第二十四天：10月26日(三)

昨晚的梦又有点奇特。。。一般上，晚上睡觉做梦，若半途醒来，再睡下去梦境就会不一样。昨晚我一入眠，如往常一样又开始做梦了；可是不知怎的，昨晚睡得不是很好，陆陆续续醒来至少五、六次！奇怪的是，每一次再倒回去睡，又开始进入同样或类似的梦境！虽然未必一模一样的情景或人物，但梦的主题都一样。
在梦里，我都是在不断的计划如何帮助及祝福到更多人。。。

这仿佛是上帝在鼓励我说：

“弟兄们，你们行善不可丧志。”
～ 帖后3:13 ～

因为昨天我又再想，若要真正帮助到很多人，真的是很多东西要做、想、预备、计划等等，而时间又很有限，人的体力也有限，难免也会有无力感。
况且，这一次的禁食祷告，上帝又不断给我感动、指示、带领、看见人的需要。。。所以昨天我在想，我能做得了多少？
晚上就一连续做了继续帮助人的梦！

其实，这情形已经是这一次禁食祷告中的第二次，上个礼拜我也感觉有点累时，我的外地朋友也莫名其妙做了一个鼓励我继续帮助人的梦！

是的，主啊，我愿意顺服，但求你也加添力量、智慧、和资源，也求袮带来愿意及真能够协助的人一起来搭配，谢谢！

Day 24 : Oct 26th (Wed)

Last night’s dreams were kind of special… Normally, when I dream at night, if awakened half way, the next dream would be different when I fall asleep again. Immediately after I had fallen asleep last night, as usual I started dreaming. Strangely I did not sleep well last night, I woke up at least five or six times in between! But the strange thing was, each time when I went back to sleep, I would re-enter into the same or similar dream! Though it might not be exactly the same scenario or people that appeared, the theme of the dreams was all the same.
In all the dreams, I was doing the same thing as in planning unceasingly to help and bless more people…

This is just as though God is encouraging and telling me:

Because yesterday I was thinking once again, if I were to seriously and truly help many people, then there would be many things to do, think, prepare, plan etc, and my time is so limited, physical strength is limited as well, so inevitably I felt kind of helpless.
Furthermore, during our fasting and praying this time, God continually prompts me, directs, leads and shows me the needs of people… That is why I was thinking yesterday, how much can I do?
And immediately I had dreams of continuing to help needy people last night!

In fact, this situation is the second during this fasting season, last week when I was also kind of feeling tired, my foreign friend also unexpectedly had a dream that encouraged me to continue helping others!

Yes, O Lord! I am willing to obey, but please increase my strength, wisdom, and resources, and also do bring along co-workers who are willing and able to help, thanks!

第二十三天：10月25日(二)

几天跟朴传道的搭配服事，看到多少人得释放、医治等等，真让我感到鼓励和欣慰。再一次，我看到上帝的真实。。。
最重要的还不是当时的神迹奇事，而是多数人过后生命的改变与成长。

我相信蒙福教会之所以灵里洁净、顺服、谦卑和同心，多多少少都跟朴传道的服事有一些关 联；因为自我做牧师第一年开始，朴传道就开始来我们教会服事。她真的在邪灵问题，和砍断咒诅和捆绑方面帮了我许多忙！然而，朴传道独特的服事方式，会让很多老掉牙的基督徒，或头脑充满圣经知识的人批判和排斥；但我看到其服事 的长远果子和人生命的更新与改变，所以我很确定那是神给她的特别恩赐，让灵里单纯与会分辨的人蒙福。我也很确定那些不能接受她独特服事方式的，也一定不能接受耶稣的很多服事方式。

我为蒙福教会的谦卑、受教、顺服和同心感恩，因为这样，我们不断看到神的作为，灵命和信心也持续成长。
我的原则和准则始终是耶稣在马太福音里说的：

“这 样 ， 凡 好 树 都 结 好 果 子 ， 惟 独 坏 树 结 坏 果 子 。好 树 不 能 结 坏 果 子 ， 坏 树 不 能 结 好 果 子 。。。所 以 凭 着 他 们 的 果 子 ， 就 可 以 认 出 他 们 来 。”
～ 马太福音7:17,18,20 ～

Day 23 : Oct 25th (Tue)

These few days of ministering with Pastor Park, I saw many set free, healed etc, and that really encouraged and comforted me. Once again I saw how real and powerful our God is…
The most important thing is not so much the miracles at that moment, but the change and improvement of many people’s lives after that.

I believe the fact that that Blessed Church people are clean in their spirit, obedient, humble and united, is more or less connected to Pastor Park’s ministry to some extent. Because since the first year I became a pastor, Pastor Park also started coming to our church to minister. She really helps me so much in dealing with demonic problems as well as breaking curses and bondages!
However Pastor Park’s uniqie way of ministering will certainly arouse criticisms and disapprovals from “old and ancient” Christians or people who are filled with Biblical knowledge in their heads. But I saw the long lasting fruit of her ministry and the renewal and transformation of people’s lives. So, I am very certain that is a special gifting God has given her to bless those who are pure in spirit and able to discern correctly. I am also very sure people who cannot accept her unique ministry will not be able to accept many of Jesus’ ministering styles too.

I give thanks for the humility, teachability, obedience and unity of Blessed Church, because through that, we are able to see God’s work continually, and therefore our spiritual lives and faith continue to grow. My principles and standard are always what Jesus said in Matthew:

“By their fruit you will recognize them. Do people pick grapes from thornbushes, or figs from thistles? ¹⁷ Likewise, every good tree bears good fruit, but a bad tree bears bad fruit. ¹⁸ A good tree cannot bear bad fruit, and a bad tree cannot bear good fruit… ²⁰ Thus, by their fruit you will recognize them.”
~ Matthew 7:17, 18, 20 ~

第二十二天：10月24日(一)
今天带了朴传道到我们新堂地点祷告，她跟孙传道惊叹于上帝赐给我们的土地如此美好及不可思议。
她回想说十六年前她本都没计划来我们教会，后来也不是很甘心来那么小又默默无闻，只有屈屈几十人的教会，但还是顺服圣灵感动来了。

朴、孙两传道对我的第一个印象是瘦骨如柴，弱不禁风，因为那时也恰逢我个人进行21天禁食。她们说看着我帮她们提行李的背影，我见犹怜，心里想这个瘦弱年轻人怎样牧养教会啊？

后来为我祷告时，朴传道说看到一个让她很讶异的异象，就是我们的教会将成长如一棵大树开满极大又漂亮的白色花朵，后又结满果子，树干、枝子向天空延伸，叶子茂盛，各样有需要的人都憩息在树荫下。。。
看到这异象，两个传道再看看我的模样，感觉很难相信所看到的异象。。。

十六年后，她们相信那异象已正在开始成就中；只要忠心在神面前，没有什么是不可能的。

我由衷感谢主的恩待与保守，我如此不配，他却信实看顾、赐福到如今！
所以鼓励大家，不要轻看自己或现况如何，专心仰赖、信靠、亲近主，他必使你成大器！

这让我回想起，我开始做传道时，上帝给我的经文：

“神却拣选了世上愚拙的，叫有智慧的羞愧；又拣选了世上软弱的，叫那强壮的羞愧。”
～ 哥林多前书1:27 ～

建堂工程进行中。。。
Church-building in progress…

Day 22 : Oct 24th (Mon)

Today we brought Pastor Park to our new church site to pray, both her and Pastor Sun were in awe of such wonderful and unimaginable piece of land God has given us.
She recalled sixteen years ago she did not even plan to come to our church, and later she reluctantly came to this small and unknown church with only a few, less than a hundred members, but she obeyed the Holy Spirit to come.

The first impression of both pastors toward me was skinny as a stick and seemed so weak to be easily blown away by the wind. That was due to the fact that I was on a full 21-day fast at that time. They said I looked so pitiful as they looked at me from behind, carrying their luggage, and they thought to themselves as to how this skinny young man could ever pastor a church?

But later while praying for me, Pastor Park said she saw a vision that amazed her, that is our church is going to grow like a big tree blossoming with very big and beautiful white flowers, and will later bear much fruit. The trunk and branches are big and strong stretching to the sky, with lush leaves and many people with all kinds of needs resting beneath the shade of the tree…
Seeing this vision, both pastors took a look at me again, they found it hard to believe the vision…

Sixteen years later, they believe that vision is now in the process of accomplishing; as long as we remain faithful before the Lord, nothing is impossible.

I am whole-heartedly grateful to the gracious protection of the Lord, I am so unworthy and yet He is so faithful in caring and blessing till this day!
So, I want to encourage you all not to look down on yourselves or how your situation is at the moment, trust and fix your eyes on the Lord faithfully, draw near to Him always, He will surely raise you to become a mighty vessel!

This reminds me of the verse God gave me when I started pastoring:

“But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong.”
~ 1 Corinthians 1:27 ~