Tag Archive - 禁食祷告

Day 20 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary (真正的食物 / Real Food)

 

第二十天:10月22日(六)

与韩国朴传道一起服事,回到家已凌晨1:30,2:30am上床睡觉,6:00am不知何故就醒来了!本想继续睡,可是脑子里充满很多当做的事情。。。主日讲章还没写、禁食日记已拖延两天没上载、待会与朴传道的服事等等。。。
结果我放弃了,起来洗澡“开工”,向神求力量、智慧和启示,好叫我能在短时间内,成就几件事情,而且不马虎。

神听了我的祷告!马上有感动晓得要讲什么道,一口气就写完了;然后,也把禁食祷告的感动写完,刊登上去了;一切准备就绪,又到教会与朴传道配搭服事了!
奇妙的是,一点也不觉得累;而且一般上这样赶时间,我都会有一点偏头痛,可是这次头也不会痛!神真是美好!

当然我知道我不是救主,不是每一件事都一定要我做;但有时候,有一些事的确是无法避免。。。那时,我们真的是要求神赐力量和智慧了:“你们中间若有缺少智慧的,应当求那厚赐与众人、也不斥责人的神,主就必赐给他。”(雅各书1:5)

我也在想,耶稣的这一句话是不是也有这个意思:

“耶稣说:“我有食物吃,是你们不知道的。。。我的食物就是遵行差我来者的旨意,做成他的工。””(约翰福音4:32, 34)

Day 20 : Oct 22nd (Sat)
I reached home at about 1:30am after ministering with Pastor Park from Korea, went to bed at 2:30am, and for some unknown reason woke up at 6:00am! I tried to go back to sleep but my mind was full of the things that need to be done… I haven’t written my Sunday sermon, I have delayed posting the Fasting Diary by two days, some more ministering with Pastor Park later etc…
So I gave up, I got up to have my shower and “start working”, praying for strength, wisdom and revelation from God so I can within a short time accomplish a few things, and not haphazardly.
God heard my prayer! Immediately I knew what to preach, and finished writing the sermon within a few minutes; then I finished writing and posted the fasting diary; and got everything ready and went to church to minister with Pastor Park again!
The amazing thing is, I did not feel tired at all; and normally if I rushed like this, I would have migraine, but this time I did not have any headache at all! God is really wonderful!
Of course I know I am not the Saviour and I do not have to do everything myself; but sometimes there are really things that are unavoidable… When that happens, we really must ask for strength and wisdom form God: “If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him.” (James 1:5)
I am also thinking, do the following words of Jesus carry this meaning as well:
“But he said to them, “I have food to eat that you know nothing about… My food,” said Jesus, “is to do the will of him who sent me and to finish his work.”” (John 4:32, 34)

 


 

Day 19 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary

 

 


第十九天:10月21日(五)

今天又发现上帝真的是很恩待我,“又”,因为一路来都感觉他超恩待这不配的我。。。
今天我看到以前我无法想象的事情,或者说我以前不知几时才会看到今天看见的那种情况。
我心深感安慰和鼓励。

事情是这样的,不知不觉韩国朴传道的服事开始了,因为我都在忙其它事情,此次服事事务都交予同工处理;我突然惊觉,糟了!服事就要开始,我还没跟同工确定服事的各样安排!
以前从排名到场面摆设、服事人员各岗位、交待及教导服事的范围和责任等等,一律都要我亲自出马。。。
朴传道的服事性质特别,再加上文化不一样,我以前都不容有失,所以要监督每一部份!

当我突然觉悟我都还没监督一切和确定安排是否妥当时,我急忙往要使用的小礼堂观望,心里马上无比安慰;每份工作我的同工都已弄妥和分配的井井有条、清清楚楚!
我顿时想起早上读经时注意到的经文:

“西门彼得问耶稣说,主往哪里去? 耶稣回答说,我所去的地方,你现在不能跟我去。后来却要跟我去。”
~约翰福音13:36~

虽然耶稣讲的是关于彼得当时生命和信心未能达到为主殉道,后来却能为主殉道,但我也领悟到,以前很多事情都要交待同工,他们才懂怎么做,或做的合乎要求。。。
然而今天,在我丝毫没有交待和监督之下,他们已把工作安排的十分妥当!真的是以前所做不到的,如今却能做得那么好!我心充满感恩。。。

我们每个人都充满潜能,只要我们继续在主里和依靠他,我们绝对能不断进步和出众!

 

Day 19 : Oct 21st (Fri)

Today I once again realized God is very gracious to me, “once again”, because all along I have been feeling He is very gracious such an undeserving me…
Today I saw something I could not imagine before, or should I say I did not know back then when I would be able to see what I saw today.
My heart was greatly comforted and encouraged.

The story goes, without realizing Pastor Park’s ministry began. Because I was busy with many other things, the detailed duties this time I handed to my staffs to handle. I suddenly realized with a shock, oh dear! The ministry is going to start in a while, I haven’t even acertain with my staffs all the arrangement of the workload this time!
Before, I had to take care of and supervise everything like arranging of names of people to be prayed for, duties of every helper, teaching and briefing them on their work boundaries and responsibilities etc…
As Pastor Park’s ministry is unique, coupled with the issue of cultural differences, I would not risk any error, so I must supervise every area!

When I suddenly realized I had not even double-check everything to make sure everything is in order, I quickly took a peep at the small hall we are to use for the ministry, immediately my heart was indescribably comforted, my staffs had already prepared and divided all the workload to my utter satisfaction!
I was immediately reminded of the verse I noticed while reading the Bible this morning:

“Simon Peter asked him, “Lord, where are you going?”
Jesus replied, “Where I am going, you cannot follow now, but you will follow later.””
~ John 13:36 ~

Even though Jesus was referring to Peter’s faith and spiritual life not up to the level of being martyred for Him at that time but later did actually die for Christ, I also recalled, in the past I had to brief my staffs on many things, and only then they knew what to do, or how to do things satisfactorily… However, today without any of my instruction and supervision, they have already prepared everything properly and nicely! Really, something they were unable to do before, but today they did it so superbly! My heart is full of gratitude…

All of us are really full of potential, as long as we remain in and rely on the Lord, we can really improve and excel!


Day 18 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary

 

第十八天:10月20日(四)

今天,神再次提醒我何谓“新事”:

“看哪!我要做一件新事,如今要发现,你们岂不知道吗?我必在旷野开道路,在沙漠开江河。”
~以赛亚书43:19~

这些年来,我们常在祷告会或聚会时信心满满宣告神会赐福我们超过所求所想,然后情绪高昂喊“阿们!”,很开心满足的回家去。
可是,日复一日、年复一年,一切如常。。。
结果很多人困惑埋心中,有一些依然所谓的“单纯”或“盲目”相信,有一些就干脆信心软弱,不再相信。。。

可是,我每次有感动带领人这样子宣告和祷告时,我的确是很确定会发生,而且知道那感动是来自神,不是搞气氛或煽动情绪!所以,我也很期待看到那些应许成就在大家身上,尤其是那些很需要在生活和经济上突破的人。。。

有时候,我也会问神,你所讲的超过所求所想的事到底是什么啊?几时会来到?

所以,神今天就提醒我几年前听过一位牧师讲的道,他讲了一句话让我印象深刻,我也在教会分享过,即:
“一直反复做同样一件事情,却期待看到不同的效果,是疯狂的!”

很多人期待经济大突破,可是还是一贯做同样的工作、职位或者什么的,当然那不会有改变啊!那也不是什么“新事”!
当然我们也不能说,因此每个人应当换工作或事业,或换个生意做等等,因为只有少数的人能这样做,而且也不完全实际!
那该怎么办呢?

这就是神的启示:
我相信心态得神喜悦的,时候一到,神若不是带领他们到新的领域或机会,就是留在原位有其它不会骚扰到他们份内工作的,从外面来的祝福来到。
就以我自己为例,突然在某处可能我的专辑莫名其妙被注意,而开始触摸到更多人,出版数量增加;或教会收到自己教会以外意想不到的奉献等等。。。

所以,我们灵里一定要敏锐,要会洞察神的机会来到。。。

 

Day 18 : Oct 20th (Thur)

Today, God reminded me again what a “new thing” means:

“See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.”
~ Isaiah 43:19~

All these years, we often declared with much faith, in the prayer meetings or other meetings that God would bless us beyond what we asked for or imagined, then with highly charged emotion shouted “Amen!”, and went home with much gladness and satisfaction.
But then, day after day, year after year, everything remains the same…
As a result, many people keep their perplexity in their hearts, some continue to believe “innocently” or “blindly”, what is worse, some are stumbled and become weak in their faith and no longer believe…

But, each time when I felt led to lead people with such declaration and prayer, I was very certain it would happen, and knew that prompting was from God, I was not trying to stir up the atmosphere or people’s emotions! So, I was also very expectant to see those promises accomplished on everyone, especially those who desperately needed a breakthrough in their living or finances…

Sometimes I would ask God, what are the things that You referred to that are “beyond what we can asked for or imagined”? When will they arrive?

Therefore, today God reminded me on something I heard from a pastor a few years’ back, he said something that left a deep impression in my heart, I had shared this in church before as well, that is:
“It is insanity to keep repeating the same thing and expecting a different result!”

Many people expect a breakthrough in their finances but they are still doing exactly the same job, in the same position etc, then of course nothing will change!And that is also NOT a “new thing”!
But of course we cannot say everyone must therefore change to a new job or career, start a new business etc because only the minority are able to do that, and it is not entirely practical to do so too!
Then how?

This is God’s revelation:
I believe people with God-pleasing attitudes, when the time comes, either God will lead them into a new territory or opportunity, or they will remain at the same place and without affecting their responsibility and commitment to their job, extra blessings come to them from outside!
To use myself as an example, perhaps suddenly somewhere my albums are being noticed and begin to touch more lives, so publication increases; or our church receives donations and offerings suddenly from outside unexpected sources etc…

Therefore, we must be sensitive in our spirit to discern the coming of God’s opportunities…

Day 17 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary

 

第十七天1019(三)

在这段禁食时间,其实都有安排不同的同工或领袖带领每天的祷告会;可是从第一天开始,几乎每一次我都有感动自己带领。。。
感谢主,每一次带得很轻松、很享受,上帝也不断引领启示;神一定给我们知道当天要祷告的事项,和当天要我们学习的真理和属灵功课。事实是,每一天上帝所启示的不止我“禁食日记”里写的那么少或短,只是时间有限,所以我只将部份或重点记载在这里与大家分享。

今天中午神也说了很多话,但我要分享的是晚上的:

“愿我的祷告如香陈列在你面前;愿我举手祈求,如献晚祭。
耶和华啊,求你禁止我的口,把守我的嘴。
求你不叫我的心偏向邪恶,以致我和作孽的人同行恶事;也不叫我吃他们的美食。”
~ 诗篇141:2-4~
第一节的第一个字“愿”告诉我们事实未必是如此,它是一个心愿,既是说,我们的祷告搞不好在神面前不是香,而是臭气!
若内心不干净,存有妒忌、怨恨、苦毒、批判、论断等等恶劣态度,那发出去的肯定是臭气;若嘴巴不圣洁,又赞美神,又咒诅、论断、讲人是非或污秽话语等,那发出去的也将是臭气。。。若生命虚假、假属灵、只做给人看,要讨人喜欢等等,发出去的也是臭气。。。
因此神说,不要以为表面上很会赞美敬拜和祷告,禁食、服事等等都很摆上。。。献上的祷告未必是香气!若是臭气,神根本就不会靠近。。。

Day 17 : Oct 19th (Wed)

During this fasting period, I actually did schedule different leaders to lead the daily prayer meeting; but since the first day, I felt led to lead almost every time…
Thank God each time I could lead with much ease, I really enjoyed it, and God kept on leading and giving revelations. God would certainly reveal to us the prayer points that day and the spiritual truth and lessons He wanted us to learn that day. In fact, what God revealed each day is not that short or little as you have read in my “Fasting Diary”, but because time is limited, I can only record parts or the main points here to share with you.
This afternoon God said a lot of things too, but I want to share the revelation from the night prayer:
“May my prayer be set before you like incense; may the lifting up of my hands be like the evening sacrifice.
Set a guard over my mouth, O LORD; keep watch over the door of my lips.
Let not my heart be drawn to what is evil, to take part in wicked deeds with men who are evildoers; let me not eat of their delicacies.”
~ Psalm 141: 2-4 ~
The first word of the first verse “May” tells us that the fact may not be so, it is a wish or desire, meaning our prayer may not be like incense or sweet-smelling before God, but a foul smell instead!
If our heart is unclean, harbouring all sorts of bad attitudes like jealousy, hatred, bitterness, judgments on others etc, then it will give out foul smell; if our mouth is not holy, we praise God and curse others, judge, gossip and speak filthy words, then foul smell will come out too… If your life is fake with false spirituality, only acting to show people or to please people etc, then it will smell bad too…

Therefore, God said: Do not think that just because outwardly you seem very good at praising, worshipping and praying, very sacrificial in fasting and serving… the prayer you offer up may not be incense! And if it is a foul smell, God will not even come close…

 

Day 16 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary

 

 

第十六天1018(二)

这几天心里很兴奋,神让我看到禁食的原因和效果,而且进而施恩给我能够成就我意想不到的事情!
短短的几天,上帝给我属天智慧和感动去很实际,又长远的帮助到一些真正有需要的人,尤其是忠心在神面前服事但家里又困苦的人。

早上心里充满这份喜悦和感动,准备去上班,在门口穿鞋子时,突然听见一声:牧师,早安!
看上去,原来是我们住宅区的园丁,一位马来同胞,他专门负责清理垃圾啦、修理园子啦,这一类杂工;工作虽辛苦,他却是很友善,常常都会跟我打招呼。
今天他像往常在清理垃圾,刚好碰到我在门口。

他突然指向我停车处一个摆放了一个多月的坏了的汽车电池,他说:这个你还要吗?

我心里马上有点生气,生气把电池放在那边的一位青年人陈彬,迟迟不拿走或丢掉!我已经警告过他,说我不喜欢丑化我的家,所以不要放垃圾在我门口!

陈彬寄住在我家,一个多月前汽车电池坏了,换了新的就把这坏的放在门口。
两个星期前我已跟他说:我警告你,你如果再不处理掉这电池,下一次我不是提醒你,我是会用咆哮大喊的!(因为我觉得放一个烂电池在家门口实在很破坏美感。)

我当然也问他干嘛不要就马上丢掉,他说他要拿回家给他爸爸拿去卖掉什么的,我还说:卖掉?这东西能值多少钱?天啊!
他就赶忙道歉说他会马上处理掉。。。他的“马上”竟然是两个礼拜后电池还在!你说我气不气?

所以,当这马来园丁指向这烂电池的时候,我的无名火已经慢慢升起了。。。
我心里想一定是我被人投诉了,因为我们住宅区很注重美感、秩序、保安等等。
我心里想待会陈彬回家时他就有好看!

可是园丁接下来却说:若不要了,可以给我吗?
我:啊?这是我家那个小孩的,我得问他一下。。。但你要来做什么?
园丁:我可以把它重新充电,然后用来点亮家里某些灯泡。
我:你家里没电源吗?你住在什么地方?

他就告诉我他住在某个村庄,那边的电源供应不理想,时常没电。

我:可是这个是坏了的。
园丁:不久前隔壁家给我一个更烂的,都足以供应我三个月的电源。。。

我听了心里很难过,原来他家境那么贫穷,马上说:你拿去吧!
园丁:但你还没问那小孩,他生气怎么办?
我:我没骂他已经很客气了,他还敢生气?

但我心生发怜悯问说:你要不要一台新的?
他很讶异回答:哇,如果是新的就能照亮整个屋子了!但不用了,这一个已经够好了!
我:真的吗?我不介意帮你。
园丁:真的,真的!不用了。。。谢谢你,牧师!
我:那好吧,下一次你家里或生活有什么需要就告诉我吧,我尽量帮助你。

园丁很感恩和开心的拿着坏了的电池走了。。。
我看着他的背影,心里想:神啊,怎么这几天一直有意和无意中帮到一些很有需要的人?怎么接二连三都有这个机会和智慧?
神说:你去看看以赛亚58章吧。
我顿时明白了。。。以赛亚58章讲的就是什么是真正的禁食和其效果!

“我所拣选的禁食不是要松开凶恶的绳,解下轭上的索,使被欺压的得自由,折断一切的轭吗﹖
不是要把你的饼分给饥饿的人,将飘流的穷人接到你家中,见赤身的给他衣服遮体,顾恤自己的骨肉而不掩藏吗﹖
这样,你的光就必发现如早晨的光,你所得的医治要速速发明。你的公义必在你前面行;耶和华的荣光必作你的后盾。
那时你求告,耶和华必应允;你呼求,他必说:我在这里。你若从你中间除掉重轭和指摘人的指头,并发恶言的事,
你心若向饥饿的人发怜悯,使困苦的人得满足,你的光就必在黑暗中发现;你的幽暗必变如正午。
耶和华也必时常引导你,在干旱之地使你心满意足,骨头强壮。你必像浇灌的园子,又像水流不绝的泉源。”
~ 以赛亚书58:6-11 ~

 

 

Day 16 : Oct 18th (Tue)

Been feeling very excited past few days for God has been showing me the reasons for fasting and the results. At the same time, He grants me grace to accomplish things I did not expect!
Within just a few days, God gave me wisdom from above and prompting to help some truly needy people in a very practical and lasting way, especially those who serve God faithfully and are financially challenged at home.

My heart was filled with this joy and conviction this morning as I was preparing to go to work. While putting on my shoes, I heard “Good morning, Pastor!”
I looked up, it was our gardender, a Malay man. He is in charge of clearing the rubbish, repairing and maintaining the garden etc. His work is rather tough but he is a friendly man, always greets me when he sees me.
Today, as usual he was clearing the rubbish and saw me outside the door.

Suddenly he pointed at an old car battery left outside my door for more than a month already, and asked: Do you still want this?

Immediately my heart was a little angry, I felt angry at Jonas, the young man who left it there and kept delaying to take or throw it away! I had warned him, I said I do not like to uglify my house, so do not leave rubbish outside my door! Jonas is lodging at my place, a month ago his car battery broke down, he changed it and left the old one there outside my door.
Two weeks ago I told him: I’m warning you, if you don’t get rid of this battery, the next time I will not be reminding you, I’ll be screaming and shouting at you! (Because I feel a spoilt battery placed outside my door is really unsightly.)

And of course I asked him as to hy he did not throw it away immediately. He said he wanted to bring it home to give to his dad to sell or something. I even said: To sell? How much can that thing fetch? My goodness!
He apologized very quickly an said he would get rid of it immediately… and his “immediately” turned out to be – after two weeks the battery was still there! Now you know why I was angry!

So when this Malay gardener pointed at this old battery, unknown fire started rising inside…
I thought someone must have complained as my residential area is very concerned about beauty, proper order, security etc.
And I thought in my heart: You are in big trouble, Jonas Tan!

But the gardener continued: If you do not want it anymore, can I have it?
Me: Huh? But this belongs to that boy in my house, I have to ask him… but what do you want it for?
Gardener: I can recharge it and it can light up some bulbs in my house.
Me: Don’t you have electricity supply at home? Where do you live?

Then he told me he lives in a village and the electricity supply is not good and very often fails.
I said: but this is a spoilt battery.
Gardener: The other house gave me an even worse one not long ago and it supplied some three months of power supply to me…

I felt rather sad to think that he is actually so poor, so I said immediately: Just take this!
Gardener: But you haven’t asked the boy, will he be angry?
Me: He wouldn’t dare to, I should be the one scolding him!

My heart was filled with compassion, I said: Do you want a new one?
He was very surprised and replied: Wow! A new one can lit up the whole house! But no thanks, this is sufficient!
Me: You sure? I don’t mind helping you.
Gardener: It’s true, yes, this is good enough… thank you, Pastor!
Me: Oh ok, but in future if you or your family need anything or encounter any difficulty in living, do tell me, I’ll try my best to help.

The gardener was full of gratitude and left happily with that spoilt battery…
Watching him walking away, I thought in my heart: God, how come these few days I seem to be consciously or unconsciously helping quite a few needy people? How come the opportunities and wisdom keep coming to me?
God said: Go read Isaiah 58.
Immediately I understood… Isaiah 58 talks about what a true fast is and the results of such a fast…

“Is not this the kind of fasting I have chosen:
to loose the chains of injustice
and untie the cords of the yoke,
to set the oppressed free
and break every yoke?
7 Is it not to share your food with the hungry
and to provide the poor wanderer with shelter—
when you see the naked, to clothe them,
and not to turn away from your own flesh and blood?
8 Then your light will break forth like the dawn,
and your healing will quickly appear;
then your righteousness[a] will go before you,
and the glory of the LORD will be your rear guard.
9 Then you will call, and the LORD will answer;
you will cry for help, and he will say: Here am I.

“If you do away with the yoke of oppression,
with the pointing finger and malicious talk,
10 and if you spend yourselves in behalf of the hungry
and satisfy the needs of the oppressed,
then your light will rise in the darkness,
and your night will become like the noonday.
11 The LORD will guide you always;
he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land
and will strengthen your frame.
You will be like a well-watered garden,
like a spring whose waters never fail.”
~ Isaiah 58: 6-11 ~

Day 15 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary

 

第十五天1017(一)

早上读到一位朋友所写的FB状态,跟我之前所写的很类似:
“那么多要做,那么多要学,却那么少时间。。。唉。。。”

真的,我也有太多东西想要做,很多很多书想要读,很多地方想要去等等。。。
特别是身为一位牧师,看到别的讲员讲道讲到天花乱坠、口沫横飞;那么有知识、有学问、有经验。。。有时候也会感觉很自卑、很压力、很无奈、很无力;有时候也会问上帝说怎么办啊?为什么时间那么少?

感谢神,他的恩典够我们用!其实,神的心意很简单,他最想的就是我们单单纯纯信靠他,心中渴望更亲近与爱他就对了。

你可以做了轰动全世界的事情,你可以读完几个学位,你可以参加千个特会,读完万卷属灵书卷,看完圣经数百遍,对原文了如指掌等等等等。。。但那不表示你真正认识神、爱神,或与他很亲近。。。

所以,总结来说,那么多事情要做,又那么少时间的时候,神要我们懂的就是优先顺序;在这短暂的人生里,我们第一件要看重的就是:认识神、亲近神。

“。。。著书多,没有穷尽;读书多,身体疲倦。这些事都已听见了,总意就是敬畏神,谨守他的诫命,这是人所当尽的本分(注:或作“这是众人的本分”)。因为人所做的事,连一切隐藏的事,无论是善是恶,神都必审问。”
~ 传道书12:12-14 ~

Day 15 : Oct 17th (Mon)

Read a friend’s FB status this morning, it was something very similar to what I wrote once:
“So much to do, so much to learn and yet so little time…….sigh…..”

It is true, I really do have so many things I want to do, so many books I want to read, so many places I want to go too etc…
Especially as a pastor, when I see other preachers speak with such eloquence and fluency, so knowledgeable, well-versed, experienced… sometimes I can feel very inferior, pressured, frustrated, helpless; and sometimes I will ask God what am I going to do? Why is my time so limited?

Thank God, His grace is sufficient for me! In fact, God’ desire is very simple, what He wants the most is for us to trust in Him with a child-like faith, and to long to be closer and to love Him more.

You can do something that stirs the whole world, you can complete so many degrees, you can attend thousands of seminars, read uncountable number of books, read the Bible hundreds of times, and understand the original text inside out etc etc… but that does not mean you truly know God, love Him or are very intimate with Him…

Therefore, in conclusion, with so many things to do and so little time, God wants us to set our priorities right; in this short life of ours, the utmost important is: to know God and to draw close to Him.

“… Of making many books there is no end, and much study wearies the body. Now all has been heard; here is the conclusion of the matter: Fear God and keep his commandments, for this is the whole duty of man. For God will bring every deed into judgment, including every hidden thing, whether it is good or evil.”
~ Ecclesiastes 12:12-14 ~

Day 14 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary

 

第十四天1016(日)

上帝真的是很爱我们,我们心里担忧或困惑什么,没说出来他都晓得。只要你灵里与神保持亲近,祈求有敏锐聆听他话语的属灵耳朵,他何时何处都可以突然跟你说话。

今早在浴室刷牙洗脸的时候,脑子想着最近一些要帮助的人,有一些需要解决的棘手问题。。。只是想想一下,不是很认真的在寻求答案,因也在准备去教会。突然间,有个两全其美的主意出现在脑海,让我心中马上充满安慰和喜乐,知道我有答案了!
这经历让我想起诗篇139:2所说:“我坐下,我起来,你都晓得,你从远处知道我的意念”。。。

这也让我越发确定,雅各书1:5里的话是可敬可信的:“你们中间若有缺少智慧的,应当求那厚赐与众人、也不斥责人的 神,主就必赐给他。”

所以让我们都向神求智慧,也求敏锐及聆听的耳吧!

Day 14 : Oct 16th (Sun)

God really loves us a lot, whatever we are concerned or bothered with in our hearts, He knows it even without us saying it out. As long as you remain close in your spirit with God, ask for spiritual ears that are sensitive to listen His voice or words, and He might just speak to you wherever or whenever suddenly.

This morning as I was washing in the bathroom, I was thinking in my mind about some people I want to help recently, with some sticky problems to solve… it was just a passing thought, not as though I was seriously seeking some answers as I was getting ready for church anyway. Then suddenly a win-win solution appeared in my mind, and caused my heart to be filled with comfort and joy immediately, I knew I had the answer!
This answer reminded me of Psalm 139:2, “You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar.”…

This also reaffirms in me what James 1:5 says is indeed worthy of reverence and trust: “If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him.”

So let us all ask wisdom from God, and also listening ears that are sensitive!

 

Day 13 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary

 

 

第十三天1015(六)

今早一醒来就有这念头,所以就把它上载在Facebook:

“上帝若要賜福你,他自然會也能,無視你的背景、條件、狀況、機會等等,他總會有辦法,在他沒有難成的事!你只要做討他喜悅的人。。。”

然后这首经文诗歌就出现:

耶和华如此说:“你们不要记念从前的事,也不要思想古时的事。看哪!我要做一件新事,如今要发现,你们岂不知道吗?我必在旷野开道路,在沙漠开江河。
~ 以赛亚书43:18-19 ~

依我的观察, 上帝若真的要赐福,他才不管你现在所处的环境、待遇、条件等等,按人眼光是否能让你步步高升、薪金优厚;他是全能和超智慧的,他自然有办法让你蒙福超过所求所想!就因为是超过人所能想像,所以那才叫神迹,人也不能夺取那荣耀,阿们!

 

 

Day 13 : Oct 15th (Sat)

As I got up this morning, this thought came to me, so I posted it on Facebook:

“If God wants to bless you, He Will and He Can regardless of your background, qualifications, circumstance, chances etc. He can always find a way, nothing is too difficult for Him! All you need to do is be a person pleasing to Him…”

Immediately these verses floated into my mind:

Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.
~ Isaiah 43:18-19 ~

From my observation, if God really wants to bless, He will not be bothered by the environment, situation, condition etc you are in, or whether from human perspective you have any good prospect to rise and attain attractive remuneration. He is all powerful with super wisdom, He naturally has the method to bless you beyond what you ask for and think! And because it is beyond what humans can imagine, that is why it is called miracle, and no one can snatch His glory too, Amen!

 

 

Day 12 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary

 

第十二天1014(五)

有几个晚上好像没做什么特别的梦,昨晚依然有祷告说:神啊,你若要透过梦境跟我说话,就如此行吧。。。

早上醒来,感觉神没说话,没有什么有印象或感觉特别的梦境。灵修读经时问上帝今天中午带领祷告的方向,突然昨晚一个梦境浮现,随着而来的是一段经文。。。原来神有说话!

我梦见我意想不到的两个年轻人也跟我们一起禁食,特别有一位都已离神很远,甚至没看到他在教会里。在梦里,他很瘦,说他也与我们一起禁食,我很惊讶!感觉上他和以前一样火热,我感到很高兴。。。可是如今看到的事实不是如此。

当这梦境倒回来时,马上这经文就出现在我脑海里:

“弟兄们,若有人偶然被过犯所胜,你们属灵的人,就当用温柔的心把他挽回过来;又当自己小心,恐怕也被引诱。你们各人的重担要互相担当,如此,就完全了基督的律法。”
~ 加拉太书6:1-2 ~

太多时候,我们对软弱退后、冷淡跌倒的人,都报以批判和论断的眼光。今天,上帝提醒我们,他还爱他们,我们当为他们祷告,以温柔的爱心尽量把他们挽回过来。

另,第二节的“你们各人的重担要互相担当,如此,就完全了基督的律法。”。。。原来要完全基督的律法是那么简单的一件事。。。

 

 

Day 12 : Oct 14th (Fri)

For a few nights I did not have seemingly very special dreams, last night as usual I prayed: O God, if You want to speak to me through dreams, then please do…

When I woke up in the morning, I felt God did not speak, there was no impression of or any dream I feel special. While reading the Bible during my devotional time, I asked God for the direction in today’s noon-time prayer. Suddenly one scene of my dream last night appeared in my mind, followed by some verses… Yes! God did speak!

I dreamt of two unexpected young people fasting together with us, especially one who is very far from God now, and I do not even see him in church sometimes. In the dream, he looked very thin, he said he is also fasting together with us. I was very surprised! It felt like he was on fire like before, I was very happy… but what I see in reality at the moment is not so.

When this dream reappeared in my mind, immediately the following verses came to my mind too:

“Brothers, if someone is caught in a sin, you who are spiritual should restore him gently. But watch yourself, or you also may be tempted.  Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ.”
~ Galatians 6:1-2 ~

Too many times, we tend to be critical and judgmental toward those who have back-slidden, fallen or turned cold. Today, God reminded us, He still loves them, and we should pray for them and try our best to restore them with a gentle loving heart.

Also, verse 2 says “Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ.”… Suddenly realized it is such a simple thing to fulfill the law of Christ…

Day 11 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary

 

第十一天1013(四)

今天领祷告时的感动。。。求主扩大我们的心胸,就在最软弱时还能给人鼓励,就在最缺乏时也还能祝福别人,而且纯粹因为爱和关怀,没有想到回报或上帝会有什么奖赏。。。

我们也宣告教会异象其中一点:“叫万国因我们得福”。

我必叫你成为大国;我必赐福给你,叫你的名为大,你也要叫别人得福。为你祝福的,我必赐福与他;那咒诅你的,我必咒诅他;地上的万族都要因你得福。
~创世记12:2-3~

这是上帝给亚伯拉罕的应许,圣经也说我们是亚伯拉罕的后裔;因此,这应许也临到我们身上。
我相信“大国”也可以指我们所做的会越发蒙福扩大,好让我们能成为越多人的祝福。
但何谓亚伯拉罕的后裔?即,无论怎么样都对神有信心的人。然而,我相信亚伯拉罕能成为大国,能那么蒙福并不止因为他有大信心,他也有很大,很会祝福人的心胸!

上帝赐福亚伯拉罕,也要亚伯拉罕赐福别人。身为亚伯拉罕的后裔,这一点我们一定也要活出来,才是真正活在神的旨意里。

有施散的,却更增添;有吝惜过度的,反致穷乏。好施舍的,必得丰裕;滋润人的,必得滋润。
~箴言11:24-25~

Day 11 : Oct 13th (Thur)

The prompting in my heart today as I led the prayer meeting… May God stretch our hearts that we may still encourage others even in our weakest moment, and bless others when we are the most lacking; and to do all these purely out of love and concern, not thinking about any return or how God is going to reward us…

We also proclaimed one of the points in our Blessed Vision: “That all nations will be blessed through us”.

I will make you into a great nation and I will bless you; I will make your name great, and you will be a blessing. I will bless those who bless you, and whoever curses you I will curse; and all peoples on earth will be blessed through you.
~Genesis 12:2-3~

This is the promise God gave Abraham, and the Bible tells us that we are Abraham’s descendants. Therefore this promise comes on us too. I believe “a great nation” can also mean whatever we do will be extended and blessed in order that we can become a blessing to even more people.
But what is Abraham’s descendant? It is someone with faith to believe in God no matter what. But I believe for Abraham to become such a great nation and so blessed, he not only had great faith, he had a very big heart that blessed others too!

God blessed Abraham, and He wanted Abraham to bless others as well. As Abraham’s descendants, we must live this out in order to be truly living in God’s will.

One man gives freely, yet gains even more; another withholds unduly, but comes to poverty. A generous man will prosper; he who refreshes others will himself be refreshed.
~Proverbs 11:24-25~