第二十一天：10月23日(日)

今晚讲完第二堂道就上去看朴传道服事的情况，因为主日要讲两堂道，所以今天没有办法帮忙。。。
同工告诉我今天的服事非常特别，很多人身上的鬼都被赶走，而且有一些是蛮大只的鬼！
马上耶稣的话就进入我脑中：

“况且这女人本是亚伯拉罕的后裔，被撒但捆绑了这十八年，不当在安息日解开她的绑吗？”
～ 路加福音13:16～

“又对他们说：人子是安息日的主。”
～路加福音6:5~

可见特别献上给主的一天，一起聚集、敬拜赞美主、领受神的道和赐福等等，的确是神的美意，有特别恩膏和赐福。。。所以我们无论如何都不要错失机会，主日一定都要来聚会。

另外，神感动我的是，那些这几天那么摆上时间，又禁食又配合服事的人有福了，因为神所拣选的禁食就是：

“我所拣选的禁食，不是要松开凶恶的绳，解下轭上的索，使被欺压的得自由，折断一切的轭吗？”
～以赛亚书58:6～

第二十天：10月22日(六)

与韩国朴传道一起服事，回到家已凌晨1:30，2:30am上床睡觉，6:00am不知何故就醒来了！本想继续睡，可是脑子里充满很多当做的事情。。。主日讲章还没写、禁食日记已拖延两天没上载、待会与朴传道的服事等等。。。
结果我放弃了，起来洗澡“开工”，向神求力量、智慧和启示，好叫我能在短时间内，成就几件事情，而且不马虎。

神听了我的祷告！马上有感动晓得要讲什么道，一口气就写完了；然后，也把禁食祷告的感动写完，刊登上去了；一切准备就绪，又到教会与朴传道配搭服事了！
奇妙的是，一点也不觉得累；而且一般上这样赶时间，我都会有一点偏头痛，可是这次头也不会痛！神真是美好！

当然我知道我不是救主，不是每一件事都一定要我做；但有时候，有一些事的确是无法避免。。。那时，我们真的是要求神赐力量和智慧了：“你们中间若有缺少智慧的，应当求那厚赐与众人、也不斥责人的神，主就必赐给他。”（雅各书1:5)

我也在想，耶稣的这一句话是不是也有这个意思：

“耶稣说：“我有食物吃，是你们不知道的。。。我的食物就是遵行差我来者的旨意，做成他的工。””（约翰福音4:32, 34)

第十九天：10月21日(五)

今天又发现上帝真的是很恩待我，“又”，因为一路来都感觉他超恩待这不配的我。。。
今天我看到以前我无法想象的事情，或者说我以前不知几时才会看到今天看见的那种情况。
我心深感安慰和鼓励。

事情是这样的，不知不觉韩国朴传道的服事开始了，因为我都在忙其它事情，此次服事事务都交予同工处理；我突然惊觉，糟了！服事就要开始，我还没跟同工确定服事的各样安排！
以前从排名到场面摆设、服事人员各岗位、交待及教导服事的范围和责任等等，一律都要我亲自出马。。。
朴传道的服事性质特别，再加上文化不一样，我以前都不容有失，所以要监督每一部份！

当我突然觉悟我都还没监督一切和确定安排是否妥当时，我急忙往要使用的小礼堂观望，心里马上无比安慰；每份工作我的同工都已弄妥和分配的井井有条、清清楚楚！
我顿时想起早上读经时注意到的经文：

“西门彼得问耶稣说，主往哪里去？ 耶稣回答说，我所去的地方，你现在不能跟我去。后来却要跟我去。”
～约翰福音13:36～

虽然耶稣讲的是关于彼得当时生命和信心未能达到为主殉道，后来却能为主殉道，但我也领悟到，以前很多事情都要交待同工，他们才懂怎么做，或做的合乎要求。。。
然而今天，在我丝毫没有交待和监督之下，他们已把工作安排的十分妥当！真的是以前所做不到的，如今却能做得那么好！我心充满感恩。。。

我们每个人都充满潜能，只要我们继续在主里和依靠他，我们绝对能不断进步和出众！

Day 19 : Oct 21st (Fri)

Today I once again realized God is very gracious to me, “once again”, because all along I have been feeling He is very gracious such an undeserving me…
Today I saw something I could not imagine before, or should I say I did not know back then when I would be able to see what I saw today.
My heart was greatly comforted and encouraged.

The story goes, without realizing Pastor Park’s ministry began. Because I was busy with many other things, the detailed duties this time I handed to my staffs to handle. I suddenly realized with a shock, oh dear! The ministry is going to start in a while, I haven’t even acertain with my staffs all the arrangement of the workload this time!
Before, I had to take care of and supervise everything like arranging of names of people to be prayed for, duties of every helper, teaching and briefing them on their work boundaries and responsibilities etc…
As Pastor Park’s ministry is unique, coupled with the issue of cultural differences, I would not risk any error, so I must supervise every area!

When I suddenly realized I had not even double-check everything to make sure everything is in order, I quickly took a peep at the small hall we are to use for the ministry, immediately my heart was indescribably comforted, my staffs had already prepared and divided all the workload to my utter satisfaction!
I was immediately reminded of the verse I noticed while reading the Bible this morning:

“Simon Peter asked him, “Lord, where are you going?”
Jesus replied, “Where I am going, you cannot follow now, but you will follow later.””
~ John 13:36 ~

Even though Jesus was referring to Peter’s faith and spiritual life not up to the level of being martyred for Him at that time but later did actually die for Christ, I also recalled, in the past I had to brief my staffs on many things, and only then they knew what to do, or how to do things satisfactorily… However, today without any of my instruction and supervision, they have already prepared everything properly and nicely! Really, something they were unable to do before, but today they did it so superbly! My heart is full of gratitude…

All of us are really full of potential, as long as we remain in and rely on the Lord, we can really improve and excel!