Day 19 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary
第十九天：10月21日(五)
今天又发现上帝真的是很恩待我，“又”，因为一路来都感觉他超恩待这不配的我。。。
今天我看到以前我无法想象的事情，或者说我以前不知几时才会看到今天看见的那种情况。
我心深感安慰和鼓励。
事情是这样的，不知不觉韩国朴传道的服事开始了，因为我都在忙其它事情，此次服事事务都交予同工处理；我突然惊觉，糟了！服事就要开始，我还没跟同工确定服事的各样安排！
以前从排名到场面摆设、服事人员各岗位、交待及教导服事的范围和责任等等，一律都要我亲自出马。。。
朴传道的服事性质特别，再加上文化不一样，我以前都不容有失，所以要监督每一部份！
当我突然觉悟我都还没监督一切和确定安排是否妥当时，我急忙往要使用的小礼堂观望，心里马上无比安慰；每份工作我的同工都已弄妥和分配的井井有条、清清楚楚！
我顿时想起早上读经时注意到的经文：
“西门彼得问耶稣说，主往哪里去？ 耶稣回答说，我所去的地方，你现在不能跟我去。后来却要跟我去。”
～约翰福音13:36～
虽然耶稣讲的是关于彼得当时生命和信心未能达到为主殉道，后来却能为主殉道，但我也领悟到，以前很多事情都要交待同工，他们才懂怎么做，或做的合乎要求。。。
然而今天，在我丝毫没有交待和监督之下，他们已把工作安排的十分妥当！真的是以前所做不到的，如今却能做得那么好！我心充满感恩。。。
我们每个人都充满潜能，只要我们继续在主里和依靠他，我们绝对能不断进步和出众！
Day 19 : Oct 21st (Fri)
Today I once again realized God is very gracious to me, “once again”, because all along I have been feeling He is very gracious such an undeserving me…
Today I saw something I could not imagine before, or should I say I did not know back then when I would be able to see what I saw today.
My heart was greatly comforted and encouraged.
The story goes, without realizing Pastor Park’s ministry began. Because I was busy with many other things, the detailed duties this time I handed to my staffs to handle. I suddenly realized with a shock, oh dear! The ministry is going to start in a while, I haven’t even acertain with my staffs all the arrangement of the workload this time!
Before, I had to take care of and supervise everything like arranging of names of people to be prayed for, duties of every helper, teaching and briefing them on their work boundaries and responsibilities etc…
As Pastor Park’s ministry is unique, coupled with the issue of cultural differences, I would not risk any error, so I must supervise every area!
When I suddenly realized I had not even double-check everything to make sure everything is in order, I quickly took a peep at the small hall we are to use for the ministry, immediately my heart was indescribably comforted, my staffs had already prepared and divided all the workload to my utter satisfaction!
I was immediately reminded of the verse I noticed while reading the Bible this morning:
“Simon Peter asked him, “Lord, where are you going?”
Jesus replied, “Where I am going, you cannot follow now, but you will follow later.””
~ John 13:36 ~
Even though Jesus was referring to Peter’s faith and spiritual life not up to the level of being martyred for Him at that time but later did actually die for Christ, I also recalled, in the past I had to brief my staffs on many things, and only then they knew what to do, or how to do things satisfactorily… However, today without any of my instruction and supervision, they have already prepared everything properly and nicely! Really, something they were unable to do before, but today they did it so superbly! My heart is full of gratitude…
All of us are really full of potential, as long as we remain in and rely on the Lord, we can really improve and excel!