第三十天：11月1日(二)

这几天脑子里一直想着那个孩童，即约翰福音6:9的：

“在这里有一个孩童，带着五个大麦饼、两条鱼，只是分给这许多人，还算甚么呢？”

一个单纯的小孩，却有无私的心，愿意把自己很有限的分享出去给别人。。。结果耶稣让这份心意成为超过所求所想的神迹，让小孩的几片小饼和两条小鱼，喂饱上万人，还有剩下装满十二个篮子！

主啊，我多愿意有这小孩的单纯与信心！

这段禁食期间，神让我特别敏锐越发多人的需要，加以采取实际行动；可是有限的我，也只能像这小孩一样献上我的一点点，神也很快让我看到意想不到的效果。

让我很感动的是，大哥读了我“免了人的债”的日记后，他马上回应说他也要跟我同样如此做！我感恩，神迹就这样散播。。。

“凡有世上财物的，看见弟兄穷乏，却塞住怜恤的心，爱　神的心怎能存在他里面呢？
小子们哪，我们相爱，不要只在言语和舌头上，总要在行为和诚实上。”
～ 约翰一书 3:17-18 ～

第二十九天：10月31日(一)

无论是在家里，办公室，或在台上，每次读到以赛亚58:7，上帝说他所拣选的禁食不是要“顾恤自己的骨肉而不掩藏吗？”这一句时，就会出现我一个姐姐的脸孔。。。

起初不以为然，可是数天下来，每每在读这经文，还是出现我姐的脸孔！今早我确定了，上帝要我帮她！

打了电话把他们两夫妇叫来我家，我跟他们谈我的感动，以神的话激励他们。
然后，我告诉他们我要以很实际的方式，帮助他们在经济上取得突破和自由，说是上帝给我的负担和感动。。。

除了很实际又长远的帮到他们现时的需要之外，我还告诉他们两夫妇，他们欠了我很多年的一笔钱不必还给我了，我说反正我没需要。

姐姐急忙说：可是我心里有负担，我有责任要想办法把钱还给你。。。
我说：你有负担因为之前我从没说过，你的债被免了；可是现在，我当着你们夫妇的面说，所欠我的不必还了，一分钱都不必，神要我祝福你们。

其实他们两夫妇都个别欠了我一些钱，很多年了，我都忘了数目了。

临走时，姐夫紧紧的握住我的手，声声说：谢谢你，谢谢你。。。

我看到他眼眶内有泪水。。。

“免我们的债，如同我们免了人的债。”
～ 马太福音 6:12 ～

禁食祷告求恩膏，恩膏又是为了什么？

“主的灵在我身上，因为他用膏膏我，叫我传福音给贫穷的人；差遣我报告被掳的得释放，瞎眼的得看见，叫那受压制的得自由。”
～ 路加福音4:18 ～

Day 29 : Oct 31st (Mon)

Whether at home, in the office, or behind the pulpit, each time when I read Isaiah 58:7, where God mentioned the kind of fasting He has chosen is  “not to turn away from your own flesh and blood”, one of my sisters’ face would appear in my mind…

At first, I did not pay attention to that, but day after day, whenever I read this verse, my sister’s face would appear again! This morning I became certain God wants me to help her!

I called her and the husband to come see me, I told them the conviction in my heart, encouraged them with the word of God.
Then, I told them I want to use a very practical way to help them see breakthrough and freedom in their finance. I said that is the burden and conviction God has given me…

Apart from very practically and in a lasting manner helping them with their current need, I told them both as well, they do not have to pay me back anymore the money they owed me for many years already. I said after all I do not need the money too.

My sister quickly said: But I have the burden in my heart, I have the responsibility to pay you back…
I said: You have the burden because I never told you before your debt is forgiven;  but now, I say it right in front of you both, you do not need to return the money to me, not even a cent, God wants me to bless you.

Actually both of them separately owed me some money for many years already, I have even forgotten the amount.

Before they left, my brother in law shook and held my hand tightly, saying: Thank you, thank you…

I saw tears in his eyes…

“Forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors.”
~ Matthew 6:12 ~

We fast and pray for anointing, but what is the anointing for?

第二十八天：10月30日(日)

Facebook的留言箱收到这则短讯：“牧师…昨晚的事情我家人叫我跟你说声谢谢。真的很谢谢你…”

原来昨晚祷告会结束时，我被告知保安人员抓到一个教会的小孩，刮花了几辆停在外面的车；他们说保安人员和小孩父母正在停车场质问这小孩。我听了很生气，怎么有那么顽皮的小孩，我一定要训他一顿！

我就走去停车场，准备好好的教训一番。到那边时，看到小孩的父母和哭到很惨以致于全身虚弱、不停发抖的小孩。。。不可能吧！怎么会是他？我无法相信，因为我知道这小孩。。。

我就听到小孩哭着连连的说：我没有。。。我没有。。。
他母亲看到我来了，很生气的骂他说：你自己跟牧师讲！
我把手搭在他肩膀上，尽量安抚他的情绪，慢慢的问他说：你真的没有吗？
小孩哭着说：他们都看到我有，但是我真的没有。。。

我问保安人员说：你们亲眼看到他在刮车吗？
保安人员说：问题就是没看到，但是就只有他在现场，而且行动可疑。
我：所以没有人看到他刮啊？
他们：没有。。。
我：那就不能确定说是他啊。。。这小孩我认识，依我看，他再大胆也不敢做这种事。

我跟小孩父母说，我相信他不会这样子做。但同时我也问小孩说：你祷告会到一半怎么会出现在停车场？
小孩（边哭边说）：我出来走走。。。
我：这样做对吗？祷告会正在进行，你不祷告却离开父母跑出来玩？可以吗？
小孩：我不对。。。不可以。。。
我：这一点你是不是做错了？
小孩：是。。。
我：所以才会出现这被人误会的问题啊，明白吗？你如果乖乖留在父母身边，在教堂里面祷告，就不会有事了，你说是不是？
小孩：是。。。

我带着小孩祷告，一切圆满结束。。。

那么巧昨晚在祷告会我们不断唱着：“你的同在没有什么能取代，只是有时我会傻傻的离开。。。”，正如发生的这个事件！
我们真的不该离开神的同在，一离开，问题就会来。。。

“住在至高者隐密处的，必住在全能者的荫下。。。
他必用自己的翎毛遮蔽你，你要投靠在他的翅膀底下。他的诚实是大小的盾牌。”
～ 诗篇91:1, 4 ～

I received this message in my Facebook Messages box: “Pastor… my family asked me to convey their thanks to you concerning last night’s incident. Really thank you…”

The reason was after the prayer meeting last night, I was informed by the security people that they caught a boy from church who used some sharp object to scratch many cars parked outside. They said the security people and the kid’s parents were at the parking lot questioning the kid now. I got very angry when I heard that, how could there be such a naughty kid, I must sternly lecture him!

So I walked toward the parking lot, preparing to scold the boy seriously. When I got there, I saw the kid’s parents and the boy who appeared weak and was trembling from too much crying… No, it can’t be! How could it be him? I could not believe because I know the boy…

All I heard was the boy crying and saying repeatedly: I didn’t do it… I didn’t…
His mother saw me, and scolded the boy angrily: You tell pastor yourself!
I put my hand on his shoulder, trying to calm him down, I asked him slowly: You really didn’t do it?
he cried and said: They all saw me doing it but I really didn’t…

I asked the security people: Did you guys catch him red-handed and actually see him scratching the cars?
Security: That’s the problem, we didn’t see him actually doing it, but he was the only one there and he looked suspicious.
Me: So nobody saw him do it?
Security: No, nobody actually saw…
Me: Then we can’t be so sure to say it’s him… I know this kid, if you ask me, I don’t think he would dare to do such a thing.

I told the parents I believe he would not do such a thing. But at the same time, I asked the kid: How come you were at the car-park half way through the prayer meeting?
Kid (still crying): I came out for a walk…
Me: Is it right to do that? The prayer meeting was in progress, you did not join in and yet left your parents to come out to play? Can you do that?
Kid: It is not right… I shouldn’t have done that…
Me: So do you see that you are wrong in this aspect?
Kid: Yes…
Me: That is why this problem of being misunderstood happened, understand? If you had stayed obediently with your parents, praying in the church, nothing would have happened, isn’t that right?
Kid: Yes…

I led the kid to pray, everything ended well…

Just so happened that we were singing repeatedly in the prayer meeting last night: “Nothing can ever replace being in Your presence, but sometimes I would foolishly leave Your presence…” Just like what happened in this incident!
We really must not leave the presence of God, when we do, problems come…