有時候聽到一些悲傷的事，我們會很震驚。。。
有時候聽到一些喜事，我們也會震驚。。。
原因是，兩者都沒預料到。

Sometimes upon hearing some sad news, we feel kind of shocked…
Sometimes upon hearing some good news, we can also feel kind of shocked…
Reason being, both are things you do not expect.

能平靜下來，和勝過“震驚”感，我想我們待人處事的態度很重要，從上帝的角度看事情和對上帝的信靠更是重要！
今天收到一個讓我很“震驚”的消息，其實是屬於“好消息”類，然而讓我真的有點始料未及。跟一些比較親密的同伴分享過後，大家都好像很擔心我會怎樣，他們的關心讓我感動，也讓我有點不好意思要他們操心。

To be able to calm down and overcome the “shock”, I think our attitude towards people and things is very important. Looking at things from God’s angle and our trust in God are even more important!
Today I received some news that really “shocked” me, actually it can be classified as a “good news”, but did really take me by great surprise. I shared with some closer companions, they all seem rather worried as to how I would feel, their concern touched me and also made me feel bad to cause them to worry.

但我這邊想跟大家說，我很好，放心。。。
我的上帝始終都會對我很好。。。
But here I would like to say to you all, all is well, don’t worry…
My God will always be very good to me…

後來我。。。我安靜下來。。。
後來我。。。抬起頭來，把腳步邁開，相信前方有美好日子在等待。。。

Finally I… I calmed down and…
Finally I… I looked to the sky, I moved on and I believe there are better days ahead for my life…

其实我并不完美主义，很多人对我误解了。。。
我也有很乱、很不整齐的时候。。。
有些事我好讨厌但我又不去处理，因为我不是完美主义。。。

譬如说，出门回来，我通常会感觉很累，我会把行李丢在地上，迟迟不去整理。。。
有时候，因为出门次数频繁，就干脆留到下一次出门再整理。。。
但看着没清理的行李日而继夜的在地上，我真的很讨厌；然而我却又不采取行动，因为我不是完美主义。。。

Actually I am not a perfectionist, many have misunderstood me…
I also have moments when things are very messy and untidy…
There are things that I hate and yet I do not do anything about them because I am not a perfectionist…

For example, after coming back from a trip, I would normally feel very tired, I would leave my luggage on the floor and delayed a long time to unpack…
Sometimes because I travel quite a lot, I would just leave it till my next trip…
But I do really hate seeing the luggage on the floor day after day, and yet I would not do anything about it because I am not a perfectionist…

另外，我也很讨厌看到桌子堆满文具、文件啦。。。
怎么文件、信函好像永无止境般处理不完？刚收拾好一些，又一大堆出现！
什么该丢、什么该留，有时候真的很烦，很累人！
结果桌子越来越满，越来越凌乱，我却没整理，因为我不是完美主义。。。

Then, I also hate seeing my desk covered with stationery, documents etc…
How come documents and letters seem never ending? Just when you have cleared some, a new lot appears again!
What should be thrown away, what should be kept, that can really frustrate and exhaust you too!
As a result, your desk gets filled up more and becomes messier by the minute, and yet I do not do anything about it because I am not a perfectionist…

然后，我又有超多的CD，当然很多是自己买的，也有好多是人送的。。。
有时候自己会“错买”，买到不是很好听或很喜欢的；别人送的更是有这问题，因为有些人根本都不知道我的音乐品味，所以送了我从来不听的CD，我收也不是，丢也不是，给人也不是。。。结果就越堆积越多。。。
看起来好乱、好累人，可是我又不整理，因为我不是完美主义。。。

Then, I really have many CDs, of course many I bought myself and a lot were given by others too…
Sometimes I could “wrongly” buy CDs that are not so nice or ones that I do not really like; those given by others are even more so because some people do not know my musical taste at all, so they gave me CDs that I would never listen to, and I do not know whether to keep, to throw or to give away… in the end I collected more and more…
They look really messy and frustrating and yet I do not tidy them up, because I am not a perfectionist…

很多时候看累了，就选择逃避，把橱子的门关起来。。。
或者把文件丢进抽屉里面。。。
或者把行李推进衣橱里面。。。
避而不见，这样比较快乐。。。还能忍受，因为我不是完美主义。。。

Many times when I get tired of seeing them, I would choose to escape, I would shut the cupboard door…
Or throw all the documents into my drawer…
Or push my luggage into my wardrobe…
I avoid seeing them, life is happier that way… I can still stand because I am not a perfectionist…

话虽如此，有时候我却睡不着觉了。。。
有时候也会感到挫折沮丧。。。
想着还没解决的事情，橱子表面美观，里头却很凌乱！
问题存在就是要处理，逃避归逃避，最后还是要整理。。。
而且，我想，我还是有一点完美主义吧。。。

Having said all that, sometimes I cannot sleep…
Sometimes I can feel defeated and depressed…
Thinking about my unsettled issues, the cabinet looks nice on the outside, but what a mess inside!
Whenever a problem exists, it has to be dealt with, you can ignore and escape, ultimately you still have to tidy it…
And also I think, perhaps I might just be a little perfectionist…

伤心、不如意时，我们有时候会想宁愿没有生在这世上，能死掉最好。。。
可是事实不能改变，我们已经生下来了，再怎么问为什么，再怎么抱怨也无济于事。。。当然更不能用死来解决，因为自杀绝对会带来更大的痛苦！

固然，这世界有伤痛及无法理喻或接受的事情，几乎每个都人可能经历过伤心事或很残酷的事实，甚至有些正在面对着。。。
所以，心里难免充满疑惑、困倦感，但这一切都无法改变过去和已发生过的事实。

When we are sad or troubled, sometimes we may think we would rather not to be born in this world, or it is better to just die…
But we cannot change the fact that we were already born here, so no matter how many why’s you ask or how you grumble is not going to change a thing… and of course we definitely cannot use death to solve the problem as committing suicide will definitely lead to a greater suffering!

Certainly this world has things that are painful and hard to accept, almost everyone has experienced some sort of hurting things or some very cruel realities, or may be some are currently facing such…
That is why our hearts unavoidably may be filled with doubts and weariness, but all these cannot change the past or what have been.

我们无法改变过去，却能够决定我们要拥有怎样的今天和未来。。。与其抱怨或离开神，倒不如清醒思想，也只有神真正能够帮助、改变及拯救我们。很多时候痛苦是存留在记忆中，是我们的思想把我们捆锁在痛苦里；所以我们需要在思想上努力的不断更新、改变与突破。

当我们不断吸收积极和正面的想法，负面和消沉的自然会减少。这会直接影响我们的心情和情绪。

We cannot change our past, but we can decide what kind of present and future we are going to have… Rather than complaining or leaving God, might as well think clearly to know that only God can truly help, change and rescue us. Many times the pain is in our memory, it is our thought that locks us in the suffering. So we need to diligently seek the renewal, transformation and breakthrough in our mind continually.

When we continually absorb positive and optimistic thoughts, negative and pessimistic ones will reduce naturally. This will directly affect our emotions and feelings.

其中一个我们可默想的正面思想，就是我那天鼓励表妹秀月的生日贺词，今天有感动也把它贴在这里与大家共勉之：

“你生在这个世上有很大的使命，你生在这个家庭有神的美意；不管我们如何来到这世上，不管我们喜欢不喜欢那原因、环境和遭遇，要牢记你是特别从天上被差派下来，为成就一项伟大任务；而那任务也只有你能完成，别人不能取代。。。”

灰心沮丧时，不妨思想耶稣的话吧，他也有心情难过的时候：

“我现在心里忧愁、我说甚么才好呢？父阿，救我脱离这时候；但我原是为这时候来的。父阿、愿你荣耀你的名。。。”
～ 约12：27－28 ～

所以，让我们不断朝着这方面思想，继续努力奔跑吧，要知道你是天上来的特务使者！

One of the positive thought we can meditate on is the birthday blessing I sent my cousin Dorcas the other day. I feel I should post it here today to share with you all too:

“You have a great mission to be born in this world. There is a beautiful plan of God for you to be born in this family. No matter how we came into this world, whether or not we like that reason, environment or circumstance, always remember you are specially sent from heaven to accomplish a great task; and you alone can complete that task, no one else can replace…”

When you are discouraged or depressed, take time to think on the words of Jesus, He also had moments when his heart was down: