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報告最後三名決賽選手 Announcing the final three finalists

首先报告一下,恨你脏坚持不退赛,他说:“我绝不向恶势力恶言毁谤低头,我的歌写的好我知道,听众也听得出来。。。”,果然非常有信心,那也表示就只剩下三个选手名字要透露了。

为了再加强评审折腾组没偏袒他,恨你继续说:“折腾偏袒我?才怪!我们因两年前的事件过后已没私底下联络和谈话了!”相信他所指的是两年前筹备献殿典礼的录影和音乐时与折腾的冲突,可见他还对这件事耿耿于怀。唉~ 过去的就让它过去吧,金豹说过去的不要再挖出来讲,我们也不知道是真是假。。。

First we need to announce, Henry Chong is determined not to withdraw, he said,”I will not bow down to slanderous and malicious words against me from destructive parties, I write good songs and I know it, the audience can tell too…”. Very confident indeed! That also means we only have three more finalists to announce.

To emphasize his point that Jaydon Joo would not be biassed to his benefit, Hen continued to say, “Jaydon siding me? What a joke! Since the incident two years ago we have not privately contacted or talked to each other!” We believe he was referring to two years ago when he had a conflict with Jaydon while the two prepared for the Chapel-opening video and music, obviously that incident still bothers him. Sigh~ let bygone be bygone, Leopard says do not dig out the past again, and we do not know how real that is as well…

恨你和折腾关系决裂??
Breakdown in Henry and Jaydon’s relationship??PhotoShake(1)

好,现在报告。。。
第十三位:猪狸。虽然当晚她的吉他手显然没练好,屡出状况(也不知道是不是故意),但是评审还是听得出是一首好歌,所以吉他手要猪狸掉进陷阱的计划失败。(很抱歉金豹不能透露吉他手是谁,如果那晚你们自己没来,没看见红歌帮忙弹吉他,就不能怪金豹不告诉你)

Ok, now announcing…
The 13th finalist: Julie. Even though that night obviously the guitarist did not practise well and resulted in a few awkward situations (not sure whether it was deliberate), the judges could still tell it was a good song, so the guitarist’s scheme to trap Julie failed. (Sorry Leopard cannot reveal who the guitarist was, if you did not come and see for yourself David Koh playing for her that night, you cannot blame Leopard for not telling)

图示:猪狸和吉他手红歌。
Picture shows Julie and guitarist David Koh.
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第十四位:阿兵妻,家儿。虽然当晚情到深处唱得极有感触,泪如雨下无法继续顺畅演唱,为公平起见,评审还是回家多听几次而做了决定,所以不是同情分。

The 14th finalist: Alvin’s wife, Karyee. Though she sang with great emotions that night till she broke down and wept and therefore could not finish singing smoothly, to be fair, the judges went back to listen a few times again to make the final decision, so it is not mercy marks.

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现在终于报告最后一位了,第十五位!到底是谁在最后在千钧一发的关头闯关呢?
但这个人,金豹一定要怒言几句,人心真的诡诈不能信任!这人本来每逢星期天晚上都会很忠心预备晚餐送来喂养金豹,可是金豹星期天中午戏言说他被淘汰,没进决赛,结果那天晚上金豹也没晚餐吃了,而那人也不再出现在金豹家!
是巧合?是威胁?是报复?金豹就留给你们下判断了。。。

Now finally announcing the final person, the 15th finalist! Who will be the final one to narrowly squeeze into the final?
But this person, Leopard must release a few angry words, human hearts are indeed cunning and cannot be trusted! This person would normally faithfully prepare dinner to feed Leopard every Sunday night but on Sunday afternoon Leopard jokingly teased this person and said he was eliminated from the final, consequently Leopard had no dinner that night and that person never appeared at Leopard’s house again!
Coincidence? Threat? Revenge? Leopard will leave it for you to conclude…

这人是:尾阉!
This person is: Wayne!
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精彩连续剧终于播放完毕了吗?
喂!等等等!!!还没完!!!
听说有人会复活!!!

据说刚才折腾发现决赛名单中竟然没有他极度欣赏的一位参赛者,所以经过一番折腾性的争辩后,主办单位害怕折腾杯葛赛事,所以决定让其中一位原本落选者复活!
那到底是谁呢?难道真的是“我们唱的很大声的”饥民?难道饥民真的是内定冠军?难道饥民现在没在决赛名单内只是烟雾弹?

So finally this is the end of our exciting series?
Hey! Wait! Wait! Wait! It is not over yet!!!
We heard that someone might resurrect!!!

Sources say just now when Jaydon discovered a contestant he highly adores is not in the finalists list, he struck up a fierce argument with the organizer,  and for fear that Jaydon might boycott the competition, the organizer conceded defeat by resurrecting one contestant who initially failed to enter the final!
And who is this fellow? Is it Kee Meng of “We Sing Loud”? Is it really true that after all Kee Meng is the pre-decided champion? Is Kee Meng’s exclusion from the finalists list now just a covering from the truth?

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若不是饥民,难道是兄弟瘦民或瘦人?
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或者是摇滚味很浓,但名字很娘的蕾丝女??
Or the very rock Leslie who sports a pony tail??
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或者另有他人??
这复活消息真是让绝望的人又惊又喜,然后再度陷入绝望。。。
请锁定金豹惊爆新闻,答案比快揭晓!

Or there is someone else??
This resurrection news really makes the hopeless ones feel all excited and hopeful again, just to fall back into hopelessness again…
Please log into Leopard’s more shocking news, the answer will be revealed soon!

但真的是最后一位吗?金豹收到消息说,原本已定

總決賽名單公佈! Announcement of Finalists!

非常抱歉,让大家久等了,因最近金豹步步追踪最新消息,搞到金豹疲惫不堪,身体欠佳。。。
看金豹下面憔悴倦容,你就明白了。。。
Thousand apologies for keeping all of you to wait so long, but it is due to Golden Leopard unceasing pursuit to get you the latest news till Leopard became physically exhausted and unwell…
You would understand when you see Leopard’s weary and haggard look below…

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但无论如何,很专业的金豹再病再累也要把最新的消息报告给忠心鸡婆的你们,所以哒啦!总决赛名单公布啦!第一位进入总决赛者当然是众望所归,妈妈听了代唱歌手所唱版本,大赞不已,但听了原著自己唱却默默无语的:

张秀月的“仰望祢”。。。但金豹应该会逼她改歌名,please啦!这种歌名随便拿石头就丢到一个,就好像名字叫John或Mary一样。。。单单我们这几个人的比赛都出现两首歌名叫“仰望祢”!所以基本上她歌名创意分数拿零分。。。

But no matter what, being very professional, even if he is sick or tired, Golden Leopard insists on reporting the latest news to all the faithful kepoes (busy-bodies), so tada! Here is the list of the finalists!
The first to enter the Grand Final is of course the all-time favourite, the one whose mother praised to the heavens the version the representing singer was singing but refused to comment when the original writer sang her own version:

Dorcas SG’s “I Look Unto You”… but most likely Leopard would force her to change the title of her song, please ok! Pick a stone to simply throw and you can hit this kind of title anytime, just like the name John and Mary… just within our own competition entries, there are already two songs called “I Look Unto You”! So she scored basically zero for creativity for song title…

上图:原著:张秀月(妈妈不要听她的版本),下图:代唱歌手:玉环
Top: Song-writer, Dorcas SG (mother didn’t want to listen to her version); bottom: Christine, representing singer.

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第二位:李玮妮(代唱:尸体飞恐)
两人的对唱造成轰动,也惹出暧昧绯闻的“祢在哪里。我在这里”,仿佛抄袭罗密欧和朱丽叶的对白。。。而且代唱歌手尸体飞恐Steve一鸣惊人,让大家认为原本demo版代唱的大泥鳅DannyQ可以留在中东无名沙漠晒到变咸鱼了,如风砂被吹,歌声被人遗忘。。。

2nd finalist: WeiNi (Representing singer: Steve Kong)
Their duet of “Where Art Thou. Here Am I”, likely to have copied Romeo and Juliet’s line, caused much stir and created some romantic rumour between them… and the representing singer Steve Kong is really “a rooster that frightens everyone with its first crow” (meaning very impressive), and everyone feels the original representing singer who sang in the demo version, Danny Q can just stay on in some obscure desert in the Middle East, like sand blown by the wind, his voice forgotten by people…

图示:为你和史提非,新版朱丽叶和罗密欧
Picture shows: WeiNi and Steve, new version Juliet and Romeo

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第三位:大家已经知道的甜丝丝姐(代唱:忠卫)
原著田丝姐有翻版S.H.E Selina 和翻版蔡依林之称。虽然代唱忠卫也如同尸体飞给人一种一鸣惊人的感觉,但遗憾的是在总决赛,不会再看到他唱这首歌,因为甜丝姐坚持要自己唱,她认为没有人能比她唱得更好。当初没自己唱是刚好出门,逼不得已,本来还要用录影片段比赛!自信心惊人!

The 3rd: This you all knew already, Stephanie Thian (Representing singer: Zhong Wei)
The writer Stephanie has such nicknames like the copy of S.H.E Selina and Jolene Tsai Yi Lin. Though the representing singer Zhong Wei gave people the same feeling as Steve like the frightening first crow of the rooster, regrettably we will not be hearing him sing this song again in the Final because Stephanie insists on singing this song herself, she thinks no one can sing it better than herself. She did not sing in the preliminary round because she had no choice as she was travelling then, in fact she wanted to submit her singing in video to compete then, you can see how threatening her confidence is!

图示:甜丝丝姐田思洁和初赛代唱歌手忠卫
Picture shows: Stephanie and Zhong Wei, the representing singer in the preliminary round

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第四位:王保安。
这个啊。。。也有点争论性啰,他认为他是属于红哥和蓝包那一类,因为太强而被威胁退赛的。。。你们说呢。。。?
The 4th: OPA.
Well, this one… kind of controversial too as he thinks he should be in the category as David Koh and Rambo to be threatened to withdraw from the competition for being too strong a contestant…what do you say…?

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第五位:也是你们知道的,边缘者最后挤进来的大屁虾。这个就似模似样,很会装艺人形象,事实上跳舞更厉害。你看他那么有型的头发,怎样动都不会乱,但他坚称那晚他的头发根本没吹,也没做造型过!一切都是自然的他说,我相信啰。。。

The 5th: This one you all know too as he was one of the borderline contestants to finally squeeze into the final, David Sia.
As for him, well, he has the style, very good at makinghimself look like a celebrity. In actual fact, he can dance much better. Look at how nicely styled his hair was and it did not get out of place no matter how he moved, but he insisted he did not style his hair at all that night! It was all natural he said… Well, I believe him….

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报告了五位,大概都是大家知道一定在决赛里的,接下来的就比较是按你们的猜测和认为,是否会出现在总决赛的参赛者了。。。金豹现在也累了,待会再继续报导吧。。。。

After announcing the five whom most of you would somehow know are surely in the final, now the remaining ones will be those whom you yourselves think or guess should be i the final…
But Leopard is kind of tired now, we shall continue later…

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何等可爱的雀鸟。。。 How lovely a bird…

早期对圣经诗篇毫无兴趣和没有感觉,灵命还没成长到能体会诗篇的含意的阶段吧?
一直到1994年,神学院第二年,才开始被诗篇吸引和感动,那时就开始创作好多诗篇,甚至一天都有高达三、四首创作的记录!
也非常感谢神让我能够一字不加与一字不漏的照圣经经文写成歌,也因而帮我熟记了好一些经文。。。

很多人喜欢问我,创作了那么多歌和发行了16张专辑,哪些诗歌或唱片是我的最爱?我常不加以思索的就说:诗篇!
最大原因是诗篇都是神的话,没有丝毫我个人的意思或话语参杂其中,所以我觉得最特别。。。
而且很多首,我自己也很”厚脸皮“的觉得旋律也挺优美的,哈哈!

在这里跟你们介绍两首不同年代写的诗篇,一是1994年的“雀鸟”,和今年2011才写的“何等可爱”。
其实“何等可爱”1994也已经写完一个版本,可是始终都不满意,一直到今年从新写过才认为“感觉对了”!在教会教唱的时候,看到大家被摸着的反应,我知道时间到了!

In the earlier days, I was never interested or I never had any feeling for the Psalms in the Bible. Guess it is because my spiritual life had not grown to that level then?
Until the year 1994 when I was doing my second year Bible School, was I attracted and touched by Psalms. At that time I began to compose many songs from Psalms, sometimes even 3 to 4 songs a day!
I am also very grateful to God that I could write those verses into songs without adding or subtracting one word from the verses, and hence that helped me memorize many verses as well…

Many people like to ask, of all the many songs I have written or the 16 albums I have released, which song(s)or album(s) are my favourites? Without hesitation, I would always reply: Psalms!
The biggest reason is Psalms are all the words of God, not a single bit of my own thought or word inside, that is why I feel they are very special…
And also many of them, being rather “thick-skinned”, I feel that the melodies are quite nice too, haha!

Here I am going to share with you two songs written over different period of time, one was written in 1994 “Like a Bird”, and one written this year 2011 “How Lovely”.
In fact I wrote a version of “how Lovely” too in 1994 but was never satisfied with it, until this year when I re-wrote it, only then I felt it had the “correct feel”!
And when I taught it in church, looking at the congregation’s response and how they were touched, I knew the timing had come!

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雀鳥 / Like a bird
詞 / Lyrics:詩篇 Psalms 124:7-8; 63:7-8
曲 / Music:林義忠 / GT Lim
(寫於 / Written on : 07-03-1994)

我们好像雀鸟,从捕鸟人的网罗里逃脱
网罗破裂,我们逃脱了
我们得帮助是在乎依靠
造天地之耶和华的名 耶和华的名

因为祢曾帮助我,
我就在祢翅膀的荫下欢呼
我心紧紧地跟随祢
祢的右手扶持我

We have escaped like a bird out of the fowler’s snare
The snare has been broken, and we have escaped
Our help is in the name of the LORD
The Maker of heaven and earth, of heaven and earth

Because you are my help
I sing in the shadow of your wings
My soul clings to you
Your right hand upholds me

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"何等可愛"(How lovely)
(詞/Lyrics:詩篇Psalm 84:1-4; 曲/Music:林義忠 GT Lim – 23/06/2011)

我羡慕渴想耶和华的院宇
我的心肠,我的肉体
向永生神呼吁

万军之耶和华
我的王,我的神啊
在你祭坛那里
麻雀为自己找着房屋
燕子为自己找着抱雏之窝
如此住在你殿中的便为有福
他们仍要赞美你

万军之耶和华啊你的居所何等可爱
万军之耶和华啊你的居所何等可爱

My soul yearns, even faints, for the courts of the Lord
My heart and my flesh cry out for the living God

O Lord Almighty
My King and my God
A place near Your altar
Even the sparrow has found a home, and the swallow a nest for herself
Blessed are those who dwell in Your house
They are ever praising You

How lovely is Your dwelling place, O Lord Almighty

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忠式情歌。。。 GT’s Love Songs…

其实早期开始写歌时,我有一个梦想,就是把圣经正确的观念与真理写进“情歌”里,以流行歌曲的方式“感化”爱听歌的人。。。
所以,以前会尝试写“情歌”,但我的“情”不只限于男女感情,也包涵亲情、友情、家乡情等等。。。
但后来上帝仿佛没在这方面给我开路,反而引导我成为福音歌手,所以我就没花太多心思再写情歌。

最近兴起的“例外人”事工才又让我重新“启动”我情歌方面的创意资源,再加上最近学会用iPhone“自拍自录”YouTube videos,就突发其想,决定除了上载诗歌创作之外,也可以上载一些过去所写的,或可能也会创作新的“健康情歌”来鼓励大家。因此,也设立了“忠式情歌”这个部门,希望你们都会喜欢,更希望真的会帮助到一些人。。。

今天在这里介绍给你的“不要说”,有别于一般流行的情歌,总讲分手啦、伤害啦、对方对不起自己啦等等。。。这里鼓吹的是饶恕、宽容、接纳和努力建立真爱。。。

Actually in my earlier days of song-writing, I had a dream to integrate the right values of the Bible and truths into “love songs”, and to “rehabilitate” songs lovers through the pop culture…
So I would attempt to write “love songs” before but my “love” is not restricted to just love between a man and a woman but also includes family, friendship, homeland etc…
But it seemed God did not open the way for me in this field, but led me to become a Gospel singer, so I did not spend too much time and effort to try to write more love songs.

Only with the recent establishment of the ministry of “The Remnant”, was my creative resource for love songs “reactivated”, and also with my recently acquired knowledge of self-recording using iPhone for YouTube videos, I had the thought of uploading apart from my Gospel compositions, my old or perhaps future love songs too to encourage all. Hence, I set up the section for “GT’s Love Songs” as well, hope you will like it and even more so, hope these songs will really help others too…

And here today, this song I am introducing to you is different from the conventional love songs that normally talk about separation, hurts, how the other party did wrong etc… here, it is promoting forgiveness, understanding, acceptance and making effort to build up true love…

 

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忠式情歌 / GT’s love songs

“不要說” / “Don’t Say That”
詞曲/Lyrics and music: 林義忠 GT Lim

靜靜的 一句話也別說  Quietly, don’t say a word
就這樣緊握我的手  Just hold on tightly to my hand
讓我們甚麼也不要說  Let us not say anything at this moment
有時候沈默也是很好的  Sometimes silence is a good remedy too

不要說 一切都是妳的錯  Do not say it is entirely your fault
也不要說甚麼對不起我 And do not say however sorry you are to me
親愛的妳 請了解我  My dearest, do understand me
因為愛妳 我甚麼也能接受  Because I love you, I can handle all this

我不會只為了一點點的錯  I will not just over a little wrong
就讓妳這樣說要離開我  Let you say you will choose to go
我曾經對妳說過  I have told you long before
妳是否記得  Do you still remember
自從認識妳以後  Ever since I knew you
從來沒有後悔過  I have never regretted a thing

所以不要難過  So do not be upset
請相信我  Trust me please
對妳的愛 依然存留  My love for you remains
我只要妳靜靜的靠著我  All I want is for you to lean on me silently
我們還可以 從新來過  We can always start things all over again

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如果我能飞上天。。。 If I could fly to the sky…

 

 

如果我能飞上天
我要在白云里种一个小花园
让花朵随着小雨点
一片片散落在人间

If I could fly to the sky
I would want to plant a garden in the clouds
That the blossoms together with the raindrops
Would fall and scatter on the earth

 

 

如果我能飞上天
我要在白云里快乐的荡秋千
跟星星们一起聊天
闪闪发光照耀人间

If I could fly to the sky
I would want to sit on the swing happily in the clouds
To chit chat the stars
And to shine brightly that the world can see

 

 

但我不能飞上天
天空太遥远
我只能祈求在人间
完成我的心愿

But I cannot fly to the sky
For the sky is too far away
I can only ask that on earth
I may fulfill my heart’s desire

 

把爱栽种在心田
散播给每个人
在生命里的每一天
把快乐都传给人

To plant the seed of love in my heart
And to spread it to everyone
In everyday of my life
To bring happiness to everyone

 

 

我不能飞上天
但我却能够把爱栽种在心田
化成花朵和小雨点
让温情充满人间

I cannot fly to the sky
But I can plant the seed of love in my heart
Let it transform into blossoms and raindrops
To fill and warm up this world with love

 

 

诗歌创作:“蒙召为此”。。。 Song composition: “Called For This”…

寫經文詩歌應該是從1993年開始吧,因為那時在神學院每個禮拜都規定要背一些經文,把經文寫成歌,背起來容易多了。。。
也感謝主的恩典,讓我能夠一字不漏及一字不加的照着原來經文寫出來,而且也給我會喜歡的旋律。
跟你們分享這首我很喜歡的“蒙召為此”。。。

It must be the year 1993 when I first started writing Scriptural songs, it was because I was at Bible College then and it was required of us to memorize some verses each week. I found it much easier to memorize when I wrote the verses into songs…
Thank God for His grace too that He helped me to write directly from the actual verses without adding on or subtracting any words, and He also gave me the melodies that I like.
Share with you this one that I like very much “Called For This”…

“蒙召为此” (Called For This)
詞/Words:彼得前書/1Peter  2:21-25
曲/Music:林義忠 / GT Lim
(写于/Written on: 20/08/1993)

你们蒙召原是为此
(To this you were called)

因基督也为你们受过苦
(because Christ suffered for you)

给你们留下榜样
(leaving you an example)

叫你们跟随他的脚踪行
(that you should follow in his steps)

他并没有犯罪 口里也没有诡诈
(He committed no sin, and no deceit was found in his mouth)

他被骂不还口 受害不说威吓的话
(When they hurled their insults at him, he did not retaliate; when he suffered, he made no threats)

只将自己交托那按公义 审判人的主
(Instead, he entrusted himself to him who judges justly)

他被挂在木头上 亲身担当了我们的罪
(He himself bore our sins in his body on the tree)

使我们既然在罪上死 就得以在义上活
(so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness)

因他受的鞭伤 你们便得了医治
(by his wounds you have been healed)

你们从前好像迷路的羊
(For you were like sheep going astray)

如今却归到你们灵魂的牧人 监督了
(but now you have returned to the Shepherd and Overseer of your souls)

 

 

 

 

我到底做錯甚麼? What did I do wrong?

我到底做错什么
倒霉的事总是找上我
我觉得我的人还算不错
可是机会为何总是躲避我

What did I do wrong
Why do bad things always happen to me
I consider myself quite a good person
But why do opportunities always elude me

 

我到底做错什么
好事仿佛都轮不到我
怎么别人都比我快乐
我在说什么你懂不懂

What did I do wrong
Why do good things not come to me
Why are others happier than me
Do you understand what I am saying

 

我到底做错什么
失败挫折一波波
何时才会停止
怎样才算受够

What did I do wrong
Failures and defeats keep coming
When will they stop
What is considered enough

 

我到底做错什么
你为何保持一贯的沉默
为何不把答案告诉我
我还有很多话要说

What did I do wrong
Why do You maintain Your silence
Why are You not giving me any answer
I still have a lot to say

 

暂停思索
无奈抬头
却见你沉默的温柔
依然深情的望着我

I pause a moment
Lifting my head helplessly
But I see Your quiet gentleness
Gazing at me with eyes deep with love

 

霎那间我发现
原来我已拥有那最好的
你。。。从来没离开常抱怨的我
我。。。
到底做对什么

Suddenly I realize
I already have the best there is
You… have never left the always complaining me
What did I do… right

 

**与一个很有才华的有人交谈时有感而发。。。他喜欢我写的东西,说过要合作,可是他几个月前回天家了。。。
**Inspired by my conversation with a very talented friend… he loved my writing, we talked about working together, but few months ago he had gone back to be with the Lord…

 

袮还在路口等着我。。。 Still Waiting For Me At The Junction…

 

/
( Road to the Grand Canyon, USA )

 

林義忠詩歌創作
GT Lim’s composition (November 14th, 1988, Christchurch, NZ.)

祢还在路口等着我
( Still Waiting For Me At The Junction )

一步一步在这路上行走,有好多次感到疲惫软弱
但我不要停步 不想逗留,因为在路上有祢牵着我的手

不管路途多艰苦我也不要停步
因为有我的主伴我左右
有什么能代替这种幸福
永远有我的主伴我左右

可是为何啊我的主,每次走到交叉路口的时候
祢说走向左我偏去右,愚昧,、糊涂的选择走自己的路

放开祢的手走向自己的方向
路途怎么却越来越昏暗
这路原来领向无底的绝望
但却听到祢说回头是岸

我便往回走,身体充满伤口
眼前却看到祢伸出祢的手
祢还在路口等着我

我还没走到的时候,祢已跑向我
紧紧的抱住我说,祢爱我
我眼泪直流,惭愧的没有话好说
祢竟然还如此爱着我

Step by step I walk on this journey
There are many times I feel weary and weak
But I will not stop nor linger
For along the journey, You will be there to hold my hand

No matter how tough the journey is I will not give up
Because my Lord is always there beside me
Nothing can replace this happiness that I have
To have the Lord beside me forever

But why is it, O Lord
Each time when I reach a crossroads
When You tell me to go left, I will choose to go right
Foolishly and ignorantly I would choose to go my own way

Letting go of Your hand to walk my own direction
Why then is the journey getting darker and darker
Realizing this road leads to unending hopelessness
But to hear Your voice calling me to turn back to the right path

So I turn back with a wounded body
There ahead of me I see You stretching out Your hand
You are still there waiting for me at the junction

Before I could reach, You are already running towards me
Holding me tightly to say You love me
My tears roll down and I am too ashamed to say anything
How could You still love me so much

 

 

 

卧室的秘密。。。 Bedroom secrets…

卧室应该是每个人最隐私的地方吧?那你的卧室里又隐藏了什么秘密呢?又或你喜欢自己的卧室吗?为什么?
今天就来跟你分享卧室的秘密。。。那当然是我自己的房间啦,自己的“秘密”当然自己有权“泄露”,但别人的秘密,除非他们允许或不介意,要不然我们可不该随便透露哦!

Bedrooms must be the most private place for every individual. Are there any secrets hidden in your bedroom? Or do you like your bedroom at all? Why?
Today I am going to share some bedroom secrets with you… that of course is my own bedroom, anyone has the right to reveal his own “secrets”, but as for other people’s secrets, unless they allow it or they do not mind, otherwise we must not simply reveal!

 

我想每个人都会想拥有自己的卧室或房间吧?但不是每个人都有那个福分的,尤其是家庭成员多,又住在有限的空间里。。。
所以倘或你现在拥有自己的房间,就好好珍惜、感恩,以及善于使用吧。。。

从一个人的卧室大概可以看出一个人的个性、兴趣、习惯啦,等等。。。
房间的摆设、整齐、脏乱、收藏的东西等等,都可透露你的秘密。
若在没预警之下,有人要参观你的卧室,你会许可吗?当然基于很私人,或有贵重物件,或怕人弄脏等等,我们大可拒绝;但有些人不敢给人看房间的原因是因为太凌乱、肮脏、懒惰整理、或会破坏形象等等。。。若是如此,那就要自我检讨了!

I believe everyoe would love to have his own bedroom but not everyone is blessed with such, especially when you have a big family and live in places where space is limited…
So if right now  you do have your own room, you had better treasure it and be thankful and make the best use of it…

From a person’s bedroom you can kind of figure out his personality, interests, habits etc…
The decoration, tidiness, cleanliness, things collected etc could reveal your secrets.
If without prior notice someone wants to visit your bedroom, would you allow? Of course we can rightfully refuse for privacy reason, or there are valuables or for hygiene, etc; but dome people do not dare to show people their room because it is too messy, dirty, or they are too lazy to tidy their room or for fear of spoiling their reputation… if so, then we would have to examine ourselves!

 

至于我,我一向来都蛮为自己的卧室感自豪,不是如今罢了。。。我想因为我有整理床铺的习惯,也喜欢装饰房间的原因吧?
以前在纽西兰求学,朋友来访时也多数在自己房间聊天,因为客厅不是个人使用。
在纽西兰,我们都穿鞋子到房间里,起初很不习惯,久了也不觉得脏了!

As for me, all along I am quite proud of my own bedroom, not just now… Perhaps it is because I have the habit to make my my bed and I have always liked to decorate my room?
When I was studying in New Zealand, when friends visited, we mostly used the bedroom to chit chat too because the lounge was not for personal use.
In New Zealand we wore the shoes to the room, initially I was not used to that but after a while I did not feel it was that dirty afterall!

 

我喜欢把床放在窗门边,喜欢阳光照射进来的感觉,尤其是那边天气寒冷。。。
这是我最后一年,回国之前的房间,确实充满回忆。。。

I liked to put my bed next to the window, liked the feeling of the sun shining in especially when the climate there was cold…
This was my room in my final year before I came back to Malaysia…

 

当时喜欢粘东西在墙壁上当装饰,好像有点“超过”,哈哈!
芦苇是外面采回来的。。。
有没有注意到墙壁上的书法?那是爸爸在我出国前亲手写给我的勉励的话,那是不善于表达感情的他向我表达他的爱和关心,至今我还收藏着。。。

Used to like to stick things on the wall as decoration, kind fo a bit over-decorated, haha!
The reeds were cut from outside…
Did you notice the Chinese caligraphy on the wall? Those were written by my dad personally and given to me before I came to New Zealand to study, that was my non-expressive dad’s way of expressing his love for me, I kept the writings till this day…

 

墙上的装饰也会改变,因为久了也会腻。
以前很喜欢中国画,不说你不知,我的很多中国画是古晋Akimedia的董事之一Mr. Ng画的,他是我就读古晋市镇中学时最好的朋友。。。

The decor on the wall would change too, otherwise would be too boring after a while…
I used to like Chinese paintings a lot. You would never know if I do not say it, almost all my Chinese paintings were the work of one of the directors of Akimedia in Kuching, Mr. Ng. He was my best friend when I was studying at Kuching Town Secondary School…

 

我其中最快乐的时刻就是能在房间里自弹自唱,我可是一发不可收拾,一唱就可以唱几个小时,自己乐在其中,完全不理会隔壁房的是否已被折磨到吐血。。。
One of my happiest moments would be to play the guitar and sing by myself in my room. It would be hard to stop once I started and I could indulge myself for hours without considering whether my neighbour was already vomitting blood by such torture…

 

这是我在纽西兰第一间自己的房间,那时大学一年级。。。
你看那个发型。。。

This is my first personal bedroom in New Zealand, that was also my first year at university…
Look at that hairstyle…

 

在这里住几年,我选择最小的房间因为这样冬天比较不冷,我没钱买好的热气机。
后来房东也有改善房子。
我也是在这房间里写出我第一首和早期的创作,墙壁的中国画就是Mr. Ng画的,他真的很有才华!

I lived there for quite a few years, I chose the smallest room so it was not that cold in winter and I could not afford a good heater.
The landlord did improve on the house too later.
This was the room where I wrote my first and earliest songs. The Chinese paintings on the wall are all the work of Mr. Ng, he is really talented!

 

如今我的房间当然非常不一样了,我当然也非常喜欢,感谢上帝的赐福和恩典。。。
这就是我卧室的一点“小秘密”,对不起没什么惊天动地,你们很失望吧?哈哈。。。

Today my bedroom is of course very different and of course I love it very much, thank God for His blessing and grace…
These are some “little secrets” of my bedroom, sorry nothing very dramatic and shocking, guess you are very disappointed? Haha…

 

 

 

逃到北京(2)。。。 Escape to Beijing (2)…

那一次几个问题接踵而来,无法安静思考、近乎窒息。。。
我跟天父说:对不起,我很少逃避现实、不负责任,我很多事情都问过你,但这一次就让我选择逃避一下可以吗?

我不告诉人,自己跑去旅行社买机票,决定飞去北京找刚好当天随孙燕姿演唱会团队飞往北京的祖。

That time, problems came one after another, I could not think coherently, I felt suffocated…
I told Father God: I’m sorry, I seldom run away from reality or am seldom irresponsible, most times I would ask Your permission, but this time, could You just allow me to choose to escape for a while?

I did not tell anyone, I went to buy the air ticket at the travel agency.
I decided to fly to Beijing to meet Jaydon who happened to fly there that day as well with Stefanie Sun’s concert team.

但飞中国需要签证,当天要办签证也已经太迟了。。。

我又跟天父说:我不问你我这样子走掉对不对、该不该,我只求你让我出去透透气一下。。。可以吗?求你让中国理事馆允许我逾时了仍愿意给我签证。。。

旅行社员工回来报告说我的签证拿到了。。。
好几个小时后我抵达北京。

But we need a visa to fly to China and it was too late to apply for a visa that day…

I told Father God again: I’m not asking You as to whether it is right for me to run away in this manner, or whether I should, all that I’m asking for is for You to allow me to go and breathe some fresh air… is that ok? Please allow the Chinese Embassy to grant me a visa beyond their office hours…

The agency staff came back and said I got the visa…
Many hours later, I was in Beijing.

 

孙燕姿音乐总监KennC是我好友,他不知道我其实是“离家出走”,还以为我只是纯粹来度假。
他听到我来很高兴,让我免费跟他们住同样饭店,还安排给我演唱会最贵的贵宾席(约马币八百零吉)!

Stefanie’s music director, Kenn C is my good friend, he did not know I was actually “running away from home”, but thought I was only coming for a holiday.
He was very happy to hear that I came, he got me to stay with them for free at the expensive 5-star hotel, and gave me the most expensive ticket in the VIP seats (about RM800)!

第一次参加流行演唱会,看着那坐的满满的室外体育馆,孙燕姿受欢迎的程度可想而知。。。顿时觉得自己很渺小,我到底是谁?谁会认识我?
我只不过是一颗尘土,天父没理由拣选我、使用我,而我还在这里逃离他的呼召。
虽然如此,这粒尘土却坐在最贵的贵宾席。
我感觉天父对我的重视和爱怜,虽然我逃跑,但我仍感觉他说:孩子,我还是爱你的。。。

It was my first pop concert experience ever, seeing the packed outdoor stadium, you could tell Stefanie is indeed very popular… Immediately I felt so tiny and insignificant, who am I? Who knows me? I am but dust, there is no reason why Father God should choose and use me, and here I am, running away from His calling.
Even so, this dust was now sitting in the  most expensive VIP seat.
I could feel how Father God treasured and loved me. Though I ran away, I felt Him saying: Child, I love you still…

 

孙爸爸坐我后面一两排(左一戴眼镜的)。。。
Stefanie’s father sat a row or two behind me (far left with glasses)…

 

演唱会一开始,我注意到孙爸爸那很满足的眼神看着他女儿表演。从他眼神,我知道在他心中,燕姿永远是最棒的;不管她歌唱得怎么样、舞跳得怎么样,孙爸爸的表情都是那么欣赏和喜悦他女儿,他那么的引她为荣!

可以感觉到他也会紧张燕姿表演会不会出差错等等,倘若真的出差错,我很肯定他会很心疼燕姿,而不是生气或觉得丢脸或急着要责备,他也一定会担心燕姿会不会受伤或难过。。。

那一刻,我感受到天父的心。。。我突然领悟他时常也是这样看着我。。。
天父的爱触摸了我,我的耻辱与罪恶感也消失了。

As soon as the concert started, I noticed Stef’s father’s very satisfied expression watching his daughter’s performance. From his eyes, I knew in his heart Stef will always be the best to him, it does not matter how well she sang or danced, the father’s expression was one of someone very appreciative of and delighted with his daughter, he was just so proud of her!

I could feel he was also concerned whether Stef would make any mistake during the performance etc, and if she did, I was sure he would feel so much for her and not get angry or feel ashamed or want to rebuke her instantly, he would also be concerned whether Stef would feel hurt or upset…

At that moment, I felt the heart of my Father God… I suddenly realized that He is also constantly looking at me in the same manner…
The love of my Father God touched me, my shame and guilt disappeared as well.

一个地上的父亲都能那么爱他的孩子,天父岂不更爱我?岂不更关心我、在乎我?
我因着压力而逃跑,我没做好我的本份,他没有生气我,也没有惩罚我,他反而还让我住五星级饭店,坐贵宾席看演唱会。。。

那一天,我发现天父那么了解我、在乎我,也非常体贴我的软弱、我的感受。。。
我逃到北京,逃离天父的呼召,却跑进我天父的怀抱。。。

Even an earthly father could love his child so much, would not my Father God love me more, care for me more, or be concerned for me more?
I ran away under pressure, I did not stay true to my calling, He was not angry with me, He did not punish me, instead He put me in a 5-star hotel, and gave me a VIP seat to watch a concert…

That day, I realized Father God really understands me and is very concerned for me, He also understands my weaknesses and feelings…
I escaped to Beijing, I escaped from the calling of Father God, I escaped but ran straight into the arms of my Father…