那一天，我心碎的跑。。。 That day, I ran with a broken heart…
是的，那一天，真的是很快乐的一天。。。Yes, it was indeed a very happy day that day…
是的，那一天我真的有隐藏秘密在心中。。。Yes, I did really hide a secret in my heart that day…
那一天。。。我心碎的跑。。。That day… I ran with a broken heart…
是的，那一天，在很快乐的同时，我的心也在淌血。。。Yes, that day, while I was very happy, my heart was bleeding at the same time…
怎么能够，你问。。。
How could that be, you ask…
能够的。。。这些年来，在服事的道路上，我在尽量学习不要让情绪控制我的生命、不要让情绪做我的神、不要因着自己的情绪而误了其他更重要的事、不要因着自己的情绪而使无辜的人失去他们当有的快乐和享受、更不要因自己的情绪而羞辱神的名。。。
It can be done… Along this journey of serving the Lord all these years, I am trying my best to learn not to let my emotions control my life, not to let my emotions become my god, not to let my emotions spoil other more important agenda, not to let my own emotions destroy the happiness and enjoyment of other innocent people, and most important of all, not to let my own emotions bring disgrace to the name of God…
那。。。那天到底发生什么事，你问。。。
我只会略略的跟你分享，因为那件事不是我今天的主题，我今天的重点乃在：当我们心情非常低落时，我们还能好好执行任务，还能把快乐带给别人吗？答案是：可以的！
不要你的称赞，更不要你的同情，只想借着这分享，让你也学习在伤痛中靠主刚强！
运动会之前的午夜，很兴奋和期待明早将要看到的欢乐情形，我准备就寝，在浴室边刷牙边想象。。。在毫无预警之下，上帝突然间在我心中讲话！他告诉我一件让我很震惊的事，我顿时倍感无力。。。
真的吗？我问。。。是的。
我头脑一片空白，心里一片刺痛。。。第几次了？
为什么要在这种时候跟我讲？。。。要你学习刚强。
到底那一天发生什么事，能让我那么心碎？
那一天，上帝让我知道我有一只羊跑错方向了。。。而我拼命追，却追不回来了。。。
是你，你会心碎吗？
但我知道上帝比我更心碎。。。上帝啊，你会把他追回来吗？
Then… what actually happened that day, you ask…
I will just briefly share with you because that particular matter is not my topic today, my main point today is: When we are feeling really upset and down, can we still execute our duty properly, and can we still bring happiness to others? The answer is YES!
I don’t want your accolades, even less so your pity, I just hope through this sharing, you will learn to rely on God for strength in times of pain!
The midnight before the sports meet, very excitedly and expectantly looking forward to the joyful scenario the next morning, preparing for bed, I was brushing my teeth and imagining at the same time… without warning God suddenly spoke to my heart! He told me something that shocked me, I immediately felt weak…
Is it true? I asked… Affirmative.
My mind went blank, felt a sharp pain in my heart… How many times already?
Why must You tell me now?… So you will learn to be strong.
So what actually happened that day that could break my heart so?
That day, God revealed to me, one of my sheep was running the wrong direction… I tried my best to chase after him, but I couldn’t get him back on the right track…
Would you be heart-broken if you were I?
But I know God is even more heart-broken than me… O God, will You bring Him back to You?