。。结果耶稣让这份心意成为超过所求所想的神迹,让小孩的几片小饼和两条小鱼,喂饱上万人,还有剩下装满十二个篮子!

主啊,我多愿意有这小孩的单纯与信心!

这段禁食期间,神让我特别敏锐越发多人的需要,加以采取实际行动;可是有限的我,也只能像这小孩一样献上我的一点点,神也很快让我看到意想不到的效果。

让我很感动的是,大哥读了我“免了人的债”的日记后,他马上回应说他也要跟我同样如此做!我感恩,神迹就这样散播。。。

“凡有世上财物的,看见弟兄穷乏,却塞住怜恤的心,爱 神的心怎能存在他里面呢?
小子们哪,我们相爱,不要只在言语和舌头上,总要在行为和诚实上。”
~ 约翰一书 3:17-18 ~

Day 30 : Nov 1st (Tue)
These few days, my mind has been thinking about that small boy mentioned in John 6:9:
“Here is a boy with five small barley loaves and two small fish, but how far will they go among so many?”
An innocent child with an unselfish heart, willingly shared the very limited he had with others… As a result, Jesus made this desire become a miracle that was beyond any asking and imagination, using the boy’s few small loaves and two small fish to feed more than ten thousand people to their satisfaction, and the leftover filled twelve baskets!
O Lord, I am very willing to have this boy’s innocence and faith!
During this fasting period, God made me specially sensitive to even more people in need, and also to take practical steps to help. But the very limited me could only offer up the little that I have like that little boy, and God shows me the unexpected result very fast as well.
What really touched me was, after my eldest brother read my diary on “forgiving the debts of others”, he immediately responded and said he is going to do the same! I am grateful, miracles are spreading…
“If anyone has material possessions and sees his brother in need but has no pity on him, how can the love of God be in him?
Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth.”
~ 1 John 3:17-18 ~

Day 29 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary (我的骨肉 / My Flesh And Blood)

 

 

第二十九天:10月31日(一)

无论是在家里,办公室,或在台上,每次读到以赛亚58:7,上帝说他所拣选的禁食不是要“顾恤自己的骨肉而不掩藏吗?”这一句时,就会出现我一个姐姐的脸孔。。。

起初不以为然,可是数天下来,每每在读这经文,还是出现我姐的脸孔!今早我确定了,上帝要我帮她!

打了电话把他们两夫妇叫来我家,我跟他们谈我的感动,以神的话激励他们。
然后,我告诉他们我要以很实际的方式,帮助他们在经济上取得突破和自由,说是上帝给我的负担和感动。。。

除了很实际又长远的帮到他们现时的需要之外,我还告诉他们两夫妇,他们欠了我很多年的一笔钱不必还给我了,我说反正我没需要。

姐姐急忙说:可是我心里有负担,我有责任要想办法把钱还给你。。。
我说:你有负担因为之前我从没说过,你的债被免了;可是现在,我当着你们夫妇的面说,所欠我的不必还了,一分钱都不必,神要我祝福你们。

其实他们两夫妇都个别欠了我一些钱,很多年了,我都忘了数目了。

临走时,姐夫紧紧的握住我的手,声声说:谢谢你,谢谢你。。。

我看到他眼眶内有泪水。。。

“免我们的债,如同我们免了人的债。”
~ 马太福音 6:12 ~

禁食祷告求恩膏,恩膏又是为了什么?

“主的灵在我身上,因为他用膏膏我,叫我传福音给贫穷的人;差遣我报告被掳的得释放,瞎眼的得看见,叫那受压制的得自由。”
~ 路加福音4:18 ~

 

Day 29 : Oct 31st (Mon)

Whether at home, in the office, or behind the pulpit, each time when I read Isaiah 58:7, where God mentioned the kind of fasting He has chosen is  “not to turn away from your own flesh and blood”, one of my sisters’ face would appear in my mind…

At first, I did not pay attention to that, but day after day, whenever I read this verse, my sister’s face would appear again! This morning I became certain God wants me to help her!

I called her and the husband to come see me, I told them the conviction in my heart, encouraged them with the word of God.
Then, I told them I want to use a very practical way to help them see breakthrough and freedom in their finance. I said that is the burden and conviction God has given me…

Apart from very practically and in a lasting manner helping them with their current need, I told them both as well, they do not have to pay me back anymore the money they owed me for many years already. I said after all I do not need the money too.

My sister quickly said: But I have the burden in my heart, I have the responsibility to pay you back…
I said: You have the burden because I never told you before your debt is forgiven;  but now, I say it right in front of you both, you do not need to return the money to me, not even a cent, God wants me to bless you.

Actually both of them separately owed me some money for many years already, I have even forgotten the amount.

Before they left, my brother in law shook and held my hand tightly, saying: Thank you, thank you…

I saw tears in his eyes…

“Forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors.”
~ Matthew 6:12 ~

We fast and pray for anointing, but what is the anointing for?

“The Spirit of the Lord is on me, because he has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners and recovery of sight for the blind, to release the oppressed”
~ Luke 4:18 ~

Day 28 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary (被吓坏的小孩 / The Very Frightened Kid)

第二十八天:10月30日(日)

Facebook的留言箱收到这则短讯:“牧师…昨晚的事情我家人叫我跟你说声谢谢。真的很谢谢你…”

原来昨晚祷告会结束时,我被告知保安人员抓到一个教会的小孩,刮花了几辆停在外面的车;他们说保安人员和小孩父母正在停车场质问这小孩。我听了很生气,怎么有那么顽皮的小孩,我一定要训他一顿!

我就走去停车场,准备好好的教训一番。到那边时,看到小孩的父母和哭到很惨以致于全身虚弱、不停发抖的小孩。。。不可能吧!怎么会是他?我无法相信,因为我知道这小孩。。。

我就听到小孩哭着连连的说:我没有。。。我没有。。。
他母亲看到我来了,很生气的骂他说:你自己跟牧师讲!
我把手搭在他肩膀上,尽量安抚他的情绪,慢慢的问他说:你真的没有吗?
小孩哭着说:他们都看到我有,但是我真的没有。。。

我问保安人员说:你们亲眼看到他在刮车吗?
保安人员说:问题就是没看到,但是就只有他在现场,而且行动可疑。
我:所以没有人看到他刮啊?
他们:没有。。。
我:那就不能确定说是他啊。。。这小孩我认识,依我看,他再大胆也不敢做这种事。

我跟小孩父母说,我相信他不会这样子做。但同时我也问小孩说:你祷告会到一半怎么会出现在停车场?
小孩(边哭边说):我出来走走。。。
我:这样做对吗?祷告会正在进行,你不祷告却离开父母跑出来玩?可以吗?
小孩:我不对。。。不可以。。。
我:这一点你是不是做错了?
小孩:是。。。
我:所以才会出现这被人误会的问题啊,明白吗?你如果乖乖留在父母身边,在教堂里面祷告,就不会有事了,你说是不是?
小孩:是。。。

我带着小孩祷告,一切圆满结束。。。

那么巧昨晚在祷告会我们不断唱着:“你的同在没有什么能取代,只是有时我会傻傻的离开。。。”,正如发生的这个事件!
我们真的不该离开神的同在,一离开,问题就会来。。。

“住在至高者隐密处的,必住在全能者的荫下。。。
他必用自己的翎毛遮蔽你,你要投靠在他的翅膀底下。他的诚实是大小的盾牌。”
~ 诗篇91:1, 4 ~

Day 28 : Oct 30th (Sun)

I received this message in my Facebook Messages box: “Pastor… my family asked me to convey their thanks to you concerning last night’s incident. Really thank you…”

The reason was after the prayer meeting last night, I was informed by the security people that they caught a boy from church who used some sharp object to scratch many cars parked outside. They said the security people and the kid’s parents were at the parking lot questioning the kid now. I got very angry when I heard that, how could there be such a naughty kid, I must sternly lecture him!

So I walked toward the parking lot, preparing to scold the boy seriously. When I got there, I saw the kid’s parents and the boy who appeared weak and was trembling from too much crying… No, it can’t be! How could it be him? I could not believe because I know the boy…

All I heard was the boy crying and saying repeatedly: I didn’t do it… I didn’t…
His mother saw me, and scolded the boy angrily: You tell pastor yourself!
I put my hand on his shoulder, trying to calm him down, I asked him slowly: You really didn’t do it?
he cried and said: They all saw me doing it but I really didn’t…

I asked the security people: Did you guys catch him red-handed and actually see him scratching the cars?
Security: That’s the problem, we didn’t see him actually doing it, but he was the only one there and he looked suspicious.
Me: So nobody saw him do it?
Security: No, nobody actually saw…
Me: Then we can’t be so sure to say it’s him… I know this kid, if you ask me, I don’t think he would dare to do such a thing.

I told the parents I believe he would not do such a thing. But at the same time, I asked the kid: How come you were at the car-park half way through the prayer meeting?
Kid (still crying): I came out for a walk…
Me: Is it right to do that? The prayer meeting was in progress, you did not join in and yet left your parents to come out to play? Can you do that?
Kid: It is not right… I shouldn’t have done that…
Me: So do you see that you are wrong in this aspect?
Kid: Yes…
Me: That is why this problem of being misunderstood happened, understand? If you had stayed obediently with your parents, praying in the church, nothing would have happened, isn’t that right?
Kid: Yes…

I led the kid to pray, everything ended well…

Just so happened that we were singing repeatedly in the prayer meeting last night: “Nothing can ever replace being in Your presence, but sometimes I would foolishly leave Your presence…” Just like what happened in this incident!
We really must not leave the presence of God, when we do, problems come…

“He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty…

He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.”
~ Psalm 91:1, 4 ~

Day 27 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary (爸爸的心 / Father’s Heart)

 

第二十七天:10月29日(六)

今天跟大家分享那天在吉隆坡听到的比喻,Pastor David Demian分享了一个很生动的画面,然后问了一个问题;我心中马上冒起一个念头说,我一定要跟教会分享这个感人比喻。

Pastor David叫我们想像一个画面,一个爸爸带他几个小孩外游,到运动场时跟他几位小孩说,大家来赛跑。因为每个小孩年龄不同,弱小的肯定是跑输的。Pastor David就问我们说,开始跑了,爸爸应该会跑在哪个孩子的身边,与他同步或作伴?

大家马上知道答案,爸爸当然是与那最弱小、跑最后的在一起,怕他被抛在后头,跌倒啊,受伤啊,什么的。。。

那就是爸爸的爱,那就是天父的爱。。。可是我们却常常觉得每当自己软弱、跌倒、不合神心意、不是一个很好的基督徒的时候,神一定不再爱我们,会生气我们,把我们丢下来不理。。。事实是,天父反而会陪在我们身边,鼓励我们,帮助我们继续跑到终点。。。

“于是起来,往他父亲那里去。相离还远,他父亲看见,就动了慈心,跑去抱着他的颈项,连连与他亲嘴。”
~ 路加福音15:20 ~

Day 27 : Oct 29th (Sat)

I shared with the church the parable I heard in KL that day, Pastor David Demian shared a very vivid illustration, then he asked us a question. At that moment, a thought entered my mind immediately that I must share this touching parable with the church.

Pastor David asked us to imagine a scenario where a father brings his kids for an outing, and in the sports field he tells his kids to have a race with him. Because each child’s age is different, so the younger or weaker ones would certainly lose. Then Pastor David asked us, when they begin running, which child will the father be running beside, same pace with him and accompanying him?

Immediately we all knew the answer, of course the father will be with the weakest and the one running last, fearing that this kid would be left far behind, that he might fall or hurt himself or what…

That is the love of a father, that is the love of our Father God… but so many times we tend to feel that God will stop loving us, be mad at us, or abandon and ignore us when we are weak, when we fall, not so pleasing to God, or when we feel we are not a good Christian… The truth is, our Father God will instead be by our side, encouraging us and helping us to continue running till the finishing line…

“So he got up and went to his father. “But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.”
~ Luke 15:20 ~

 

Day 26 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary(风随意吹 / As The Wind Blows)

 

 

第二十六天:10月28日(五)

昨天早上,在无预警之下,接了一通电话,感觉神要我飞往吉隆坡,所以我照着行了。今天又飞回古晋了。。。
看似,甚至感觉上身体会累,但灵里却饱足,得着神的喂养和鼓励。

一回到古晋也没休息,就准备晚上要在青少团分享的信息;神很恩待我,只要我向他求,他就会感动我,让我很轻易就准备好我的讲章,或脑海里就晓得要分享什么。

过后,像每个礼拜五一样,我载恩恩去学钢琴,等他下课,带他去游泳。。。生活如常,都是神的恩典!

我的讲章一般上只写下一些重点,可是每次在台上就会有源源不断的启示和感动跟大家分享。圣灵的感动和启示也是神给我的一个极大恩典,非靠自己努力,不需要想破脑袋,是圣灵随意而给。

喜欢耶稣的这一句话:

“风随着意思吹,你听见风的响声,却不晓得从哪里来,往哪里去;凡从圣灵生的,也是如此。”
~ 约翰福音3:8 ~

神的话真的很真,只要单纯相信,渴慕追求,你必定经历他的真实!

Day 26 : Oct 28th (Fri)

Yesterday morning, without any prior notice, I received a telephone call and felt God wanted me to fly to KL, so I did. I flew back to Kuching today…

Looked like, or even really tired physically, but spiritually satisfied, receiving God’s feeding and encouragement.

I did not rest as soon as I reached Kuching, I prepared the message I was to share at the Young Adults and Youths combined meeting tonight.. God is very gracious to me, as long as I ask Him, He will prompt my heart and I would then be able to easily get my sermon ready, or I would know what to share in my mind.

After that, like any other Friday, I sent Moses to his piano class, waited for him to finish, brought him to swim… life went on like normal, this is all the grace of God!

Normally I only write down the main points in my sermon notes, but each time I would have unending flow of revelations and convictions to share when I am on stage. The conviction and revelation of the Holy Spirit is also one great gracious gift God had given me, not by my own effort, not through thinking myself nuts, but freely given by the Holy Spirit.
I love what Jesus said:

‘The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit.”
~ John 3:8 ~

God’s Word is indeed very true, as long as you believe innocently, have the hunger or desire, you will surely experience His reality!

Day 25 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary (嘿!嘿!嘿!好奇怪哦!/ Hey! Hey! Hey! Something Strange!)

 

 第二十五天:10月27日(四)

今天发生了一件很奇怪的事情。。。
晨祷过后,接到吉隆坡来的电话,让我决定飞过去一趟,明天再飞回来,所以就忙着上网查机位和时间。
正忙碌的时候,我也传简讯向身在温哥华的思秀要一些资料,她马上也把资料传给我。我继续忙着要订机票。。。

突然,看到思秀又一则简讯进来说“哦,阿们!”,我停顿一下想她在“阿们”什么?我刚才说了什么?
在好奇之下,我打开简讯箱去看她“阿们”我讲的什么东西。。。看到她“阿们”的简讯上面一则“我”所传给她的简讯。。。
但是。。。咦?我有传给她这则简讯吗?才两分钟前传的信息,我怎么毫无印象或记忆我有打这一行字?!

我停下工作企图再想一想,我有传这则简讯给她吗?难道我的手指这么快,潜意识里传简讯自己都不察觉?!
这简讯说:“God will bless you beyond your imagination.” (译:神会赐福你超越你所能够想像。)

我就赶忙回复思秀说:“Hey hey hey, something very strange!!!”(嘿嘿嘿,很奇怪的一件事!!!)

我就告诉她怎么我都想不起来我有传那简讯给她,而且只不过是两、三分钟前!她听了非常感动!

总之,不管是不是我在潜意识里传给她,或者“不是我”。。。我都相信是神的作为!能在潜意识里也祝福人的确是很不错的一件事;另,我们能接受耶稣会传简讯吗?对我来说,邪灵所传的简讯我都收过,难道耶稣不能吗?

下午我就飞往吉隆坡,参加晚上的聚会,在敬拜的时候,带领敬拜的姐妹被圣灵感动放声大哭,起初我听得真的还有点不习惯,而且也蛮长的一段时间她这样子。突然间,她停止哭泣,她大声的说了几声“嘿!嘿!嘿!”。。。我马上想起我早上简讯里的“嘿!嘿!嘿!”,感觉是上帝叫回我“嘿!嘿!嘿!”!。。。我有点微笑因觉得好笑。。。

里面一个念头出现:上帝如果要做一些新事,是我们无法想像的,尽管是耶稣传简讯鼓励我们,我们真的能相信和接受吗?
我感觉上帝问我那个问题。。。

“神能照着运行在我们心里的大力,充充足足地成就一切,超过我们所求所想的。”
~ 以弗所书3:20 ~

 

 

Day 25 : Oct 27th (Thur)

Something very strange happened today…
After the morning prayer, I received a call from KL, and I decided to fly over and come back the next morning. So I quickly went online to check the flight situation.
While I was busy doing that, I sent a text message to Esther in Vancouver asking for some information. She sent me the information immediately. I continued with my ticket checking…

Suddenly, another text message of Esther’s came in saying “Oh Amen!”, I paused a while to think as to what she was saying “Amen” to? What did I say just now?
Out of curiosity, I opened the messages box to see what was the thing that I said to cause her to say “Amen” to… Then I saw above her “Amen” message was another message that “I” typed…
But… wait! Did I send her this message? Only about two minutes ago, how come I had no impression or memory at all of sending her this message?!

I stopped work to try to recall, did I send her this message? Are my fingers so fast that I typed this subconsciously without realizing?!
The message says: “God will bless you beyond your imagination.”

I quickly replied her and said: “Hey hey hey, something very strange!!!”

I told Esther I just could not recall ever sending her that message, and it was only sent about two or three minutes ago! She was very touched when she heard!

No matter what, whether it was me sending it subconsciously or “not me”… I believe it is the work of God! To be able to bless people even in your subconscious state is indeed a very good thing; also, can we accept the fact that Jesus knows how to send text messages? As for me, I have received text messages from demons before, so why can’t Jesus send text messages?

I flew to KL in the afternoon, joined the evening meeting. During the worship, the worship leader was filled with the Holy Spirit and crying loudly, I was kind of not very comfortable at first, and it went on for quite a while. Suddenly she stopped crying, and she said loudly a few times “Hey! Hey! Hey!”… I was immediately reminded of my text message in the morning saying “Hey hey hey”, and I felt like God was answering me back with “Hey! Hey! Hey!”… I felt kind of funny and smiled…

Then a thought appeared inside: If God were to do something new that is beyond our imagination, even if it is Jesus sending a text message to encourage us, can we really believe and accept that?
I felt God was asking me that…

“Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us.”
~ Ephesians 3:20 ~

Day 24 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary (行善不丧志 / Not Grow Tired Of Doing Right)

 

第二十四天:10月26日(三)

昨晚的梦又有点奇特。。。一般上,晚上睡觉做梦,若半途醒来,再睡下去梦境就会不一样。昨晚我一入眠,如往常一样又开始做梦了;可是不知怎的,昨晚睡得不是很好,陆陆续续醒来至少五、六次!奇怪的是,每一次再倒回去睡,又开始进入同样或类似的梦境!虽然未必一模一样的情景或人物,但梦的主题都一样。
在梦里,我都是在不断的计划如何帮助及祝福到更多人。。。

这仿佛是上帝在鼓励我说:

“弟兄们,你们行善不可丧志。”
~ 帖后3:13 ~

因为昨天我又再想,若要真正帮助到很多人,真的是很多东西要做、想、预备、计划等等,而时间又很有限,人的体力也有限,难免也会有无力感。
况且,这一次的禁食祷告,上帝又不断给我感动、指示、带领、看见人的需要。。。所以昨天我在想,我能做得了多少?
晚上就一连续做了继续帮助人的梦!

其实,这情形已经是这一次禁食祷告中的第二次,上个礼拜我也感觉有点累时,我的外地朋友也莫名其妙做了一个鼓励我继续帮助人的梦!

是的,主啊,我愿意顺服,但求你也加添力量、智慧、和资源,也求袮带来愿意及真能够协助的人一起来搭配,谢谢!

 

Day 24 : Oct 26th (Wed)

Last night’s dreams were kind of special… Normally, when I dream at night, if awakened half way, the next dream would be different when I fall asleep again. Immediately after I had fallen asleep last night, as usual I started dreaming. Strangely I did not sleep well last night, I woke up at least five or six times in between! But the strange thing was, each time when I went back to sleep, I would re-enter into the same or similar dream! Though it might not be exactly the same scenario or people that appeared, the theme of the dreams was all the same.
In all the dreams, I was doing the same thing as in planning unceasingly to help and bless more people…

This is just as though God is encouraging and telling me:

“And as for you, brothers, never tire of doing what is right.”
~ 2 Thessalonians 3:13 ~

Because yesterday I was thinking once again, if I were to seriously and truly help many people, then there would be many things to do, think, prepare, plan etc, and my time is so limited, physical strength is limited as well, so inevitably I felt kind of helpless.
Furthermore, during our fasting and praying this time, God continually prompts me, directs, leads and shows me the needs of people… That is why I was thinking yesterday, how much can I do?
And immediately I had dreams of continuing to help needy people last night!

In fact, this situation is the second during this fasting season, last week when I was also kind of feeling tired, my foreign friend also unexpectedly had a dream that encouraged me to continue helping others!

Yes, O Lord! I am willing to obey, but please increase my strength, wisdom, and resources, and also do bring along co-workers who are willing and able to help, thanks!