Day 37: 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary （莫名的兴奋 / Inexplicable excitement)
第三十七天：11月8日(二)
该如何形容那种感觉？幼儿时在大年除夕期待初一的到来、年少时第一次要到海边度假的兴奋、与一群好友第一次到一个美丽的国家旅游、在机场等着思念已久的人。。。？
就是那种感觉吧，这几天内心里就有这种澎湃的感觉，现在亦是如此！
我也尝试问主说，我到底在兴奋什么？知道有好事情会发生，却不知是什么事！知道将得着我好喜欢的礼物，却又不知道那礼物是什么！带领中午祷告会的时候，终于有答案。。。
原来这答案只是回答我为什么我不知道自己在兴奋什么，而不是告诉我兴奋的是什么东西！
上帝说我不知道自己在兴奋什么，因为他要做的是一件“新事”，既然是“新”的，当然不存留在我记忆里，因此我不会知道那是什么东西。他也说他要做的是超越我所求所想的，那当然我也不会知道是什么。。。
“看哪！我要做一件新事，如今要发现，你们岂不知道吗？我必在旷野开道路，在沙漠开江河。”
～ 以赛亚书 43:19 ～
“神能照着运行在我们心里的大力，充充足足地成就一切，超过我们所求所想的。”
～ 以弗所书 3:20 ～
哇！这怎不叫人兴奋呢？
下午准备晚上要分享的“kairos”的信息时，心跳又开始加速了，所以我很确定这奇妙的事将要在11月11日我们结束禁食40天的通宵祷告时降临或开始！这心跳的感觉不仅让我联想以弗所3:20的“心里的大力”，我心里跳动的是否就是这“大力”。。。？
Day 37 : Nov 8th (Tue)
How shall I describe this feeling? Like childhood days anticipating the first day of Chinese New Year on New Year’s Eve, during my youth excited about going to the beach for a holiday for the first time, going to a beautiful country for a tour for the first time together with close friends, and waiting for someone you miss dearly at the airport…?
It is that kind of feeling, my heart has been stirring with this sensation past few days, even right now!
I also attempted to ask the Lord, what am I feeling excited about? I know something good is going to happen, but I do not what thing! I know I am going to receive a gift that I am going to love very much but I do not know what that gift is! While leading the noontime prayer session, I finally had the answer…
Actually this answer was only to answer me as to why I do not know what I am excited about, and not really telling me what the thing I am excited about exactly is!
God said I do not know what I am feeling excited about because he is going to do a “new thing”, and since it is “new”, it is of course not in my memory. Therefore I would not know what that thing is. He also said what he is going to do is beyond what I have ever asked or what I can imagine, then of course I would not know what that is…
“See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.”
~ Isaiah 43:19 ~
“Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us”
～ Ephesians 3:20 ～
Wow! How can I not be excited if so?
This afternoon while preparing my “kairos” message to share at night, my heart began to beat faster again, so I know for certain this wonderful thing that is going to happen will descend or start during our watch-night prayer on November 11th as we conclude our 40-day fast! This unusual heart-beat caused me to recall the “power at work within us” in Eph 3:20, is it this “power” that is pumping in my heart…?