Tag Archive - 林义忠散文,GT Lim’s essays and writings

虚惊一场! A false alarm!

有时候我们真的会比较负面,发生一件事情,都还不知道真相,就先往不好或最坏的方面去想。。。
后来发现事实都不是如此,真是白担心一场!更糟糕的是,有时候还误会人,乱生气一场,真的是很笨!

Sometimes we tend to be more negative, when something happens, even before knowing the truth, we start thinking the worse or something bad…Then we discover the fact that is otherwise, really worrying for nothing! What is worse, sometimes we even misunderstand others and get angry with them wrongly, it is really silly!

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但的确有时候事情本来是负面的,上帝却很奇妙的把它转为正面,让我们看到祂是独行奇事的神,我经历了这样的神迹蛮多次。。。
现在回想一些曾经发生过的,还真是千钧一发,不可思议!

But indeed sometimes it can be a truly negative thing but God amazingly turns it to become positive, to show us He is a miracle-working God. I personally have experienced this kind of miracles numerous times…
As I recall certain incidents that happened before, the apparent “narrow escape” a few times were really unimaginable!

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这一次又经历了一个意想不到的好事。。。
收到一个我不想收、不想碰、不想开的东西,我马上就开始思想该如何丢掉这东西,因为我想象其来源会让我很不舒服。。。但结果却是相反的!
原来是我喜欢的东西,来源叫我很安慰感动。。。

I experienced something good again this time something I did not expect…
I received something I did not want to receive, did not want to touch and did not want to open, my mind immediately started thinking as to how to get rid of it because I imagined the source would make me very uncomfortable… but it turned out otherwise!
It was actually something I like and the source was very comforting and touching…

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现在想起来也真好笑,我还差点把它送给别人,甚至丢掉!哈哈!
还好收到消息的匿名人士,急忙传简讯给我说东西是来自它!我真的是万万都没想到是他!
真是虚惊变惊喜!上帝真的很幽默,也很爱我,我那么胡乱想象,祂仍然赐福我,我真的是不配!

It is really funny as I think about it now, I almost gave the thing to others or even threw it away! Haha!
Just as well the “mysterious” person heard about that and quickly sent a text message to me to tell me the thing was from him! I really did not have the slightest thought that it could come from him!
This is really a false alarm that turns into a pleasant surprise! God is truly humourous, and He loves me so much too, knowing how I would simply imagine the worst and yet He still blesses me, I am really so undeserving!

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一則感動我心的簡訊 A text message that touched my heart

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收到谁的简讯会让你兴奋?
收到谁的简讯会让你紧张?
你又会期待谁的简讯?

Receiving whose text messages would make you feel excited?
Receiving whose text messages would make you feel nervous?
And whose text messaged do you hope to receive?

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读到什么样的简讯会让你感动?
读到什么样的简讯会让你难忘?
到底那天我收到谁的简讯,让我的心那么感动?

Reading what kind of text messages would make you feel touched?
Reading what kind of text messages would be unforgettable to you?
And whose text message did I receive that day that touched my heart so much?

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那天我收到这一则简讯。。。是我没有预料的,来自一个不是很常会传简讯给我的人,即使有,通常他也只传“官方”内容的简讯,可是这一次不一样。。。
这一次的内容让我惊讶,是出乎我所料的,但却深深温暖了我的心。。。
就是以下这则简讯:

That day I received this text message… something I did not expect, not someone who would usually send text messages to me, and if the person does, the content would be quite formal, but not this time…
This time the content surprised me, something I really did not expect, but it deeply warmed my heart…
It is this text message below:

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那是星期日早上,我在家预备去教会,简讯说:
“牧师早安!记得带那台湾饼干给那特殊小孩哦。。。”
这有什么那么感动的?原来背后有段故事。。。

That was Sunday morning as I was preparing to go to church, the message reminded me to bring to church some biscuits I brought back from Taiwan, to give to a special child.
But what was so touching about that? There is a story behind…

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有一个家庭,不久前因着家里有这位特殊儿而来到教会,孩子特别过动且有学习障碍和难以控制,父母亲已深感无助和沮丧,一直到来了教会在耶稣里找到盼望和安慰。

这孩子特别喜欢我也挺黏我,你看连看着荧幕上的我,他都可以那么专注。每一次散会后,他会坚持上来要我祷告后才愿意回家,我每次也会确定跟他祷告和给他一个拥抱。祷告后他一定会向我要一瓶矿泉水,才开开心心的回家,要不然他就会哭闹不肯走。我的助理也习惯了,所以都会预备好瓶子给他。

那个星期六晚上,刚好没有货了,男孩无法体会就要开始哭闹,不要回家了。我就抱着他,跟他说他若乖乖听话,我明早会带我台湾带回来的饼干给他吃;他竟然听懂了,就很开心说他明天要饼干,就肯回家了。

There is this family that came to church not long ago because of this special child, the child is hyperactive and has learning difficulty and hard to keep under control. The parents were very desperate and depressed because of his condition but they found hope and comfort in Jesus when they came to church.

The child somehow adores me and gets quite attached to me, see how fixated he is even when watching my on-screen image. Each time after a church meeting, he would insist to come up to be prayed for by me before he is willing to go home, and I would make sure I pray for him and give him a hug too each time. Then, he would always ask from me a bottle of mineral water after prayer before going home happily, otherwise he would kick up a fuss and refuse to go. My assistants are used to that and they are always ready with the bottle for him.

That particular Saturday night, we ran out of stock, and the boy could not comprehend that and was about to cry and refusing to go home. Then I hugged and told him if he behaved and listened to me, then I would the next morning bring him some biscuits I brought back from Taiwan, and he could understand me. He happily said he wanted the biscuit the next morning and was willing to go home then.

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收到助理提醒我带饼干的简讯会让我感动是因为,原来助理不但在教会很尽责,站在我背后也很专心听我跟小孩讲话,回了家也没忘记。这证明他把小孩的需要放在心上,要不然他不会怕我忘记带饼干来,而让孩子失望哭闹。。。
我真的很欣赏我助理这一点,我真的没想到他会一大早传简讯给我,提醒我带饼干给那特殊小孩(虽然我也没忘记)。
你不感动吗?换着是你,你会不会这样做?

所以,我决定原谅阿蚊上一届运动会在200米赛项跑赢我了,哈哈哈哈!!

Receiving that text message from my assistant was touching to me because, I realized he was not only very responsible while at church, he was also listening attentively when I talked to the little boy, and he did not forget when he went home. That showed he put the boy’s needs on his heart too, other wise he would not have been concerned that I might for get to bring the biscuit and thus disappointing and upsetting the child…
I was really impressed with that, I really did not expect him to text me early that morning ti remind me about bringing the biscuit for that special boy (though I did not forget too).
Are you not touched? Would you have done the same if it were you?

So I have decided to forgive Ah Boon for beating me in the 200m race in our last sports meet, hahahaha!!

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“想留在夢中”的第二個夢。。。 The 2nd dream of “Wished to stay on in the dream”…

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所以,你也有那一种感觉,那种做了一个梦,你很想留在梦里面,不要醒来的感觉?
那你的又是什么梦呢?
当然一定都是美梦,但有不同的题材。。。

So you do have that feeling too, that wishing not to wake up from the dream you are having, but then what dream is yours?
Of course they must be good dreams, but with different themes…

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上一篇告诉了你们我第一个不想醒来的梦,那第二个又是什么梦呢。。。?
你若期待很精彩和轰轰烈烈的,大概要失望了,因为它是忆起家庭的梦,特别是童年时候的家和爸爸妈妈的梦。。。
有时候我也很纳闷,都已经那么老的人了,怎么还一直做小时候跟爸爸妈妈在一起的梦?难道心里还有一个长不大的小孩。。。?

I told you in my last writing concerning the first dream that I did not want to wake up from, then what is the second one…?
If you are expecting something exciting and colourful, you might get disappointed, because it is about family memory, especially about my childhood home and mum and dad then…
Sometimes I wonder too, I am already that old, but why am I still dreaming about my childhood days with mum and dad? Or is there a child inside that has not grown up…?

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爸爸逝世后,这些年来都会梦见他还在,生活如常;去年妈妈去世了,就换着梦见妈妈还在。。。
上个礼拜还梦见载着行动不方便的妈妈去看医生,一切好真实,所以才会不希望留在梦中。。。

After father passed away, these few years I have been having dreams that he was still around, living life like normal; now that mother passed away last year, I began to dream that she was still around…
Last week I dreamt that I was bringing her to see the doctor in her wheelchair, it was so real, that was why I wished I would stay on in the dream…

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从梦中醒来当然会有一丝丝难过,但当我想到她在天堂没有病痛、没有软弱,能行动自如,却是快乐与主同在,我心就很安慰!
我非常感恩,爸爸妈妈都认识主耶稣,都是那么平安离开这个世界到天堂与主同住。。。

When I woke up from the dream, of course there would be a tiny tinge of sadness, but when I think of how she has no sickness and pain in heaven, that she can move around freely and is happily living in the presence of Jesus, my heart is greatly comforted!
I am very grateful that both mum and dad knew Jesus, and they left this world in such peace to be with the Lord in heaven…

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想留在夢中。。。 Wished to stay on in the dream…

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有没有那一种感觉,有时候做了一个梦,你很想留在梦里面,不要醒来;或者醒来了,倒回去睡很希望能够回到刚才的梦境里,但无奈却回不去了。。。

Ever had that feeling, that sometimes you had a dream, and you wished you could stay on in that dream and not wake up; or when you did wake up, you went back to sleep hoping that you would return to that dream again, but unfortunately you could not…

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我最近就有两个梦我希望能待久一点在里面,一个是梦见主耶稣行神迹,让一个荒芜的山坡成为一个丰盛的果园!在梦里我很开心,甚至高兴的哭了,一直跟主耶稣说谢谢。。。

Recently I had two dreams which I wished I could stay on longer in the dreams. One was I dreamt of the Lord Jesus performing a miracle by turning a barren hilltop into a fruitful orchard! I was very happy in the dream that I even shed tears of joy, and I kept saying thanks to Jesus…

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那果园很美,让我很开心喜乐,当然不想那么快醒来。。。
后来醒来时,我很想念那园子,但我知道那是主在鼓励我,要我信靠祂,祂是能够使无变为有的神!

It was such a beautiful orchard and it made me so happy and joyful, and of course I did not want to wake up so fast…
When I finally woke up, I missed the garden, but I knew it was the Lord encouraging me to trust in Him, for He is the God who can create something out of nothing!

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至于另外一个梦又是关于什么呢。。。?
时候晚了,改天再跟你们分享吧,呵呵呵!

As for the other dream, what was it about…?
Well, it is getting late, I will share with you some other time, heeheehee…?

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等候是必須的。。。 Waiting is necessary…

 

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在人生的道路上,偶尔停下脚步,整理思绪一下,稍微等候再继续旅程是很重要的。。。
因为有时候脚步太急促、步伐太匆忙,会不慎摔了一跤,又或者因太忙碌和急促做决定,而忽略了一些重要的细节。。。

Along the journey of life, it is very important to occasionally halt your steps, reorganize your thoughts and ponder and wait for a while before continuing on your journey…
Because sometimes we are too hasty in our steps or too rush in our walk that we can carelessly suffer a fall; or when we are too busy and make our decisions too quickly, we may overlook some crucial details…

 

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能坐下来休息一下,对自己体力也有帮助,让自己重新得力,毕竟休息就是为了走更远的路。。。
但也不要停顿太久而变懒散或忘记前方还有路。。。

To be able to sit and rest a while is good for the body too, allow your strength to be renewed, because after all resting is to prepare for a longer journey…
But do not stop for too long too for you might become slack or forget there is still some road to walk on ahead…

 

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休息等候不是漫无目标的,一定要仰望天上的父,看看祂有什么指示,有什么话说,让祂指引我们。。。
毕竟我们走的是天国的路,祂的话是我们脚前的灯和路上的光。

We are not to rest and wait aimlessly too, we must look up and set our eyes on our Heavenly Father, and see whether He has any instruction or has anything to say, let Him guide us…
After all we are walking on the road to heaven, His Word is a lamp unto our feet and a light unto our path.

 

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有時候心情會受影響。。。 Sometimes mood can get affected…

尽管已经很习惯的节目或活动,或有充足的预备,有时候因着某种原因还是会出一些状况,心情难免也会受一些影响。。。
Even if it is a very familiar programme or activity, or there is enough preparation, sometimes due to some reasons, certain situations might arise too, and unavoidably our mood can get somewhat affected…

 

 

 

有时候是赶时间,有时候是车程,有时候是身体状况。。。
当然还是一样要上台。。。
Sometimes it can be rushing for time, sometimes it is the journey, sometimes it is physical health…
Of course you still need to go on stage…

 

 

给唱歌的人,音响效果绝对会有一些影响。。。给讲说的人,台下的人的反应也会影响。。。
但再这么受影响还是要尽力的唱、尽力的讲。。。

For those who sing, the condition of the sound system wold definitely affect the mood… and for those who speak, the rapport of the audience…
But no matter how affected, we must still sing our best and speak with all our passion…

 

 

要做到完全坐怀不乱、心平气和、全然不受影响,的确是一门不容易的功课。
所以很多时候在台上的我,边唱边讲的时候,其实心里也一边祷告求主平静我的心,让我能够很专心。。。

To be totally unperturbed, completely calm, entirely not affected, is indeed a tough lesson to learn.
So many times while on stage singing and speaking simultaneously, I am at the same time praying in my heart for the Lord to calm my heart and to help me to concentrate…

 

 

在那笑容的背后,你们都看不出内心的挣扎和沮丧吧,特别是自己觉得无法完全平静或专注的时候,那时也会对自己灰心和失望。。。
但感恩的是,过后上帝都会亲自鼓励和安慰我,需要的时候,祂当然也会教导我一些该注意和改善的事情。我真有一个很好很好的上帝与父亲啊!

Behind that smile, you cannot really see the struggle and frustration inside, especially when I feel I could not completely calm my heart or fully concentrate, and I would be feeling discouraged and disappointed with myself…
But I am always grateful that God will always personally encourage and comfort me after that, and when necessary, of course to teach me when there are things I need to take note and improve. I really have a god good God and Father!

 

 

 

天上来的特务使者。。。 Special agent sent from heaven…

伤心、不如意时,我们有时候会想宁愿没有生在这世上,能死掉最好。。。
可是事实不能改变,我们已经生下来了,再怎么问为什么,再怎么抱怨也无济于事。。。当然更不能用死来解决,因为自杀绝对会带来更大的痛苦!

固然,这世界有伤痛及无法理喻或接受的事情,几乎每个都人可能经历过伤心事或很残酷的事实,甚至有些正在面对着。。。
所以,心里难免充满疑惑、困倦感,但这一切都无法改变过去和已发生过的事实。

When we are sad or troubled, sometimes we may think we would rather not to be born in this world, or it is better to just die…
But we cannot change the fact that we were already born here, so no matter how many why’s you ask or how you grumble is not going to change a thing… and of course we definitely cannot use death to solve the problem as committing suicide will definitely lead to a greater suffering!

Certainly this world has things that are painful and hard to accept, almost everyone has experienced some sort of hurting things or some very cruel realities, or may be some are currently facing such…
That is why our hearts unavoidably may be filled with doubts and weariness, but all these cannot change the past or what have been.

我们无法改变过去,却能够决定我们要拥有怎样的今天和未来。。。与其抱怨或离开神,倒不如清醒思想,也只有神真正能够帮助、改变及拯救我们。很多时候痛苦是存留在记忆中,是我们的思想把我们捆锁在痛苦里;所以我们需要在思想上努力的不断更新、改变与突破。

当我们不断吸收积极和正面的想法,负面和消沉的自然会减少。这会直接影响我们的心情和情绪。

We cannot change our past, but we can decide what kind of present and future we are going to have… Rather than complaining or leaving God, might as well think clearly to know that only God can truly help, change and rescue us. Many times the pain is in our memory, it is our thought that locks us in the suffering. So we need to diligently seek the renewal, transformation and breakthrough in our mind continually.

When we continually absorb positive and optimistic thoughts, negative and pessimistic ones will reduce naturally. This will directly affect our emotions and feelings.

其中一个我们可默想的正面思想,就是我那天鼓励表妹秀月的生日贺词,今天有感动也把它贴在这里与大家共勉之:

“你生在这个世上有很大的使命,你生在这个家庭有神的美意;不管我们如何来到这世上,不管我们喜欢不喜欢那原因、环境和遭遇,要牢记你是特别从天上被差派下来,为成就一项伟大任务;而那任务也只有你能完成,别人不能取代。。。”

灰心沮丧时,不妨思想耶稣的话吧,他也有心情难过的时候:

“我现在心里忧愁、我说甚么才好呢?父阿,救我脱离这时候;但我原是为这时候来的。父阿、愿你荣耀你的名。。。”
~ 约12:27-28 ~

所以,让我们不断朝着这方面思想,继续努力奔跑吧,要知道你是天上来的特务使者!

One of the positive thought we can meditate on is the birthday blessing I sent my cousin Dorcas the other day. I feel I should post it here today to share with you all too:

“You have a great mission to be born in this world. There is a beautiful plan of God for you to be born in this family. No matter how we came into this world, whether or not we like that reason, environment or circumstance, always remember you are specially sent from heaven to accomplish a great task; and you alone can complete that task, no one else can replace…”

When you are discouraged or depressed, take time to think on the words of Jesus, He also had moments when his heart was down:

“Now my heart is troubled, and what shall I say? `Father, save me from this hour’? No, it was for this very reason I came to this hour. Father, glorify your name…”
~ John12:27-28 ~
Therefore, let us continually fix our mind on this, keep on running fervently, know that you are a special agent sent from heaven…

我昨夜梦见的“你”是。。。 The “you” that I dreamt of last night…

 

写了一篇“昨夜又梦见了你”,导致好一些人很好奇这个“你”到底是谁。。。
好奇还没关系,只要不要自以为那个“你”是自己就好了,哈哈!
今天就来给你揭开这个谜。。。

Wrote the article “I dreamt of you again last night” and caused some to be very curious who that “you” is…
It is still alright to be curious as long as you do not start thinking that “you” is yourself, haha!
Today, I shall reveal the answer to you…

 

其实有一些人还挺厉害的,一猜就中!大概是看习惯了我写作的模式而开始抓得到我的思路吧。。。?
看来我需要寻找别的方式来吊人胃口了。。。

嗯。。。我所讲的“你”其实就是我童年长大的老家!

Actually some people are quite sharp, they guessed right immediately! Perhaps they are by now used to my style of writing, so can kind of capture my trend of thought…?
Looks like I have to seek for new methods to keep people in suspense now…

Hmm… the “you” I was referring to is really my childhood home which I grew up in!

 

虽然十三岁我就离开父母及老家,出来古晋求学,可是每当午夜梦回时,我梦见的依然是我这童年简陋的老木屋。。。
很多童年情景还会出现在梦里,爸爸还健在,妈妈还年轻。。。醒来时,总有一丝丝伤感。。。

Though I left my parents and my old home when I was thirteen to come out to study in Kuching, each time if I dreamt of my past, it would always be my childhood’s old wooden house…
Scenes of my childhood would reappear, dad still around, mum still young… and when I wake up, there is always this tinge of sadness…

 

我们家境比较贫穷,下雨天屋顶会漏水,家中没有厕所。。。
下面那一张就是我们的客厅,是华人新年装饰的最漂亮的时候;照片中的我是1998年从纽西兰回来过年的时候拍的。。。

We were quite poor, the roof would leak when it rained, and there was no toilet in the house…
The photo below shows our lounge in its best, decorated for Chinese New Year. That was me in 1998 coming home for Chinese New Year from New Zealand…

 

我纽西兰好友Jamie跟我一起回来过年,二哥背后的小门通往厨房和饭厅(看下图)。。。
我背后的墙就是我们一群孩子共用的房间,我很想念,很想念这个家。。。写着这文章时,眼角也有泪水。。。

My New Zealand good friend, Jamie came celebrate Chinese new Year with me, the door behind my 2nd brother leads to the kitchen and dining (see below)…
The wall behind me is the room that all of us, the kids shared. I really, really miss this house… even as I write this, there are tears in the corner of my eyes…

 

我大哥两个女儿,美清和美声。。。
看吧,我们连像样的窗都没有,我就是在这饭桌吃饭长大。。。有些人还以为我是富贵公子出身!
我非常遗憾没有拍到更多老家的照片。。。

My eldest brother’s daughters, Flora and Melody…
See, we did not even have proper windows, and that was the dining table where I had my meals and grew up with… and some people thought I came from a rich background!
I really regret not taking more pictures of my old house…

 

 

婴孩是大哥小儿子。
你隐约可看到厨房的屋顶,右边是爸妈的小房间,我们家就只两个房间。
看了照片,你大概就会体会我所写的这句:
“虽然表面上你并不美丽
却留给我许多美丽的回忆
没有你也不会有今天的自己”

The baby is my eldest brother’s youngest son.
You can vaguely see the kitchen roof here, to the right is my parents’ room, there were only two rooms in my house.
After seeing these pictures, you can perhaps appreciate my writing this:
“Though you do not possess outward beauty
You leave with me such beautiful memories
Without you I will not be who I am today”

 

 

多少梦里,我依然在这小路奔跑
多少夜里,这条小路引我回家。。。
后面被树叶遮盖的是我家的屋顶。

In so many dreams, I was still running on this small road
And in so many nights, this small road led me home…
You can see the roof of my house hidden among the trees.

 

我爱我的家,因为在这家里我找到爱。。。
它让我明白有爱可以不计较环境
它让我体会有爱就会有最美的回忆

I love my house because I found love there…
It taught me that with love the environment is not an issue
It made me realize where there is love, there will always be beautiful memories

昨夜我又梦见了你。。。 Last night I dreamt of you again…

 

昨夜我又梦见了你
这记忆始终挥之不去
醒来发现眼角一丝泪滴
黎明尚远却已无睡意

Last night I dreamt of you again
I cannot seem to shake off this memory
Awakened to find traces of tears in the corner of my eye
Dawn is still far but sleep eludes me

 

昨夜我又梦见了你
无法说出具体原因
已是那么遥远的过去
梦里为何却那么清晰

Last night I dreamt of you again
No concrete reasons I can explain
Those scenes from such distant past
Yet so clear and vivid in the dream

昨夜我又梦见了你
虽然表面上你并不美丽
却留给我许多美丽的回忆
没有你也不会有今天的自己

Last night I dreamt of you again
Though you do not possess outward beauty
You leave with me such beautiful memories
Without you I will not be who I am today

昨夜我又梦见了你
虽然你已消失无踪影
我也没办法再次见到你
却无法将你从记忆涂抹去

Last night I dreamt of you again
Though you have vanished without a trace
There is no way I can see you again
Still I cannot erase you from my memory

昨夜我又梦见了你
陪我度过多少风风雨雨
你让我明白有爱可以不计较环境
你让我体会有爱就会有最美的回忆

Last night I dreamt of you again
You accompanied me through tempest and rain
You have taught me with love the environment is not an issue
You have made me realize with love there will always be beautiful memories

 

 

**昨夜又梦见的“你”,到底是谁?你们说呢。。。?
我下一篇再揭开谜底吧,哈哈。。。
**Who is the “you” that I dreamt of again last night? Who do you think…?
I’ll reveal the answer to you in my next post, haha…

我的心是一片泥土。。。 My heart is a growing ground…

我的心是一片泥土
栽种什么,结什么果子
栽种爱心,结出和睦
栽种平安,结出幸福

My heart is a growing ground
What I sow, I will reap
If I sow love, I will reap harmony
If I sow peace, I will reap happiness

 

 

我的心是一片泥土
栽种什么,结什么果子
栽种纷争,结出冲突
栽种妒忌,结出苦毒

My heart is a growing ground
What I sow, I will reap
If I sow strife, I will sow conflicts
If I sow jealousy, I will reap bitterness

 

 

我的心是一片泥土
栽种什么,结什么果子
栽种什么,是我的自由
无人能约束,无人能指使

My heart is a growing ground
What I sow, I will reap
Whatever I want to sow is my liberty
No one can restrict and no one can command

 

 

我的心是一片泥土
栽种什么,结什么果子
我要留心我栽种什么
我要栽种真理,结出自由
求圣灵来浇灌
求主来居住

My heart is a growing ground
What I sow, I will reap
I want to take heart what I sow
I want to sow truth, so I will reap freedom
May the Holy Spirit come and water
May the Lord come and dwell