Tag Archive - 林义忠散文,GT Lim’s essays and writings

虚惊一场! A false alarm!


Sometimes we tend to be more negative, when something happens, even before knowing the truth, we start thinking the worse or something bad…Then we discover the fact that is otherwise, really worrying for nothing! What is worse, sometimes we even misunderstand others and get angry with them wrongly, it is really silly!



But indeed sometimes it can be a truly negative thing but God amazingly turns it to become positive, to show us He is a miracle-working God. I personally have experienced this kind of miracles numerous times…
As I recall certain incidents that happened before, the apparent “narrow escape” a few times were really unimaginable!



I experienced something good again this time something I did not expect…
I received something I did not want to receive, did not want to touch and did not want to open, my mind immediately started thinking as to how to get rid of it because I imagined the source would make me very uncomfortable… but it turned out otherwise!
It was actually something I like and the source was very comforting and touching…



It is really funny as I think about it now, I almost gave the thing to others or even threw it away! Haha!
Just as well the “mysterious” person heard about that and quickly sent a text message to me to tell me the thing was from him! I really did not have the slightest thought that it could come from him!
This is really a false alarm that turns into a pleasant surprise! God is truly humourous, and He loves me so much too, knowing how I would simply imagine the worst and yet He still blesses me, I am really so undeserving!



一則感動我心的簡訊 A text message that touched my heart



Receiving whose text messages would make you feel excited?
Receiving whose text messages would make you feel nervous?
And whose text messaged do you hope to receive?



Reading what kind of text messages would make you feel touched?
Reading what kind of text messages would be unforgettable to you?
And whose text message did I receive that day that touched my heart so much?



That day I received this text message… something I did not expect, not someone who would usually send text messages to me, and if the person does, the content would be quite formal, but not this time…
This time the content surprised me, something I really did not expect, but it deeply warmed my heart…
It is this text message below:



That was Sunday morning as I was preparing to go to church, the message reminded me to bring to church some biscuits I brought back from Taiwan, to give to a special child.
But what was so touching about that? There is a story behind…





There is this family that came to church not long ago because of this special child, the child is hyperactive and has learning difficulty and hard to keep under control. The parents were very desperate and depressed because of his condition but they found hope and comfort in Jesus when they came to church.

The child somehow adores me and gets quite attached to me, see how fixated he is even when watching my on-screen image. Each time after a church meeting, he would insist to come up to be prayed for by me before he is willing to go home, and I would make sure I pray for him and give him a hug too each time. Then, he would always ask from me a bottle of mineral water after prayer before going home happily, otherwise he would kick up a fuss and refuse to go. My assistants are used to that and they are always ready with the bottle for him.

That particular Saturday night, we ran out of stock, and the boy could not comprehend that and was about to cry and refusing to go home. Then I hugged and told him if he behaved and listened to me, then I would the next morning bring him some biscuits I brought back from Taiwan, and he could understand me. He happily said he wanted the biscuit the next morning and was willing to go home then.




Receiving that text message from my assistant was touching to me because, I realized he was not only very responsible while at church, he was also listening attentively when I talked to the little boy, and he did not forget when he went home. That showed he put the boy’s needs on his heart too, other wise he would not have been concerned that I might for get to bring the biscuit and thus disappointing and upsetting the child…
I was really impressed with that, I really did not expect him to text me early that morning ti remind me about bringing the biscuit for that special boy (though I did not forget too).
Are you not touched? Would you have done the same if it were you?

So I have decided to forgive Ah Boon for beating me in the 200m race in our last sports meet, hahahaha!!






“想留在夢中”的第二個夢。。。 The 2nd dream of “Wished to stay on in the dream”…



So you do have that feeling too, that wishing not to wake up from the dream you are having, but then what dream is yours?
Of course they must be good dreams, but with different themes…



I told you in my last writing concerning the first dream that I did not want to wake up from, then what is the second one…?
If you are expecting something exciting and colourful, you might get disappointed, because it is about family memory, especially about my childhood home and mum and dad then…
Sometimes I wonder too, I am already that old, but why am I still dreaming about my childhood days with mum and dad? Or is there a child inside that has not grown up…?



After father passed away, these few years I have been having dreams that he was still around, living life like normal; now that mother passed away last year, I began to dream that she was still around…
Last week I dreamt that I was bringing her to see the doctor in her wheelchair, it was so real, that was why I wished I would stay on in the dream…



When I woke up from the dream, of course there would be a tiny tinge of sadness, but when I think of how she has no sickness and pain in heaven, that she can move around freely and is happily living in the presence of Jesus, my heart is greatly comforted!
I am very grateful that both mum and dad knew Jesus, and they left this world in such peace to be with the Lord in heaven…


想留在夢中。。。 Wished to stay on in the dream…



Ever had that feeling, that sometimes you had a dream, and you wished you could stay on in that dream and not wake up; or when you did wake up, you went back to sleep hoping that you would return to that dream again, but unfortunately you could not…



Recently I had two dreams which I wished I could stay on longer in the dreams. One was I dreamt of the Lord Jesus performing a miracle by turning a barren hilltop into a fruitful orchard! I was very happy in the dream that I even shed tears of joy, and I kept saying thanks to Jesus…



It was such a beautiful orchard and it made me so happy and joyful, and of course I did not want to wake up so fast…
When I finally woke up, I missed the garden, but I knew it was the Lord encouraging me to trust in Him, for He is the God who can create something out of nothing!



As for the other dream, what was it about…?
Well, it is getting late, I will share with you some other time, heeheehee…?


等候是必須的。。。 Waiting is necessary…





Along the journey of life, it is very important to occasionally halt your steps, reorganize your thoughts and ponder and wait for a while before continuing on your journey…
Because sometimes we are too hasty in our steps or too rush in our walk that we can carelessly suffer a fall; or when we are too busy and make our decisions too quickly, we may overlook some crucial details…





To be able to sit and rest a while is good for the body too, allow your strength to be renewed, because after all resting is to prepare for a longer journey…
But do not stop for too long too for you might become slack or forget there is still some road to walk on ahead…





We are not to rest and wait aimlessly too, we must look up and set our eyes on our Heavenly Father, and see whether He has any instruction or has anything to say, let Him guide us…
After all we are walking on the road to heaven, His Word is a lamp unto our feet and a light unto our path.



有時候心情會受影響。。。 Sometimes mood can get affected…

Even if it is a very familiar programme or activity, or there is enough preparation, sometimes due to some reasons, certain situations might arise too, and unavoidably our mood can get somewhat affected…




Sometimes it can be rushing for time, sometimes it is the journey, sometimes it is physical health…
Of course you still need to go on stage…




For those who sing, the condition of the sound system wold definitely affect the mood… and for those who speak, the rapport of the audience…
But no matter how affected, we must still sing our best and speak with all our passion…




To be totally unperturbed, completely calm, entirely not affected, is indeed a tough lesson to learn.
So many times while on stage singing and speaking simultaneously, I am at the same time praying in my heart for the Lord to calm my heart and to help me to concentrate…




Behind that smile, you cannot really see the struggle and frustration inside, especially when I feel I could not completely calm my heart or fully concentrate, and I would be feeling discouraged and disappointed with myself…
But I am always grateful that God will always personally encourage and comfort me after that, and when necessary, of course to teach me when there are things I need to take note and improve. I really have a god good God and Father!




天上来的特务使者。。。 Special agent sent from heaven…



When we are sad or troubled, sometimes we may think we would rather not to be born in this world, or it is better to just die…
But we cannot change the fact that we were already born here, so no matter how many why’s you ask or how you grumble is not going to change a thing… and of course we definitely cannot use death to solve the problem as committing suicide will definitely lead to a greater suffering!

Certainly this world has things that are painful and hard to accept, almost everyone has experienced some sort of hurting things or some very cruel realities, or may be some are currently facing such…
That is why our hearts unavoidably may be filled with doubts and weariness, but all these cannot change the past or what have been.



We cannot change our past, but we can decide what kind of present and future we are going to have… Rather than complaining or leaving God, might as well think clearly to know that only God can truly help, change and rescue us. Many times the pain is in our memory, it is our thought that locks us in the suffering. So we need to diligently seek the renewal, transformation and breakthrough in our mind continually.

When we continually absorb positive and optimistic thoughts, negative and pessimistic ones will reduce naturally. This will directly affect our emotions and feelings.




~ 约12:27-28 ~


One of the positive thought we can meditate on is the birthday blessing I sent my cousin Dorcas the other day. I feel I should post it here today to share with you all too:

“You have a great mission to be born in this world. There is a beautiful plan of God for you to be born in this family. No matter how we came into this world, whether or not we like that reason, environment or circumstance, always remember you are specially sent from heaven to accomplish a great task; and you alone can complete that task, no one else can replace…”

When you are discouraged or depressed, take time to think on the words of Jesus, He also had moments when his heart was down:

“Now my heart is troubled, and what shall I say? `Father, save me from this hour’? No, it was for this very reason I came to this hour. Father, glorify your name…”
~ John12:27-28 ~
Therefore, let us continually fix our mind on this, keep on running fervently, know that you are a special agent sent from heaven…

我昨夜梦见的“你”是。。。 The “you” that I dreamt of last night…



Wrote the article “I dreamt of you again last night” and caused some to be very curious who that “you” is…
It is still alright to be curious as long as you do not start thinking that “you” is yourself, haha!
Today, I shall reveal the answer to you…




Actually some people are quite sharp, they guessed right immediately! Perhaps they are by now used to my style of writing, so can kind of capture my trend of thought…?
Looks like I have to seek for new methods to keep people in suspense now…

Hmm… the “you” I was referring to is really my childhood home which I grew up in!



Though I left my parents and my old home when I was thirteen to come out to study in Kuching, each time if I dreamt of my past, it would always be my childhood’s old wooden house…
Scenes of my childhood would reappear, dad still around, mum still young… and when I wake up, there is always this tinge of sadness…



We were quite poor, the roof would leak when it rained, and there was no toilet in the house…
The photo below shows our lounge in its best, decorated for Chinese New Year. That was me in 1998 coming home for Chinese New Year from New Zealand…



My New Zealand good friend, Jamie came celebrate Chinese new Year with me, the door behind my 2nd brother leads to the kitchen and dining (see below)…
The wall behind me is the room that all of us, the kids shared. I really, really miss this house… even as I write this, there are tears in the corner of my eyes…



My eldest brother’s daughters, Flora and Melody…
See, we did not even have proper windows, and that was the dining table where I had my meals and grew up with… and some people thought I came from a rich background!
I really regret not taking more pictures of my old house…




The baby is my eldest brother’s youngest son.
You can vaguely see the kitchen roof here, to the right is my parents’ room, there were only two rooms in my house.
After seeing these pictures, you can perhaps appreciate my writing this:
“Though you do not possess outward beauty
You leave with me such beautiful memories
Without you I will not be who I am today”




In so many dreams, I was still running on this small road
And in so many nights, this small road led me home…
You can see the roof of my house hidden among the trees.



I love my house because I found love there…
It taught me that with love the environment is not an issue
It made me realize where there is love, there will always be beautiful memories

昨夜我又梦见了你。。。 Last night I dreamt of you again…



Last night I dreamt of you again
I cannot seem to shake off this memory
Awakened to find traces of tears in the corner of my eye
Dawn is still far but sleep eludes me



Last night I dreamt of you again
No concrete reasons I can explain
Those scenes from such distant past
Yet so clear and vivid in the dream


Last night I dreamt of you again
Though you do not possess outward beauty
You leave with me such beautiful memories
Without you I will not be who I am today


Last night I dreamt of you again
Though you have vanished without a trace
There is no way I can see you again
Still I cannot erase you from my memory


Last night I dreamt of you again
You accompanied me through tempest and rain
You have taught me with love the environment is not an issue
You have made me realize with love there will always be beautiful memories



**Who is the “you” that I dreamt of again last night? Who do you think…?
I’ll reveal the answer to you in my next post, haha…

我的心是一片泥土。。。 My heart is a growing ground…


My heart is a growing ground
What I sow, I will reap
If I sow love, I will reap harmony
If I sow peace, I will reap happiness




My heart is a growing ground
What I sow, I will reap
If I sow strife, I will sow conflicts
If I sow jealousy, I will reap bitterness




My heart is a growing ground
What I sow, I will reap
Whatever I want to sow is my liberty
No one can restrict and no one can command




My heart is a growing ground
What I sow, I will reap
I want to take heart what I sow
I want to sow truth, so I will reap freedom
May the Holy Spirit come and water
May the Lord come and dwell