绣芩的见证。。。 Testimony of Siew Kim…
2009年十二月31日感恩之夜。。。
Thanksgiving Night on Dec 31st, 2009…
绣芩就在当中，你们看得出她是哪一位吗？
Siew Kim is in the midst of these people, can you tell which one she is?
这位是绣芩。。。绣芩常给我部落格留言，分享见证等。。。今天她这篇见证本是在留言箱里的，但我觉得很长，见证也很鼓励人，所以就干脆把它刊登在这里。。。
This is Siew Kim… Siew Kim often leaves comments in my blog, shares her testimonies etc… This testimony of hers today is supposed to be in the comment box but I find it very long and at the same time rather encouraging, so I decide to post it here instead…
(**很抱歉，暂时没闲功夫翻译成英文，有没有自愿者乐意帮忙啊？听说有一位英俊潇洒名叫 Michael 的律师很乐意帮忙呢，所以怎样，Michael，要试试看吗？哈哈哈！
I am very sorry because in the meantime I am not free to translate it into English, any volunteer willing to help? I heard there is a charming and handsome lawyer called Michael who is very willing to help… so how about giving it a go, Michael? Hahaha….)
绣芩的见证 Siew Kim’s testimony:
自1996年开始，我已不会跑，不会跳，不能跪下，也不能蹲下，我必须扶着东西或牵着别人的手才能坐在地上。数一数，我得红斑狼疮病已21年了。。。得病后，我全身开始肿胖起来；我双脚越来越乏力，甚至到后来似乎已到了无法行走的地步；得病后不久，我眼睛已看不清东西，而且越来越严重。。。这些都是类固醇的副作用引起的，虽然知道类固醇所带来的副作用好多好多，但我还是必须每天服食它来控制我的病情。我除了服食类固醇控制我的病外，在1990年，我还接受了三年的抗癌治疗，打了三年的Chemo抗癌针。
2006年开始，我无论到那里去，不到半个小时，我就会感觉晕眩、不耐。。。这一年开始，我那儿都不敢去，深怕真会晕倒在马路上。。。
2007年7月3日，我到医院去复诊时，医生对我说，我的肾脏严重衰竭，已在危险边缘，若尿毒素继续上升，我必须靠洗肾机维持我的生命，当医生告诉我这种状况是没得医治时，我真得无法接受这个事实，医生只给了我一个很简单的答案说：你已病18年，吃药18年了，肾脏已慢慢的衰竭，已经无法操作了。自那一天起，我就没有开心过。。。
2007年12月9日，病得已不成人形的我第一天踏入了蒙福教会的大门，一走进教会的大门，听到喇叭处传来的音乐声，我心想我完了，我会不会不到十分钟就倒下。。。可是，听着这些歌声，渐渐地，心中不再是那么的害怕。。。直到牧师上台讲道时，我才清楚的发觉，咦～～ 我还好好的，没有晕倒，我想我过关了。可是，接下来还有一关，需要很长的时间听牧师讲道，我心想，平时坐半小时就要躺下，如此长的时间，我如何耐得了啊！奇怪的，耶稣让我安心的留下来，这一天我终于突破了，那么长的时间我并没有倒下。
散会后，我到台前接受主，牧师为我祷告，我感觉到了牧师的亲切，牧师没有看不起我是病人，我不再感到害怕，我等待着星期六祷告会的到来。回到家，我总在想，为何祷告后，我的全身感觉是那么的轻松呢？
星期六的祷告会到了，我不知那来的勇气决定坐在地板上，当牧师用方言祷告时，我感觉我的头在转啊转的，好晕啊！奇怪，这晕怎么和平时的晕不一样呢？我没有感觉到累，好舒服哦！不知不觉，我就躺在地上了。我倒下去，怎么还听得到唱歌的声音，还能很清楚的听到牧师说话呢？我想起来却起不来。但是，我头脑很清醒，我会想着和主说话：主啊！救救我的肾脏，救救我的肾脏，我的双脚最近已越来越肿，求祢医治我，。。。一直是如此反反覆覆的想着。当牧师在台上又方言祷告时，我感觉我的头更晕啊！突然，我感觉我的脚在不停的发抖，我想用手抓住我的脚，可是，我的手怎么也动不了，不知过了多久，我起身了。隔天早上，我醒来发现我的脚没肿了，每一天，我都按我的脚踝，都没有肿了，我深深的知道是主耶稣医治了我。。。哈利路亚。。。感谢主。
之后的每一次到教会去，圣灵都不断的充满我、医治我，只有一个多月的时间，耶稣已医治了我的大腿骨，奇妙的上帝将我已呈黑的大腿骨变白了。接下来的每一天，耶稣都不断的给予我医治，他在不到半年的时间让我能跑能跳，能跪下敬拜神，长短脚、小鸟脚都不翼而飞了。。。在2008年5月6日，在复诊时医生对我说，我的肾脏在验血报告中已有了很明显的进步，感谢主，血中的尿毒素正常了，以往严重的尿蛋白也已不见了。哈利路亚，耶稣不但医治了我，耶稣也将一个遭受邪灵魔鬼降头攻击长达九年之久的一位女孩救了出来，在九年的时间里，女孩如何的被邪灵魔鬼强暴，巫师又如何的为他赶鬼，女孩又受到了怎么样的耻辱。。。心灵受到了多大的创伤，九年的时间，流下了多少眼泪，受到了多少折磨，找了多少的巫师，乩童，解降师，到了最后甚至面临了破产危机，负债累累，依然没有平安，就在走投无路，全家人都想要去死当儿，耶稣救了这个家，这真实故事若要说真的很长很长。
在写给牧师这见证时，我想着一幕幕，我一字一字的写，眼泪破堤而出，感谢主，我今天还活着，是神给予我的力量，耶稣怜悯的心，悦纳了我的全家，悦纳了我这不配的罪人，圣灵不断的充满，神的大爱，深深的触摸了我的心，他让我知道，我那么的不好，但他没有停止听我的祷告，听我的心声，他伟大无比的爱让我走出了这流泪谷，只有他才能给我平安。
哈利路亚。。。感谢主。。。我把一切荣耀都归给爱我们的神－主耶稣基督，阿们！
(Thanks to my handsome lawyer and loyal friend and brother, Handsome Mike, Siew Kim’s testimony has been translated for the English readers…
Mind you, I did not check through because I trust my attorney to be careful with his words, haha…)
Since 1996, I was unable to run, jump, kneel, or squat down. I always needed to hold on to something or other’s hand for support before I could sit down on the floor. Come to think of it, I had been suffering from lupus for 21 years. Since then, my whole body began to become swollen; my legs became so weak that I almost could not walk at all. Since I was sick, my eye sight started to fail too… These were the side effects caused by steroids. Even though steroids carry many side effects, I still had to consume steroids everyday to put my illness under control. Besides taking steroids for my illness, I even underwent chemotherapy for 3 times in 1990.
Since 2006, no matter where I went, I would surely feel dizzy and ill in less than 30 minutes. Therefore, in that year I didn’t even dare to go out as I was afraid that I might just faint on the road…
On 3rd July, 2007, when I went to the General Hospital for medical check-up, the doctor told me that my kidneys were in serious deterioration which had reached the alarming level. If the uremic toxins level continued to rise, I would need a dialysis machine to support my life. When the doctor told me that my condition was incurable, I couldn’t accept this fact. The doctor gave me a very simple answer to my problem: “since you have been sick and under medication for 18 years, the kidneys have been deteriorating and now finally fail to function.” Since that day, I had never been happy again….
On 9th December, 2007, with my very sick and weak condition, I stepped into Blessed Church’s door. Once entered the door, I heard loud noise like trumpet sound and I thought to myself that I would collapse anytime within 10 minute. However, while listening to their singing, I could feel that my fear slowly diminished. Until the pastor went onto the stage, I only realized that I was doing fine as I did not faint. I thought I have made it through this time. But the next trial would be the long hours of listening to the pastor’s sermon. I thought it would be impossible for me to sit there for so long, as I normally needed to lie down after sitting for 30 minutes. Strangely, Jesus allowed me to stay on peacefully. This was the day I experienced a breakthrough as I did not collapse in such long hours!
When the worship service was over, I went to the front to accept the Lord. The pastor prayed for me and I could feel the compassion from the pastor as he didn’t look down on me as a sick. I no longer had fear. I was looking forward to the coming Saturday’s prayer meeting. Once I reached home, I was still thinking why my body felt so liberated and free after prayer.
When the Saturday’s prayer meeting came, I somehow got the courage to decide to sit on the floor. When the pastor prayed in tongue, I could feel my head keep on spinning and I felt dizzy. But strangely, this dizziness was unlike my normal dizziness. I didn’t feel any weariness; instead, it was very comfortable! Before I knew it, I was lying on the floor. I couldn’t understand why I was lying down, yet I could still hear the singing voices, and the words spoken by the pastor. I wanted to get up but I just could not. However, my mind was clear, and I wanted to talk to the Lord: “O Lord, save my kidneys, save my kidneys. And my swollen legs too, please heal me…” I was repeating this petition over and over again. Then the pastor prayed in tongue on stage again, my head was feeling even fainter! Suddenly I could feel my legs non-stop shaking. I was trying to use my hands to hold my legs but my hands couldn’t move at all. I didn’t know how long this incident lasted that evening, at last I managed to get up. The very next day, when I woke up I discovered that my legs were not swollen anymore! And every day since then, I touched my ankles, they were not swollen. I know wholeheartedly that it was Lord Jesus who healed me, hallelujah! Give thanks to the Lord.
Since then every time I went to the church, the Holy Spirit kept filling me and healing me. For about a month time, Jesus had healed my leg bone (femur), the amazing God had turned my femur from black to white. Since then Jesus was healing me everyday, and for less than half year He had made me able to run, to jump and to kneel down to worship God. My uneven-leg problem is gone for good! On 6th May, 2008 during my medical check-up, the doctor informed me that my blood test report showed that my kidneys were recovering well. Thanks be to the Lord, my uremic toxins level in my blood was normal and the once very serious proteinuria was gone too! Hallelujah, Jesus not only healed me, He also saved the girl from the torment of evil spirits for the past 9 years. In those 9 years, the girl was molested by the evil spirits, how she was exorcised by the sorcerer and was then humiliated. In those 9 years, her soul was deeply hurt and shattered. In order to look for various sorcerers, mediums and witches, she almost went bankrupt and was in serious debt. She still couldn’t find peace. When she and her whole family almost came to the edge of hopelessness, Jesus saved the whole household. This is a very lengthy true story.
While writing this testimony to the pastor, my tears just dropped when I recalled the things happened in the past. Thanks be to the Lord, I am alive today. It was God who gave me strength. Through Christ’s mercy, my whole family was accepted. I, as a worthless sinner, was accepted. The Holy Spirit filled me, the love of God touched my heart. He wants me to know even though I am not perfect, He has never stopped listening to my prayers, my voice. His great love has led me out of the valley of sorrow. Only He can give me peace.
Hallelujah, thank you Lord and I want to give all the glory to God who loves us – Lord Jesus Christ, Amen!