他在电话里哭了。。。 He cried over the phone…
他传简讯过来：牧师，您现在方便吗？我想打电话给您，有很重要的东西要告诉你。。。
我看了马上打电话过去，因为我正有一件事要训他，可是因为忙，已拖了两天，他现在传简讯来正好！
他接电话，语气很沉重，我想就让他先说，所以我问：什么事那么重要？
他说：我做错了一件事，我忽略了我的责任，我授权给别人，结果他们上载了一些很低级、恶心，很绊倒人的东西。。。
我说：我都知道了！我正要为这件事责问你!
他静静的听我一大堆的责备和教训，毫无辩驳或袒护自己。。。
我说：以后做事情一定要经过大脑、要有智慧、负责任等等。。。要不然会绊倒人和羞辱神的！
他一直回应说：知道了，牧师，对不起！我知道错了，真的很对不起！
我讲完了，他说：牧师，这主日吉它手缺少一人，某某某说他不舒服，需要休息不能弹；另一位说他有要事，也不能弹；我找不到其他的人了。。。
我说：本来是谁弹的？
他说：是我，但我已经尽力找了，没有人能代替我。。。
我说：那你自己为什么又不能弹？你也有要事吗？
他没有马上回答。。。突然间，我听到电话那一端他哭了。。。
他哭着说：牧师，我不敢上台，我怕得罪神，因为我做错事，我绊倒人。。。
我呆了一下，我没预料到他会讲这些。。。原来他还为着刚才那件事深感懊悔、自责！我整颗心溶化了。。。我本身都没想到整件事会严重到不可以上台！
我说：这有什么不可以上台的？你都已经认错了，再加上你也不是故意的，是你委托的人做错；你的责任是认错悔改，至于可不可以上台是我做决定，我说这礼拜天你一样上去服事，懂吗？
放下电话，我的心很感动，也很想哭；他平常虽然疯疯癫癫很爱搞怪，可是对主却是很单纯和认真。。。
我传简讯给他：不要想太多，你已经悔改，而且你本不是故意的。。。我喜欢你的态度，神也很喜悦。。。不要定自己的罪，上帝爱你，我也爱你。。。
他回覆：牧师，谢谢你。。。
你能不爱这样的羊吗。。。？
He sent me a text message: Pastor, are you free now? Can I call you, something very important…
Upon seeing the message, I called him immediately because I just had something to rebuke him for, but due to the fact that I was too busy, I had delayed for two days, so his text message came at the right time!
He answered the phone, he sounded very down. I thought let him speak first, so I asked: What is it that’s so important?
He said: I did something wrong, I neglected my responsibility, I delegated some work to some people and they uploaded something very degrading, disgusting and stumbling to people…
I said: I already knew about this! And I was just about to question you on this!
He quietly listened to all my rebuke and lecture, did not argue or defend himself…
I said: In future, when you do something, please use your brains and wisdom and please be very responsible etc… otherwise you will stumble people and bring disgrace to God!
He kept on responding: I know, pastor, I’m sorry! I know I’ve done wrong, I’m so sorry!
I had finished talking, he said: Pastor, we lack one guitarist this Sunday, so and so said he is not feeling well, he needs to rest; and the other guy said he is busy, so he can’t play too; I can’t find another person…
I said: Who was supposed to be playing initially?
He said: Me, but I’ve tried my best to look for a replacement, I can’t find anyone…
I said: Then how come you yourself can’t play? You have some important matter as well?
He did not reply immediately… Suddenly I heard him crying on the other side…
He cried and said: Pastor, I don’t dare to go on stage, I don’t want to sin against God, I have done this bad thing, I stumbled people…
I was stunned for a while, I did not expect this… So he was still feeling repentant and blaming himself over the matter just now! My heart melted… I myself did not even think that it was so serious that he could not serve on stage again!
I said: What is there that is so serious that you can’t go on stage? You have repented, plus you did not do it on purpose, it’s the person whom you assigned who made the mistake; your responsibility is to repent, as to whether you can go on stage, that is my decision, I say you just go up there and serve on Sunday, understand?
I put down the phone, I was very touched, and I felt like crying too; he is very happy-go-lucky and always acting silly normally, but he is very serious and has a child-like heart towards God…
I sent him a text message: Don’t worry too much about it, you have repented and you didn’t mean it too. I like your attitude and God is pleased too.Don’t feel condemned. God loves you and I love you too.
He replied: Thank you, pastor…
Can you not love sheep like that…?