Day 5 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary
第五天：10月7日(五)
昨夜有个奇特的梦。。。我相信跟这一次禁食有关。。。
异梦，虽然不是常常，但也曾经有过，然而昨夜的是第一次。
我梦见与耶稣散步、聊天，感觉像跟一个很熟悉的朋友做很平常的事情，但其中一幕出现至少两次。。。
梦里，我们一起去一些很平常的地方，聊很平常的话题，是在这个世界，这个世代。我相信耶稣要告诉我，他其实都常出现在我们日常生活当中，非常参与我们平常的一切。。。
最后一幕就是重复几次的那一幕。走到一个地方，主说这是他要被抓、受苦的时候。然后，我就从旁边看到他被人用现代的方式，手脚上铐绑在地上，完全失去自由，准备被折磨受苦。。。他的头却是转向我这一边望着我，眼神充满爱。他告诉我这是他必须经过的，为了我们。。。我在梦里不停的哭泣，一直跪着无法停止哭泣到从梦里醒来。。。梦境很真实。。。
刚才带领祷告过后分享，讲到这一幕，我感觉又想哭泣，感受到主的爱、他的牺牲、他的摆上，受苦至死只为了拯救我们。如今，我们为了灵命突破，学习更爱主，也为灵魂得救而禁食祷告40天，这一点“小苦”算什么呢。。。？
“我 受 苦 是 與 我 有 益 ， 為 要 使 我 學 習 你 的 律 例 。”
～诗篇119：71～
Day 5 : Oct 7th (Fri)
I had a strange but unique dream last night… I believe it has to do with our fasting this time…
Spiritual dreams, though not very often, I did have some in the past. However, the one last night was the first time ever.
I dreamt I was taking a walk with Jesus and chatting with Him, felt like something very ordinary with a very familiar friend, but a certain scene repeated at least twice…
In the dream, we went to some very ordinary places, talked on very ordinary topics, it was in this world and this age. I believe Jesus is trying to tell me He is there in our everyday living, very much involved in our ordinary life…
The final scene was the one that repeated a few times. We reached a place and the Lord said He was to be arrested and tortured. Then from the side I saw Him being bound by people with modern methods, chained to the ground losing all His freedom, preparing to suffer… His head turned towards me to look at me, His eyes were filled with love. He told me He had to go through this, just for us… I cried uncontrollably in my dream, I was kneeling all the time and could not stop crying till I woke up from my dream… The dream was very real…
As I was sharing this after leading the noon-time prayer, I felt like crying again when I talked about that scene. I could feel the love of Jesus, His sacrifice and laying down everything for us, even to suffer and die. And now, for our spiritual breakthrough, learning to love the Lord more and also to pray for souls to be saved, we are fasting 40 days, what is this little “suffering” as compared to the Lord’s…?
“It was good for me to be afflicted so that I might learn your decrees. ”
~Psalm 119:71~