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Day 33: 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary (不轻言放弃 / Do Not Give Up Easily)

第三十三天:11月4日(五)

今晚跟邵牧师翻译时,其中一点他提到的再次提醒我,有些事情若有感动神要我们做,就不可轻言放弃;因为尽管是上帝的旨意和引领,也难免会有挑战和困难的时候。。。

例如:禁食啦、帮助人啦、布道啦、牧养啦等等。。。

“耶稣说:“我的食物就是遵行差我来者的旨意,做成他的工。”
~ 约翰福音 4:34 ~

原来要得着真正的满足,如同一个挨饿的人吃了一顿很满足的饭菜一样,我们不止要遵行神在我们生命中的旨意,还要完成他托付给我们的工作。。。所以,让我们的字典里面没有“放弃”!

当然首先也要先跟上帝亲近,才会晓得他在我们生命中的计划和旨意,这样我们才能去完成它。。。

Day 33 : Nov 4th (Fri)
As I was interpreting for Rev Shao tonight, one of the things he mentioned once again reminded me, when we feel led by God to do certain things, then we must not give up easily; because even if it is God’s will or guidance, sometimes inevitably there will be challenges and difficulties as well…
For example: fasting, helping others, evangelizing, shepherding etc…
“My food,” said Jesus, “is to do the will of him who sent me and to finish his work.”
~ John 4:34 ~
So, in order to receive real satisfaction, like a hungry man having just eaten a very satisfying and sumptuous meal, we not only need to obey or do God’s will in our lives, we have to complete the work He has entrusted us too… Therefore, let the words “give up” not be found in our dictionary!
But of course first of all we must be close to God, then will we know His plan and will in our lives, only then can we go and complete it…

 

Day 32: 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary (梦想成真 / Dream Came True)

 

第三十二天:11月3日(四)

这情景很熟悉,似曾相识。。。原来是多年前在我脑海里浮现,我梦想拥有的房间。。。
一个舒适的房间,有大的玻璃门看出去外面的风景,纱布的窗帘等等。。。后来也没再去想,因为日子久了,不是忘了,就是觉得很不可能。。。

如今却不知不觉的实现了!也没刻意向神求,只是在我自己心中的一个梦想,在我脑海里的一个画面,上帝都看见且赐给我了!
我只能说:袮为何对我那么好?

“我的心哪,你要称颂耶和华,不可忘记他的一切恩惠。 。。 他用美物,使你所愿的得以知足,以致你如鹰返老还童。”
~ 诗篇 103:2,5 ~

我相信当你有一颗感恩、赞美、事奉神的心,求他的国和他的义,很多你没有求的东西,他都会赐给你了。这是我这些年来所经历的。
深感不配,却是那么感恩,我好喜欢他给我的房间。。。其实不只这个,还有很多梦想,他都让它们一一的成真了!

上帝晓得你的心愿,只要你紧紧跟随他,他不会留下什么好处不给你。


Day 32 : Nov 3rd (Thur)

This scene looks very familiar, like I have seen it somewhere before… Then I realized it was something in my mind, the “dream room” that I would love to have many years ago…
A very comfortable room with big glass doors to look out at the scenery outside, flowing curtains etc… But I did not think about it again later, because after a long time, it was either I had forgotten about it or I thought it was not so possible…

And now, without even realizing, it came to pass! I did not specifically ask God for it, it was just a dream in my heart, a picture in my mind, and God saw it and gave it to me!
I can only say: Why are You so good to me?

“Praise the LORD, my soul,
and forget not all his benefits… who satisfies your desires with good things
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s. ”
~ Psalm 103:2,5 ~

I believe when you have a heart that is grateful, full of praise and wanting to serve Him, seek His kingdom and righteousness, many things that you do not even ask Him, He will nevertheless give them to you. This is what I experienced all these years. I deeply feel I am not worthy but am full of gratitude at the same time, I really like my room… In fact, not just this, there were many other dreams too that He has made them come true!

God knows your desires, as long as you follow Him closely, He will not hold back any good thing not to give you.

Day 31 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary (我没有力气了 / I Am Feeling Very Weak)

第三十一天:11月2日(三)

今早其实还起得蛮早,可是就觉得全身无力气,不想动,一坐下来就不想站起来什么的。。。
去教会参加晨祷,如往常阿黄会先带领,我到了就接下去。

今天我接过来,感觉有气无力,连麦克风都觉得重!坐也不是,跪也不是,唱歌没力气。。。差不多15分钟过后,我不行了,我走过去叫阿黄接下去带领,我去办公室休息。。。

在办公室的沙发一躺下来,马上睡着,一睡就睡了三个多小时,还是没力气起来,头还有点痛。一下子又是中午祷告时间了,我用尽力气带领,撑了差不多20分钟,又不行了,交给毅伟带下去。。。

没有上帝的支撑、力量与怜悯,我知道我是没办法继续这纯白开水的禁食的。今天,我再次被提醒,本来就不是我的本事,我的力量,我的能干,我的坚持等等。。。一切本来就源自与神,都是他的恩典和怜悯。。。

“我靠着那加给我力量的,凡事都能做。”
~ 腓立比书 4:13 ~

Day 31 : Nov 2nd (Wed)

Actually I got up quite early this morning, but I felt totally strength-less, did not feel like moving, and once I sat down, I did not feel like getting up and so on…
Went to the morning prayer at church, as usual Bong will be leading first and I just take over when I arrive.
When I took over this morning, I felt no strength in me, even the microphone felt heavy! To sit or to kneel, nothing seemed right, no strength to sing as well… After about 15 minutes, I really could not stand anymore, I walked over to Bong and asked him to continue leading. I went to my office for a rest.
When I lay down on my office couch, I fell asleep instantly, and I woke up more than three hours later! Still I had no strength to get up, and I had a slight headache too. After a while, it was the noon-time prayer again. I garnered all my strength to lead, after enduring for about 20 minutes, I could not handle again and asked Yi Wei to take over…
Without God’s support, strength and mercy, I know there is no way I could continue with this “plain water only” fast. Today, once again I am reminded, it has never been my capability, my strength, my ability, my determination etc… all along everything comes from God, it is all His grace and mercy…

“I can do everything through him who gives me strength.”
~ Philippians 4:13 ~