Tag Archive - 美好回忆,fond memories

讓我很被鼓勵的獎。。。 A trophy that encouraged me a lot…

在Facebook放了这张照片,让大家猜我得了什么奖,后一直没向大家公布。。。
I posted this photo on Facebook and asked you all to guess what award I won, but I have not told you the answer since…

 

 

那是第一年在纽西兰,高中进大学之前(Form 7),在我当时的中学,Hillmorton High School参加的一项比赛。
话说回来,在古晋时我已经很活跃于中英文演讲和辩论比赛一类的活动,可是到了纽西兰,虽然会讲英语,很多时候因着我们马来西亚的“腔调”,同学和老师都不太听得懂我们讲什么。。。难免会造成一点自卑。。。

That was my first year in New Zealand, when I was still in Form 7 before entering the university, I participated in a competition at the high school I was studying at, Hillmorton High School.
Before that, while I was in Kuching, I was already very actively involved in activities like speech and debating competitions in both Chinese and English, but when I arrived in New Zealand, though I could speak English, many times my classmates and teachers found it hard to understand me due to our Malaysian accent… inevitably that kind of made me feel a bit inferior…

 

 

自卑归自卑,兴趣归兴趣,所以当学校报告将举办常年关英语演讲比赛,我也报名参加了!我是唯一的外国参赛者,跟当地的学生比,很荣幸的我竟然得了冠军宝座,真是喜出望外,也让我对公众演说添加信心!

Feeling inferior is one thing, your interest is another thing, so when the school announced about an upcoming annual public-speaking competition, I registered for it! I was the only foreigner in the competition competing against the local students there, and I was very honoured to win the trophy, beyond my expectation. That also increased my confidence in public-speaking!

 

 

想鼓励大家的是,不要因着自卑而退缩,不要因着困难而放弃,只要肯努力和学习,一定会出人头地!
I would like to encourage you all not to withdraw because of feeling inferior, do not give up because of difficulty, as long as you are willing to work hard and learn, you can achieve something outstanding!

 

 

卧室的秘密。。。 Bedroom secrets…

卧室应该是每个人最隐私的地方吧?那你的卧室里又隐藏了什么秘密呢?又或你喜欢自己的卧室吗?为什么?
今天就来跟你分享卧室的秘密。。。那当然是我自己的房间啦,自己的“秘密”当然自己有权“泄露”,但别人的秘密,除非他们允许或不介意,要不然我们可不该随便透露哦!

Bedrooms must be the most private place for every individual. Are there any secrets hidden in your bedroom? Or do you like your bedroom at all? Why?
Today I am going to share some bedroom secrets with you… that of course is my own bedroom, anyone has the right to reveal his own “secrets”, but as for other people’s secrets, unless they allow it or they do not mind, otherwise we must not simply reveal!

 

我想每个人都会想拥有自己的卧室或房间吧?但不是每个人都有那个福分的,尤其是家庭成员多,又住在有限的空间里。。。
所以倘或你现在拥有自己的房间,就好好珍惜、感恩,以及善于使用吧。。。

从一个人的卧室大概可以看出一个人的个性、兴趣、习惯啦,等等。。。
房间的摆设、整齐、脏乱、收藏的东西等等,都可透露你的秘密。
若在没预警之下,有人要参观你的卧室,你会许可吗?当然基于很私人,或有贵重物件,或怕人弄脏等等,我们大可拒绝;但有些人不敢给人看房间的原因是因为太凌乱、肮脏、懒惰整理、或会破坏形象等等。。。若是如此,那就要自我检讨了!

I believe everyoe would love to have his own bedroom but not everyone is blessed with such, especially when you have a big family and live in places where space is limited…
So if right now  you do have your own room, you had better treasure it and be thankful and make the best use of it…

From a person’s bedroom you can kind of figure out his personality, interests, habits etc…
The decoration, tidiness, cleanliness, things collected etc could reveal your secrets.
If without prior notice someone wants to visit your bedroom, would you allow? Of course we can rightfully refuse for privacy reason, or there are valuables or for hygiene, etc; but dome people do not dare to show people their room because it is too messy, dirty, or they are too lazy to tidy their room or for fear of spoiling their reputation… if so, then we would have to examine ourselves!

 

至于我,我一向来都蛮为自己的卧室感自豪,不是如今罢了。。。我想因为我有整理床铺的习惯,也喜欢装饰房间的原因吧?
以前在纽西兰求学,朋友来访时也多数在自己房间聊天,因为客厅不是个人使用。
在纽西兰,我们都穿鞋子到房间里,起初很不习惯,久了也不觉得脏了!

As for me, all along I am quite proud of my own bedroom, not just now… Perhaps it is because I have the habit to make my my bed and I have always liked to decorate my room?
When I was studying in New Zealand, when friends visited, we mostly used the bedroom to chit chat too because the lounge was not for personal use.
In New Zealand we wore the shoes to the room, initially I was not used to that but after a while I did not feel it was that dirty afterall!

 

我喜欢把床放在窗门边,喜欢阳光照射进来的感觉,尤其是那边天气寒冷。。。
这是我最后一年,回国之前的房间,确实充满回忆。。。

I liked to put my bed next to the window, liked the feeling of the sun shining in especially when the climate there was cold…
This was my room in my final year before I came back to Malaysia…

 

当时喜欢粘东西在墙壁上当装饰,好像有点“超过”,哈哈!
芦苇是外面采回来的。。。
有没有注意到墙壁上的书法?那是爸爸在我出国前亲手写给我的勉励的话,那是不善于表达感情的他向我表达他的爱和关心,至今我还收藏着。。。

Used to like to stick things on the wall as decoration, kind fo a bit over-decorated, haha!
The reeds were cut from outside…
Did you notice the Chinese caligraphy on the wall? Those were written by my dad personally and given to me before I came to New Zealand to study, that was my non-expressive dad’s way of expressing his love for me, I kept the writings till this day…

 

墙上的装饰也会改变,因为久了也会腻。
以前很喜欢中国画,不说你不知,我的很多中国画是古晋Akimedia的董事之一Mr. Ng画的,他是我就读古晋市镇中学时最好的朋友。。。

The decor on the wall would change too, otherwise would be too boring after a while…
I used to like Chinese paintings a lot. You would never know if I do not say it, almost all my Chinese paintings were the work of one of the directors of Akimedia in Kuching, Mr. Ng. He was my best friend when I was studying at Kuching Town Secondary School…

 

我其中最快乐的时刻就是能在房间里自弹自唱,我可是一发不可收拾,一唱就可以唱几个小时,自己乐在其中,完全不理会隔壁房的是否已被折磨到吐血。。。
One of my happiest moments would be to play the guitar and sing by myself in my room. It would be hard to stop once I started and I could indulge myself for hours without considering whether my neighbour was already vomitting blood by such torture…

 

这是我在纽西兰第一间自己的房间,那时大学一年级。。。
你看那个发型。。。

This is my first personal bedroom in New Zealand, that was also my first year at university…
Look at that hairstyle…

 

在这里住几年,我选择最小的房间因为这样冬天比较不冷,我没钱买好的热气机。
后来房东也有改善房子。
我也是在这房间里写出我第一首和早期的创作,墙壁的中国画就是Mr. Ng画的,他真的很有才华!

I lived there for quite a few years, I chose the smallest room so it was not that cold in winter and I could not afford a good heater.
The landlord did improve on the house too later.
This was the room where I wrote my first and earliest songs. The Chinese paintings on the wall are all the work of Mr. Ng, he is really talented!

 

如今我的房间当然非常不一样了,我当然也非常喜欢,感谢上帝的赐福和恩典。。。
这就是我卧室的一点“小秘密”,对不起没什么惊天动地,你们很失望吧?哈哈。。。

Today my bedroom is of course very different and of course I love it very much, thank God for His blessing and grace…
These are some “little secrets” of my bedroom, sorry nothing very dramatic and shocking, guess you are very disappointed? Haha…

 

 

 

他痛苦的說:我不要死。。。(續) He said painfully: I don’t want to die… (Part 2)

我到医院了解状况,医生说因为他喝了杀虫剂,他的喉咙、气管和胃都烧坏了,不能再吃和喝东西,情况很糟糕,应该过不了今晚。
我走到他床边,他看到我,他很清醒,还能说话。我握住他的手,我说为什么要这样做?
他很激动的看着我,眼泪在眼眶打转,说:牧师,对不起,我不要死,我現在真的不要死了。。。耶稣会原谅我吗?

我为他祷告,求主赦免和怜悯,也求主彰显神迹。我午夜十一点左右离开,那时他还不能吃东西,本以为他那晚就会去世的。。。

神迹发生了!第二天早上医院传过来的消息说,他精神很好,而且竟然能够正常的吃和喝!但X光明明显示那是不可能的,因为喉咙、食道、一直到胃等等,真的都烧坏了!
我都很怀疑医生的诊断或有没有看错,医生却还是很肯定,只是没办法解释这现象。。。
他继续正常几天,我开始相信他会活下来。

第四天,院方来消息说。。。
他死了。
我很震惊!

据说,第三天下午他把母亲叫来医院,求母亲原谅,说他不是一个好儿子,没好好照顾及供应给母亲。
然后,听隔壁床的说,他那天晚上就一直轻轻的唱诗歌到凌晨,然后就很安静了。
隔壁的以为他因为累而睡着了,哪知护士来检查时,他已安然去世,没有痛苦、没有挣扎。。。
自己轻轻赞美敬拜主而离开这个世界,我想这是主给他的怜悯吧?我也相信是主亲自来把他接回天家了。

在丧礼的那一天,他母亲特别走过来告诉我他儿子说,虽然他很没用,但是这世界还有一个人爱他。他告诉他母亲说牧师爱他,每次都会抱他一下。。。
想到这里,我感到惭愧,这么容易的一个举动,有时候我都不太愿意给,可是这个小举动 却让他感受到世界还有人爱他。
然而,我也感恩我有顺服神在我心中的感动。。。

主啊,让我的心永远不要刚硬,让我时刻能体会你的心,而会甘心顺服你旨意。。。

I went to the hospital to understand the situation. The doctor said because he drank pesticide, his throat, trachea and stomach were all burnt and damaged, so he could not eat or drink anything anymore. The condition was very severe, the doctor predict he could not survive through that night.

I walked towards his bed. He looked at me, he was very alert and could still speak. I held his hand and asked why he did that.
He looked at me with much emotion, tears circling his eyes and said, “Pastor, I’m sorry, I don’t want to die, I really don’t want to die now… Will Jesus forgive me?”

I prayed for him, for the Lord to forgive and have mercy on him, and also for God to manifest His miracle. I left at about eleven midnight, at that time he still could not eat anything. I thought he would pass away that night…

Miracle happened! News from the hospital the next morning said he was very alert mentally, and he could even eat and drink normally! But the X-ray report clearly stated that was not possible because his throat etc all the way to the stomach were all damaged! I really doubted the doctor’s conclusion or examination, the doctor was still very adamant though could not explain the phenomenon… He continued to be normal for the next few days. I began to believe that he was going to survive.

On the fourth day, report from the hospital…
He died.
I was very shocked!

I heard, in the afternoon on the third day, he called his mother to his side. He asked for forgiveness from his mother saying he was not a good son, that he did not take good care of and provide for her. Then, according to the patient next to his bed, that night he was singing songs of praise softly and continuosly till dawn, and he became very quiet.
His neighbour thought he must have grown tired and fell asleep, but when the nurse came around to check, he had passed away peacefully, no pain, no struggle…
Singing softly to the Lord till he left this world, guess that was God’s mercy for him? And I also believe it was the Lord Himself who came to bring him home.

On the day of the funeral, his mother came over specially to me and told me her son said, though he was useless, there was still someone who loved him in this world. He told his mother that his pastor loved him and would hug him everytime…
I felt ashamed as I think about this, such an easy act and sometimes I would be so unwilling to give. And yet this little act caused him to feel there was still someone who loved him in this world.
However, I did thank God I obeyed His prompting in my heart.

O Lord, may my heart never grow hard, may I feel Your heart every moment and willingly obey Your desire…

 

 

 

七年就这样如飞而去。。。 7 years fly by just like that…

七年里面一个人的外貌、环境、心境等等,可以有很多改变。。。至于我呢?那你呢?
你比以前快乐吗?你比以前满足吗?曾经认真想过吗。。。?
Within seven years a person’s appearance, environment, heart condition etc can experience a lot of changes… what about me? And what about you?
Are you happier than before? Are you more satisfied than before?Ever considered that seriously…?

七年前在灯塔 / Seven years ago at Lighthouse – 2004

 

今年在灯塔 / At Lighthouse this year – 2011

 

2004…..

2011…..

因这一次到灯塔教会带给我很大的冲击和鼓励,所以翻开相簿看我2004年在灯塔留下的画面。。。再跟最近刚去灯塔的照片相比较,七年的变化肯定会有,尤其是外貌,岁月的痕迹等等。。。
七年的回忆不仅涌上心头。。。走过的岁月、心路历程、感慨、欣慰、酸甜苦辣等等。。。
七年,脑子里可以浮现很多的画面。。。有些人已去、事已非,但最重要的,我们的心是否对主依然执著、依然单纯?

Due to the impact and encouragement on myself after the visit to Lighthouse this time, I looked into my album again and found the pictures captured at Lighthouse in 2004… comparing them with those photos just taken during the recent visit to Lighthouse, the differences of seven years are definite, especially in terms of appearance, the footprints of years gone by etc…
Memories of seven years inevitably surfaced in my heart… all the days trodden, journey of the heart, remorse, comfort, bitter sweet memories etc…
Seven years, many pictures can come to mind… some of people long gone, things that cannot be undone, but most important of all, is our heart still as determined and pure towards God…?

 

2004…..

 

2011…..

七年里,我知道我不是每次都合神心意,也不是每次都那么专注。。。我也有不顺服的时候,也有分散注意力的时刻。。。
太多时候不明白上帝为什么要使用像我这样的人。。。

In these seven years, I know I may not be after God’s own heart all the time, and may not be completely focused every moment… there were times I did not obey, and times I got distracted…
Too many times I have wondered why God would use a person like me…

 

我想这就是所谓的神的恩典和怜悯,发现他始终没有丢弃我,他对我的心始终如一。。。
只有这样我才能服事下去。。。不是因为配得,而是感恩。。。

I guess that is what we call the grace and mercy of God, to realize that He has never once forsaken me and His heart towards me is ever true…
It is because of this that I can carry on serving… not because I am worthy but grateful…

 

主啊,求保守我的心,永远就只事奉你,永远都把荣耀归给你。。。阿们!
O Lord, please guard my heart to forever serve You alone, and to forever give all the glory to You… Amen!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

我向上帝求一首歌,他说:为什么? I asked God for a song and He asked me: Why?

那是在1993年10月16日,我在新加坡东岭圣经学院的第一年。。。
That was in Oct 16th, 1993, my first year at Tung Ling Bible College, Singapore…

先让你们看看我“神学生”的样子,怎样?很阳光吧?哈哈。。。
Show you first my “Bible-school-student-look”, how? Very sunny huh? Haha…

事情的经过是这样的,我一直很想写一首歌让人听了很感动与超喜欢的,我想要有一首“代表作”。。。
所以我那天就很认真来到上帝面前,宣告禁食早餐和午餐。你要了解当时的我,禁一餐都会几乎要死,但为了要写一首很有恩膏的歌,我觉得那是很值得的。。。你赞成吗?

那天没课,我还乖乖留在神学院,没跟同学出去。。。自己一个人躲在一个小课室里,禁食祷告、赞美敬拜好几个小时,真的很摆上、很付出;我觉得自己还蛮伟大、爱主的。。。
我为我的谦卑感到骄傲。。。

The situation was such, I had always wanted to write a song that would really touch people or people would just love it upon listening, that is my own hit or “signature” song…
So I was very serious in coming to the Lord that day, I declared a fast on breakfast and lunch. You must understand, at that time it would almost kill me to fast even one meal, but for the sake of writing a very anointed song, I thought it was really worth it… don’t you agree?

There was no class that day, I stayed back in school like a good boy, not going out with friends… I hid myself in a small classroom, fasting and praying, praising and worshipping for hours, very sacrificial and committed; I felt I was quite great and really loved the Lord…
I felt proud of my humility…

好,给你看我那谦卑的“浩恋”(骄傲)脸。。。这也是在神学院拍的。。。
Ok, show you my humble proud face… this was also taken in the Bible school…

正当我觉得我的赞美敬拜和祷告都已经很够时,我跟上帝说:看吧,我已经很付出和认真的来亲近你了,所以来吧,给我一首很有恩膏的歌吧。。。
我就很努力的尝试去写,可怎么写来写去都没灵感。。。我有点不耐烦了,再说:怎么搞的,我都牺牲了那么多来亲近你,你连一首歌都不给我吗?

这时只听到上帝轻轻的在我心中说一句话,很温柔但如刀一样刺入我的心,他说:林义忠,你为什么亲近我?
只那么一句,我就懂他的意思了。。。我知道他很难过,因我亲近他只是为了自己得着好处,并不是自己想要亲近他,我顿时觉得好惭愧。。。

When I thought my praise and worship and prayers were very sufficient, I told God: Look, I am very serious and have sacrificed much to draw near to You, so come, give me a very anointed song…
Then I tried very hard to write, but no matter how I did not have any inspiration… so I was getting impatient and said again: What’s wrong? I have already sacrificed so much to draw near to You, can’t You even give me a song?

At that point, I just heard the Lord softly speak to my heart, very gentle but piercing into my heart like a knife, He said: GT, why do you draw near to me?
Just that one sentence, and I knew what He meant… I knew He felt sad because I came near to Him just for my own benefit, and not really because I myself longed to be near Him. I immediately felt very ashamed of myself…

过后,我不敢再求什么,我只是悔改,然后用一首歌把我的悔改表达出来,以下这首“亲近你的时候”,就是在那一刻写的。。。
After that, I dared to ask no more, I just repented and used a song to express my repentance, and the song “When I draw near to You” below, was written at that moment…

亲近你的时候 / When I draw near to You

当我亲近你的时候,抱着什么样的心情
哦主啊,唯有你看得清
当我亲近你的时候,我心里有什么动机
主啊,求你鉴察我的心

让我亲近你只单单因为我爱你
只因为喜欢和你在一起
让我亲近你只单单因为我爱你
只因为喜欢和你在一起

When I draw near to You, what is actually my feeling
O Lord, only You can see clearly
When I draw near to You, what is the motive inside
O Lord, do search and examine my heart

Let me draw near to You just because I love You
Just because I long to be with You
Let me draw near to You just because I love You
Just because I long to be with You

这“演唱会”难忘因为。。。 This “concert” was unforgettable because…

哦,原来相片印有日期,那是2002年的事了。。。时间真的过得超快。。。
Oh, so the photo does have the date printed on it, and that was in 2002… time does really fly…

地点是台湾,高雄那一带。。。
The location is Taiwan, somewhere in the Kaoshiung area…

难忘因为在我记忆中,那应该是我有史以来“最少人”出席的“演唱会”吧?其实根本都称不上是演唱会,比较是诗歌分享会。。。
当时我台湾的代理兴致勃勃的为我安排全省巡回,觉得一定会吸引很多人来聚会。。。结果有很多场人数都寥寥无几,少得可怜,因为没有人知道林义忠是谁。。。
你若注意看总人数,多数还是我们自己的团员呢!
Unforgettable because in my memory, that must be the least attended “concert” of mine in my history? Actually it can’t really be called a concert, just some song and testimony sharing session…
At that time my Taiwanese agent excitedly organised a Taiwan tour for me thinking that many would be attracted to the meetings… As a result, in many of the meetings only a handful of people came, pitifully unpopular because nobody knew who GT Lim was…
If you carefully look at the whole “congregation”, most were our own team members!

正常人再怎么属灵遇到这种情形都会感到少许的失落和难过啦,尤其是准备了那么多,身体也疲惫等等。。。
但又能怎么样呢?尽管只有一个人,还是要卖力的唱,把最好的献上。。。
Normal people, no matter how spiritual you are, will still feel a bit sad and lost in a situation like this of course, especially when you have prepared so much, and physically very worn out too…
But then what can you do? Even if there is only one person, you must still sing with all your heart and offer up your best…

过后感谢主有团员的安慰、鼓励和按摩。。。哈哈。。。
After that, thank God I had the consolation of my team members, also their encouragement and massage… haha…

但说真的,这种经历是好的,提醒你要谦卑。。。
But honestly, this kind of experience is good, to remind you to be humble…