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禁食之后感想:“奢侈”。。。 Thoughts After Fasting : “Luxury”…



Actually fasting, especially long period of fasting, is not something you can just do it when you think you want to do it. In fact I believe, by our flesh, nobody likes to fast.
This time, before God convicted me and gave me the strength to fast for 40 days, I could not imagine at all without food for 4o days, and actually I was also kind of “afraid” as to wheher God would convict me to fast for 40 days again…
But when the time came, all these concerns were really unnecessary! Without realizing, 40 days have already gone by, and we have also resumed our normal eating and drinking lifestyle.



This time we took the gradual fast approach, we were still taking soup and juice in the beginning 29 days, only the last 11 days did we take plain water only, but many failed the plain water only for 11 days test…
Even I myself, I only took totally plain water in the last 3 days as I still added some glucose into my water before that to give me some energy.


Sometimes for fasting, we take the vegetarian fast, eating only fruit ad vegetables, during such a time, we would realize the meat we are so used to is such a luxury…
Then sometimes we not only go vegetarian, we stop eating starchy food too like rice, noodles, cakes and bread etc, in times like those, we would realize starchy food is such a luxury…
If we fast all food totally, we would realize fruit and vegetables are such luxury items…
When it is only drinking plain water, we would discover soup, hot drinks and fruit juice are so luxurious…



~ 传道书3:13 ~

The so-called “luxury” is referring to food and drinks that are so ordinary to us normally becoming something we cannot get…
Fasting can indeed make you realize, we are actually living in such a luxurious and blessed life! Our “hunger” is our own voluntary choice, and when the time has passed, we can immediately return to and enjoy our “luxurious” lifestyle, where as there are so many people in this world who do not have a choice but are hungry day after day and year after year without ending… In actual fact, in many places, a glass of clean water is also very luxurious to them!

O lord, help us not to complain about life being tough again, teach us to be grateful and to enjoy all that You have given us…

“That each of them may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all their toil—this is the gift of God.”
~ Ecclesiastes 3:13 ~

Day 40 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary (完结篇 / Conclusion)






“1:6 他 们 二 人 , 在 神 面 前 都 是 义 人 , 遵 行 主 的 一 切 诫 命 礼 仪 , 没 有 可 指 摘 的 。
1:7 只 是 没 有 孩 子 , 因 为 以 利 沙 伯 不 生 育 , 两 个 人 又 年 纪 老 迈 了 。
1:8 撒 迦 利 亚 按 班 次 , 在 神 面 前 供 祭 司 的 职 分 ,
1:9 照 祭 司 的 规 矩 掣 签 , 得 进 主 殿 烧 香 。
1:10 烧 香 的 时 候 , 众 百 姓 在 外 面 祷 告 。
1:11 有 主 的 使 者 站 在 香 坛 的 右 边 , 向 他 显 现 。
1:12 撒 迦 利 亚 看 见 , 就 惊 慌 害 怕 。
1:13 天 使 对 他 说 , 撒 迦 利 亚 , 不 要 害 怕 。 因 为 你 的 祈 祷 已 经 被 听 见 了 , 你 的 妻 子 以 利 沙 伯 要 给 你 生 一 个 儿 子 , 你 要 给 他 起 名 叫 约 翰 。”
~ 路加福音1章 ~

Day 40 : Nov 11th (Fri)

What should I write to conclude? So many things to wite about and to say, so many feelings and thoughts…

In the evening, Pastor Raymond Mooi, our specially invited speaker from KL preached. A certain point touched me deeply, a reminder I must not forget for all my life.

Using Luke Chapter 1 as his background story, Pastor Raymond mentioned how the very faithful priest Zechariah and Elizabeth must have grown from being hopeful to totally hopelesss in their quest for a child. When they were already very old and not possible for Elizabeth to conceive anymore, no matter how disappointed, they did not stop serving God faithfully. Zechariah stayed true to the responsibility God had given him, faithfully serving in the position and place where God had entrusted him with. As a result God appeared to him at the place where God had assigned him to be. Because of his faithfulness, the God of wonders performed for him something that was not possible with men, ourselves or in the natural. The wife, Eliazabeth conceived and gave birth to a son!

The key is, when God comes looking for you at the position or place where you are supposed to be at, will you be there? Can He find you there? Are you a faithful person to God?
Therefore, if you really desire God to do a miracle for you, to satisfy you with the breakthrough you have been waiting for in your heart, or to relieve you of a great burden and problem, it is very important to be a person who stays true to your God-given gift and position!

“6 Both of them were righteous in the sight of God, observing all the Lord’s commands and decrees blamelessly.
7 But they were childless because Elizabeth was not able to conceive, and they were both very old.
8 Once when Zechariah’s division was on duty and he was serving as priest before God,
9 he was chosen by lot, according to the custom of the priesthood, to go into the temple of the Lord and burn incense.
10 And when the time for the burning of incense came, all the assembled worshipers were praying outside.
11 Then an angel of the Lord appeared to him, standing at the right side of the altar of incense.
12 When Zechariah saw him, he was startled and was gripped with fear.
13 But the angel said to him: “Do not be afraid, Zechariah; your prayer has been heard. Your wife Elizabeth will bear you a son, and you are to call him John.”
~ Luke 1 ~

Day 39 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary (再被提醒Kairos / Reminder of Kairos Once Again)




“3:1 凡 事 都 有 定 期 , 天 下 万 务 都 有 定 时 。
3:11 神 造 万 物 , 各 按 其 时 成 为 美 好 。 又 将 永 生 安 置 在 世 人 心 里 。 ( 永 生 原 文 作 永 远 ) 然 而 神 从 始 至 终 的 作 为 , 人 不 能 叁 透 。”
~ 传道书 ~



Day 39 : Nov 10th (Thur)

Read Ecclesiastes 3 today and once again reminded that God indeed has His special timing for certain things. Of course we know that everyday is full of God’s grace and blessings, but certain things are seasonal, and need to watch for the spiritual climate. That is the meaning of “kairos”, that is God’s special appointed time to accomplish or send down certain things.

We believe the 40-day fast we have this time is God guiding us into His kairos, and we also believe the watch-night prayer on the final day (Nov 11) is also God’s kairos. And He has already revealed to us too that He is going to give us things that are beyond what we ask and can imagine! Amen!

“3:1 There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens:
3:11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end.”
~ Ecclesiastes ~

Since we know there is a time for everything, then the word of God also says “no one can fathom”; then how shall we respond?
We then must pray for spiritual sensitivity, to discern God’s timing, and ask that His Holy Spirit will lead us into His timing and be immersed in it…

Day 38 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary (发财的理由与途径 / Reason and way of becoming rich)






“9:6 少 种 的 少 收 , 多 种 的 多 收 。 这 话 是 真 的 。
9:7 各 人 要 随 本 心 所 酌 定 的 。 不 要 作 难 , 不 要 勉 强 , 因 为 捐 得 乐 意 的 人 , 是 神 所 喜 爱 的 。
9:8 神 能 将 各 样 的 恩 惠 , 多 多 的 加 给 你 们 。 使 你 们 凡 事 常 常 充 足 , 能 行 各 样 的 善 事 。
9:9 如 经 上 所 记 , 他 施 舍 钱 财 , 周 济 贫 穷 。 他 的 仁 义 存 到 永 远 。
9:10 那 赐 种 给 撒 种 的 , 赐 粮 给 人 吃 的 , 必 多 多 加 给 你 们 种 地 的 种 子 , 又 增 添 你 们 仁 义 的 果 子 。
9:11 叫 你 们 凡 事 富 足 , 可 以 多 多 施 舍 , 就 藉 着 我 们 使 感 谢 归 于 神 。”






Day 38 : Nov 9th (Wed)

Who does not want to be prosperous? Who does not want to be a rich person?
As long as you do not sin against God or use sinful methods to get your money, there is nothing wrong to be rich, in fact there can be many advantages, and it is something God approves too!
But when you become rich, what comes along might be a lot of stress and pressure, especially wealth gotten through your own strength. But “the blessing of the LORD brings wealth, and he adds no trouble to it.” ( Proverbs 10:22 )

But how can we receive this blessing of the Lord? Of course there are many principles in the Bible, today I will share with you 2 Corinthians 9:

“6 Remember this: Whoever sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and whoever sows generously will also reap generously.
7 Each of you should give what you have decided in your heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver.
8 And God is able to bless you abundantly, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.
9 As it is written: “They have freely scattered their gifts to the poor; their righteousness endures forever.”
10 Now he who supplies seed to the sower and bread for food will also supply and increase your store of seed and will enlarge the harvest of your righteousness.
11 You will be enriched in every way so that you can be generous on every occasion, and through us your generosity will result in thanksgiving to God.”

1) I believe in God’s eyes, sowing sparingly or generously is not dependent on the figure or amount you give but rather how much you keep for yourself in comparison, or in proportion of your giving with your income or how much you own.

2) God loves a heart that loves to bless and help others, and doing it with joy, not out of compulsion, and without any other motive, not even thinking of getting blessed for oneself.

3) Very importantly, your good deeds will cause people to give thanks and glory to God ultimately!

The three points above are the principles of God’s blessing you and making you rich in every way.


Day 37: 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary (莫名的兴奋 / Inexplicable excitement)







~ 以赛亚书 43:19 ~

~ 以弗所书 3:20 ~



Day 37 : Nov 8th (Tue)

How shall I describe this feeling? Like childhood days anticipating the first day of Chinese New Year on New Year’s Eve, during my youth excited about going to the beach for a holiday for the first time, going to a beautiful country for a tour for the first time together with close friends, and waiting for someone you miss dearly at the airport…?
It is that kind of feeling, my heart has been stirring with this sensation past few days, even right now!

I also attempted to ask the Lord, what am I feeling excited about? I know something good is going to happen, but I do not what thing! I know I am going to receive a gift that I am going to love very much but I do not know what that gift is! While leading the noontime prayer session, I finally had the answer…

Actually this answer was only to answer me as to why I do not know what I am excited about, and not really telling me what the thing I am excited about exactly is!
God said I do not know what I am feeling excited about because he is going to do a “new thing”, and since it is “new”, it is of course not in my memory. Therefore I would not know what that thing is. He also said what he is going to do is beyond what I have ever asked or what I can imagine, then of course I would not know what that is…

“See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.”
~ Isaiah 43:19 ~

“Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us”
~ Ephesians 3:20 ~

Wow! How can I not be excited if so?

This afternoon while preparing my “kairos” message to share at night, my heart began to beat faster again, so I know for certain this wonderful thing that is going to happen will descend or start during our watch-night prayer on November 11th as we conclude our 40-day fast! This unusual heart-beat caused me to recall the “power at work within us” in Eph 3:20, is it this “power” that is pumping in my heart…?


Day 36: 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary (他带着微笑走了 / He Left With A Smile)










~ 提后 4:6-7 ~


Day 36 : Nov 7th (Mon)

Attended Rev James Shao’s seminar on the book of John in the morning, I conducted Shuang’s funeral at 1:30pm.

Very comforted seeing him “sleeping with a smile” on his face in the casket, he looked good; even his aunty who is not a Christian yet said he was “beautiful”…
Shuang’s mother repeatedly said “Let me have a last look at him, let me have a last look at him…”, I told the mother to remember his smile, just to remember his smile.

So at peace, sleeping with a smile, you know he was really at rest, and you know he has gone to a very peaceful and beautiful place. Whoever saw his last look would be comforted, the mother has calmed down a lot too, this is very reassuring to me.

During the funeral, I shared my family’s testimony. I told them how many years ago my youngest brother who was not even nine left this world. He already believed in Jesus though still a kid, my parents were not Christians then. I once asked my mother why she would believe in Jesus after my brother passed away. She said one of the reasons was she saw in that tiny casket, the face of an angel sleeping with a smile on his face. Therefore, my mother believed that the Jesus my brother trusted in must be a very good peaceful God, and that Jesus must have brought him to a very beautiful place…

Some people misunderstood my sharing yesterday, thinking that I was very depressed, discouraged and feeling defeated. No, you have mistaken, I was only weeping with those who wept, feeling the sadness and heaviness of the sudden departure of someone. I certainly did not doubt God over this. Furthermore, I feel kind of envious of Shuang’s spiritual life and relationship with God at the time of his departure. He learnt to fast and pray with us during his last days, and even attended the early morning prayer sessions! I remember during his final morning prayer, I was watching him from the pulpit, thinking to myself that this guy’s spiritual life had advanced so much recently… Then in his final moment, as he could not make it to church because of illness, he was still lying on the couch at home, turning on the computer to watch our live broadcast with the mother. They joined in the praise and worship, laughed even when we joked in the midst of the sermon, and it was at that time that he breathed his last… no suffering, no struggling, in the presence of God, with the mother he loved so much beside him, he went back to be with the Lord…

If we could all go back to be with the Lord in similar situation, would not that be such a blessed thing?

“For I am already being poured out like a drink offering, and the time has come for my departure. I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.”
~ 1 Tim 4:6-7 ~

Day 35: 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary (突如其来的打击 / Sudden And Unexpected Blow)












~ 以赛亚书 50:4 ~


Day 35 : Nov 6th (Sun)

This morning my heart was really heavy and sad, it actually started from last night after the meeting.

After the meeting, Jonathan said he wanted to go to the hospital’s emergency department to see Shuang. I asked him what had happened, was it because of over-fasting? Because I knew Shuang fasted with us too.
Jonathan said from what he heard, Shuang was not feeling well and felt very cold, he might have contracted some serious flu because he was caught in the rain yesterday.

Before Jonathan could leave, Shuang’s sister called me sounding very urgently asking us to pray for Shuang because the doctor said the situation was not very optimistic. I was very surprised, why would flu be so serious? I was also concerned that whether it was due to over-fasting. The sister sounded really anxious, so I gathered some brothers and sisters to go to the hospital with me.

Arriving at the hospital, while still looking for a park, the sister called again, she cried and asked me not to go anymore because he was gone…

O Lord, how could that be? He was still so young, and alive and well just this afternoon and yesterday when we saw him. I was also very touched to see him in the early morning prayer meeting the past few mornings, so I specially noticed him… and on the way to the hospital we were praying unceasingly…

We went into the emergency room and saw his other brother standing beside his bed. The brother also asked me why, I could not answer. I laid my hand on Shuang’s shoulder and attempted to pray for him still, but he still left…
The doctor said they do not know the cause of death and need to do a post mortem; but they did say too it was not due to fasting, that did comfort me a little…

We rushed to the house to visit the mother. The siblings said they could not bring themselves to tell the mother because Shaung was the youngest and had always been mommy’s boy, all these forty years he had been by the mother’s side to take care of her. But she already sensed it and was crying desperately saying she could not accept the fact…

Who could feel the heart of a mother who lost her beloved child? Who could comfort her? All I could do was to hold her hand tightly and hugged her to let her cry…
The young people who came with me were also wondering how I was going to comfort this mother. I could not, because this kind of pain is deep, whatever spiritual or comforting words are all useless unless God anoints your lips, and the Spirit of God Himself fills and comforts the broken heart…

O Lord, have mercy…

“The Sovereign LORD has given me an instructed tongue, to know the word that sustains the weary. He wakens me morning by morning, wakens my ear to listen like one being taught.”
~ Isaiah 50:4 ~

Day 34: 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary (用功努力 / Diligence And Hard Work)






~ 提摩太前书 4:15 ~

Day 34 : Nov 5th (Sat)

Today I felt like I have returned to my student’s days, I was just like a good student the whole afternoon, revising my homework very diligently, like facing an exam, and even kind of felt I did not have enough time to finish studying!
Reason being these few days I am the interpreter for internationally renown elder, Reverend James Shao, who alos has the nickname of “The prince of preaching”. We invited Rev Shao to do a teaching of 12 lessons on the book of John, and each session must be interpreted into English, so that all our members will receive this great blessing together.

Rev Shao has recently written a book that analyses the contents of the book of John called “Complete Supply” or “Ten-fold Supplies” (roughly interpreted). The teaching this time will follow the content and order of the book. Therefore, to make sure my interpretation is smooth, without mistake, I must first get to know the content of each chapter, and I must be familiar with the English version of the verses in John. So I need to re-read the book of John in English, and I read it aloud to make sure I could pronounce and read it smoothly… Then I have to refer to what is written in Rev Shao’s book to consider how I should interpret some words or content.

Actually I can still handle if I interpret on the spot without prior preparation, but occasionally some words are not interpreted so accurately, and some Scripture, especially names need time to recall. So, do not think it looks so easy when I am interpreting, so effortless, I actually do feel the pressure too. But I believe, apart from the grace and mercy of God, the anointing and wisdom of the Holy Spirit, to prepare seriously is also important!

In fact, not just for  interpreting or preaching behind the pulpit, many things in our daily lives like: studying, working, housework, inter-personal relationships etc, need constant practising too, only then we can improve further, be even more outstanding and successful!

“Be diligent in these matters; give yourself wholly to them, so that everyone may see your progress.”
~ 1 Timothy 4:15 ~


Day 33: 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary (不轻言放弃 / Do Not Give Up Easily)




~ 约翰福音 4:34 ~



Day 33 : Nov 4th (Fri)
As I was interpreting for Rev Shao tonight, one of the things he mentioned once again reminded me, when we feel led by God to do certain things, then we must not give up easily; because even if it is God’s will or guidance, sometimes inevitably there will be challenges and difficulties as well…
For example: fasting, helping others, evangelizing, shepherding etc…
“My food,” said Jesus, “is to do the will of him who sent me and to finish his work.”
~ John 4:34 ~
So, in order to receive real satisfaction, like a hungry man having just eaten a very satisfying and sumptuous meal, we not only need to obey or do God’s will in our lives, we have to complete the work He has entrusted us too… Therefore, let the words “give up” not be found in our dictionary!
But of course first of all we must be close to God, then will we know His plan and will in our lives, only then can we go and complete it…


Day 32: 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary (梦想成真 / Dream Came True)





“我的心哪,你要称颂耶和华,不可忘记他的一切恩惠。 。。 他用美物,使你所愿的得以知足,以致你如鹰返老还童。”
~ 诗篇 103:2,5 ~



Day 32 : Nov 3rd (Thur)

This scene looks very familiar, like I have seen it somewhere before… Then I realized it was something in my mind, the “dream room” that I would love to have many years ago…
A very comfortable room with big glass doors to look out at the scenery outside, flowing curtains etc… But I did not think about it again later, because after a long time, it was either I had forgotten about it or I thought it was not so possible…

And now, without even realizing, it came to pass! I did not specifically ask God for it, it was just a dream in my heart, a picture in my mind, and God saw it and gave it to me!
I can only say: Why are You so good to me?

“Praise the LORD, my soul,
and forget not all his benefits… who satisfies your desires with good things
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s. ”
~ Psalm 103:2,5 ~

I believe when you have a heart that is grateful, full of praise and wanting to serve Him, seek His kingdom and righteousness, many things that you do not even ask Him, He will nevertheless give them to you. This is what I experienced all these years. I deeply feel I am not worthy but am full of gratitude at the same time, I really like my room… In fact, not just this, there were many other dreams too that He has made them come true!

God knows your desires, as long as you follow Him closely, He will not hold back any good thing not to give you.