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Day 35: 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary (突如其来的打击 / Sudden And Unexpected Blow)

第三十五天:11月6日(日)

今天早上我的心情极其沉重与难过,其实是从昨晚散会后开始。

散会时,庭辉说他要去医院紧急病房看国双。我就问发生了什么事,是不是禁食过度,因我知道国双也有禁食。
庭辉说据说是身体不太舒服,发冷,昨天淋到雨,人有一些感冒,但好像很严重。

庭辉还没离开教会,我就接到国双姐姐打来的电话,很急的叫我们祷告,说医生说很不乐观。我也很讶异,为什么感冒会这么严重?我也一直担心是禁食过度。听他姐姐的语气非常焦急,我就赶快召集一些弟兄姐妹一起赶去医院。

抵达医院,还在停车的时候,国双姐姐又打来哭着说不必去了,他已经走了。。。

主啊,怎么会呢?他还这么年轻,下午和昨天还好好的,我看到他这几天都来晨祷,都觉得很感动,特别注意他。。。去医院途中,我们一路上都不中断的祷告。。。

我们还是进去病房看,看到他哥哥国贵在他的床边;他也问我为什么会这样,我没有办法回答。我把手放在国双的肩膀,还是尝试为他祷告,他还是走了。。。
医生说查不出死因,需要解剖来看;但他们也说不是禁食的缘故,这至少让我有点安慰。。。

赶到他母亲的家,家人说都不敢跟妈妈透露真相,因为国双是妈妈最疼爱、最小的孩子,四十年来都一直留在妈妈身边照顾妈妈。可是妈妈已经察觉到,正在那边痛哭说她无法接受。。。

一个失去爱儿的母亲的心谁能体会?谁能安慰?我也只能紧抓住妈妈的手,抱着她,让她哭。。。

跟随我来的青少年也在说牧师不知该如何安慰这母亲,我没有办法,因为这种伤痛很深,什么属灵的话、安慰的话都无济于事,除非神恩膏你的嘴唇,有神的灵亲自充满与安慰这颗破碎的心。。。

主啊,求怜悯。。。

“主耶和华赐我受教者的舌头,使我知道怎样用言语扶助疲乏的人。主每早晨提醒,提醒我的耳朵,使我能听,像受教者一样。”
~ 以赛亚书 50:4 ~

 

Day 35 : Nov 6th (Sun)

This morning my heart was really heavy and sad, it actually started from last night after the meeting.

After the meeting, Jonathan said he wanted to go to the hospital’s emergency department to see Shuang. I asked him what had happened, was it because of over-fasting? Because I knew Shuang fasted with us too.
Jonathan said from what he heard, Shuang was not feeling well and felt very cold, he might have contracted some serious flu because he was caught in the rain yesterday.

Before Jonathan could leave, Shuang’s sister called me sounding very urgently asking us to pray for Shuang because the doctor said the situation was not very optimistic. I was very surprised, why would flu be so serious? I was also concerned that whether it was due to over-fasting. The sister sounded really anxious, so I gathered some brothers and sisters to go to the hospital with me.

Arriving at the hospital, while still looking for a park, the sister called again, she cried and asked me not to go anymore because he was gone…

O Lord, how could that be? He was still so young, and alive and well just this afternoon and yesterday when we saw him. I was also very touched to see him in the early morning prayer meeting the past few mornings, so I specially noticed him… and on the way to the hospital we were praying unceasingly…

We went into the emergency room and saw his other brother standing beside his bed. The brother also asked me why, I could not answer. I laid my hand on Shuang’s shoulder and attempted to pray for him still, but he still left…
The doctor said they do not know the cause of death and need to do a post mortem; but they did say too it was not due to fasting, that did comfort me a little…

We rushed to the house to visit the mother. The siblings said they could not bring themselves to tell the mother because Shaung was the youngest and had always been mommy’s boy, all these forty years he had been by the mother’s side to take care of her. But she already sensed it and was crying desperately saying she could not accept the fact…

Who could feel the heart of a mother who lost her beloved child? Who could comfort her? All I could do was to hold her hand tightly and hugged her to let her cry…
The young people who came with me were also wondering how I was going to comfort this mother. I could not, because this kind of pain is deep, whatever spiritual or comforting words are all useless unless God anoints your lips, and the Spirit of God Himself fills and comforts the broken heart…

O Lord, have mercy…

“The Sovereign LORD has given me an instructed tongue, to know the word that sustains the weary. He wakens me morning by morning, wakens my ear to listen like one being taught.”
~ Isaiah 50:4 ~

Day 34: 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary (用功努力 / Diligence And Hard Work)

第三十四天:11月5日(六)

今天感觉恢复学生的身份,下午就像一个好学生一样,很努力温习功课,好像要面对考试,还有点读得来不及的感觉!
原因是这几天都要为国际闻名的老前辈,有“讲道王子”的绰号的邵遵澜牧师作翻译。我们邀请邵牧师来教导一共十二堂的约翰福音,每一堂都需要有英文翻译,好让所有的会友都能领受这美好的福份。

邵老师写了一本分析约翰福音的书叫“十面供应”,这一次的讲解也按照书的内容与秩序。所以,为了确保翻译顺畅、无误,我要先大概了解每一章的内容,还要熟悉约翰福音的英文经文。因此,我需要重读英文版的约翰福音,还特別大声朗读,要确定发音准确和读得顺畅。。。然后还要对照邵牧师书中的讲解,思想内容该如何翻译。

其实沒之前准备,现场翻译还是可以应付,但偶尔有一些字眼临时翻译得不太准确,有些经文,特别是名称也需要时间回想。所以,你们不要看我翻译得好像很轻松,得心应手,我也是会感觉到压力的。但我相信,除了上帝的恩典、怜悯,圣灵的恩膏和智慧之外,认真准备也是很重要的!

其实不是做翻译或在台上讲道罢了,我们日常生活里的众多事情如:读书、工作、家务、人际关系等等,也都要常常训练,才会越发进步、越发优秀、越发成功的!

“这些事你要殷勤去做,并要在此专心,使众人看出你的长进来。”
~ 提摩太前书 4:15 ~

Day 34 : Nov 5th (Sat)

Today I felt like I have returned to my student’s days, I was just like a good student the whole afternoon, revising my homework very diligently, like facing an exam, and even kind of felt I did not have enough time to finish studying!
Reason being these few days I am the interpreter for internationally renown elder, Reverend James Shao, who alos has the nickname of “The prince of preaching”. We invited Rev Shao to do a teaching of 12 lessons on the book of John, and each session must be interpreted into English, so that all our members will receive this great blessing together.

Rev Shao has recently written a book that analyses the contents of the book of John called “Complete Supply” or “Ten-fold Supplies” (roughly interpreted). The teaching this time will follow the content and order of the book. Therefore, to make sure my interpretation is smooth, without mistake, I must first get to know the content of each chapter, and I must be familiar with the English version of the verses in John. So I need to re-read the book of John in English, and I read it aloud to make sure I could pronounce and read it smoothly… Then I have to refer to what is written in Rev Shao’s book to consider how I should interpret some words or content.

Actually I can still handle if I interpret on the spot without prior preparation, but occasionally some words are not interpreted so accurately, and some Scripture, especially names need time to recall. So, do not think it looks so easy when I am interpreting, so effortless, I actually do feel the pressure too. But I believe, apart from the grace and mercy of God, the anointing and wisdom of the Holy Spirit, to prepare seriously is also important!

In fact, not just for  interpreting or preaching behind the pulpit, many things in our daily lives like: studying, working, housework, inter-personal relationships etc, need constant practising too, only then we can improve further, be even more outstanding and successful!

“Be diligent in these matters; give yourself wholly to them, so that everyone may see your progress.”
~ 1 Timothy 4:15 ~

 

Day 33: 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary (不轻言放弃 / Do Not Give Up Easily)

第三十三天:11月4日(五)

今晚跟邵牧师翻译时,其中一点他提到的再次提醒我,有些事情若有感动神要我们做,就不可轻言放弃;因为尽管是上帝的旨意和引领,也难免会有挑战和困难的时候。。。

例如:禁食啦、帮助人啦、布道啦、牧养啦等等。。。

“耶稣说:“我的食物就是遵行差我来者的旨意,做成他的工。”
~ 约翰福音 4:34 ~

原来要得着真正的满足,如同一个挨饿的人吃了一顿很满足的饭菜一样,我们不止要遵行神在我们生命中的旨意,还要完成他托付给我们的工作。。。所以,让我们的字典里面没有“放弃”!

当然首先也要先跟上帝亲近,才会晓得他在我们生命中的计划和旨意,这样我们才能去完成它。。。

Day 33 : Nov 4th (Fri)
As I was interpreting for Rev Shao tonight, one of the things he mentioned once again reminded me, when we feel led by God to do certain things, then we must not give up easily; because even if it is God’s will or guidance, sometimes inevitably there will be challenges and difficulties as well…
For example: fasting, helping others, evangelizing, shepherding etc…
“My food,” said Jesus, “is to do the will of him who sent me and to finish his work.”
~ John 4:34 ~
So, in order to receive real satisfaction, like a hungry man having just eaten a very satisfying and sumptuous meal, we not only need to obey or do God’s will in our lives, we have to complete the work He has entrusted us too… Therefore, let the words “give up” not be found in our dictionary!
But of course first of all we must be close to God, then will we know His plan and will in our lives, only then can we go and complete it…

 

Day 32: 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary (梦想成真 / Dream Came True)

 

第三十二天:11月3日(四)

这情景很熟悉,似曾相识。。。原来是多年前在我脑海里浮现,我梦想拥有的房间。。。
一个舒适的房间,有大的玻璃门看出去外面的风景,纱布的窗帘等等。。。后来也没再去想,因为日子久了,不是忘了,就是觉得很不可能。。。

如今却不知不觉的实现了!也没刻意向神求,只是在我自己心中的一个梦想,在我脑海里的一个画面,上帝都看见且赐给我了!
我只能说:袮为何对我那么好?

“我的心哪,你要称颂耶和华,不可忘记他的一切恩惠。 。。 他用美物,使你所愿的得以知足,以致你如鹰返老还童。”
~ 诗篇 103:2,5 ~

我相信当你有一颗感恩、赞美、事奉神的心,求他的国和他的义,很多你没有求的东西,他都会赐给你了。这是我这些年来所经历的。
深感不配,却是那么感恩,我好喜欢他给我的房间。。。其实不只这个,还有很多梦想,他都让它们一一的成真了!

上帝晓得你的心愿,只要你紧紧跟随他,他不会留下什么好处不给你。


Day 32 : Nov 3rd (Thur)

This scene looks very familiar, like I have seen it somewhere before… Then I realized it was something in my mind, the “dream room” that I would love to have many years ago…
A very comfortable room with big glass doors to look out at the scenery outside, flowing curtains etc… But I did not think about it again later, because after a long time, it was either I had forgotten about it or I thought it was not so possible…

And now, without even realizing, it came to pass! I did not specifically ask God for it, it was just a dream in my heart, a picture in my mind, and God saw it and gave it to me!
I can only say: Why are You so good to me?

“Praise the LORD, my soul,
and forget not all his benefits… who satisfies your desires with good things
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s. ”
~ Psalm 103:2,5 ~

I believe when you have a heart that is grateful, full of praise and wanting to serve Him, seek His kingdom and righteousness, many things that you do not even ask Him, He will nevertheless give them to you. This is what I experienced all these years. I deeply feel I am not worthy but am full of gratitude at the same time, I really like my room… In fact, not just this, there were many other dreams too that He has made them come true!

God knows your desires, as long as you follow Him closely, He will not hold back any good thing not to give you.

Day 31 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary (我没有力气了 / I Am Feeling Very Weak)

第三十一天:11月2日(三)

今早其实还起得蛮早,可是就觉得全身无力气,不想动,一坐下来就不想站起来什么的。。。
去教会参加晨祷,如往常阿黄会先带领,我到了就接下去。

今天我接过来,感觉有气无力,连麦克风都觉得重!坐也不是,跪也不是,唱歌没力气。。。差不多15分钟过后,我不行了,我走过去叫阿黄接下去带领,我去办公室休息。。。

在办公室的沙发一躺下来,马上睡着,一睡就睡了三个多小时,还是没力气起来,头还有点痛。一下子又是中午祷告时间了,我用尽力气带领,撑了差不多20分钟,又不行了,交给毅伟带下去。。。

没有上帝的支撑、力量与怜悯,我知道我是没办法继续这纯白开水的禁食的。今天,我再次被提醒,本来就不是我的本事,我的力量,我的能干,我的坚持等等。。。一切本来就源自与神,都是他的恩典和怜悯。。。

“我靠着那加给我力量的,凡事都能做。”
~ 腓立比书 4:13 ~

Day 31 : Nov 2nd (Wed)

Actually I got up quite early this morning, but I felt totally strength-less, did not feel like moving, and once I sat down, I did not feel like getting up and so on…
Went to the morning prayer at church, as usual Bong will be leading first and I just take over when I arrive.
When I took over this morning, I felt no strength in me, even the microphone felt heavy! To sit or to kneel, nothing seemed right, no strength to sing as well… After about 15 minutes, I really could not stand anymore, I walked over to Bong and asked him to continue leading. I went to my office for a rest.
When I lay down on my office couch, I fell asleep instantly, and I woke up more than three hours later! Still I had no strength to get up, and I had a slight headache too. After a while, it was the noon-time prayer again. I garnered all my strength to lead, after enduring for about 20 minutes, I could not handle again and asked Yi Wei to take over…
Without God’s support, strength and mercy, I know there is no way I could continue with this “plain water only” fast. Today, once again I am reminded, it has never been my capability, my strength, my ability, my determination etc… all along everything comes from God, it is all His grace and mercy…

“I can do everything through him who gives me strength.”
~ Philippians 4:13 ~

 

Day 30 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary (那单纯的小孩 / That Innocent Boy)

 

第三十天:11月1日(二)

这几天脑子里一直想着那个孩童,即约翰福音6:9的:

“在这里有一个孩童,带着五个大麦饼、两条鱼,只是分给这许多人,还算甚么呢?”

一个单纯的小孩,却有无私的心,愿意把自己很有限的分享出去给别人。。。结果耶稣让这份心意成为超过所求所想的神迹,让小孩的几片小饼和两条小鱼,喂饱上万人,还有剩下装满十二个篮子!

主啊,我多愿意有这小孩的单纯与信心!

这段禁食期间,神让我特别敏锐越发多人的需要,加以采取实际行动;可是有限的我,也只能像这小孩一样献上我的一点点,神也很快让我看到意想不到的效果。

让我很感动的是,大哥读了我“免了人的债”的日记后,他马上回应说他也要跟我同样如此做!我感恩,神迹就这样散播。。。

“凡有世上财物的,看见弟兄穷乏,却塞住怜恤的心,爱 神的心怎能存在他里面呢?
小子们哪,我们相爱,不要只在言语和舌头上,总要在行为和诚实上。”
~ 约翰一书 3:17-18 ~

Day 30 : Nov 1st (Tue)
These few days, my mind has been thinking about that small boy mentioned in John 6:9:
“Here is a boy with five small barley loaves and two small fish, but how far will they go among so many?”
An innocent child with an unselfish heart, willingly shared the very limited he had with others… As a result, Jesus made this desire become a miracle that was beyond any asking and imagination, using the boy’s few small loaves and two small fish to feed more than ten thousand people to their satisfaction, and the leftover filled twelve baskets!
O Lord, I am very willing to have this boy’s innocence and faith!
During this fasting period, God made me specially sensitive to even more people in need, and also to take practical steps to help. But the very limited me could only offer up the little that I have like that little boy, and God shows me the unexpected result very fast as well.
What really touched me was, after my eldest brother read my diary on “forgiving the debts of others”, he immediately responded and said he is going to do the same! I am grateful, miracles are spreading…
“If anyone has material possessions and sees his brother in need but has no pity on him, how can the love of God be in him?
Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth.”
~ 1 John 3:17-18 ~

Day 29 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary (我的骨肉 / My Flesh And Blood)

 

 

第二十九天:10月31日(一)

无论是在家里,办公室,或在台上,每次读到以赛亚58:7,上帝说他所拣选的禁食不是要“顾恤自己的骨肉而不掩藏吗?”这一句时,就会出现我一个姐姐的脸孔。。。

起初不以为然,可是数天下来,每每在读这经文,还是出现我姐的脸孔!今早我确定了,上帝要我帮她!

打了电话把他们两夫妇叫来我家,我跟他们谈我的感动,以神的话激励他们。
然后,我告诉他们我要以很实际的方式,帮助他们在经济上取得突破和自由,说是上帝给我的负担和感动。。。

除了很实际又长远的帮到他们现时的需要之外,我还告诉他们两夫妇,他们欠了我很多年的一笔钱不必还给我了,我说反正我没需要。

姐姐急忙说:可是我心里有负担,我有责任要想办法把钱还给你。。。
我说:你有负担因为之前我从没说过,你的债被免了;可是现在,我当着你们夫妇的面说,所欠我的不必还了,一分钱都不必,神要我祝福你们。

其实他们两夫妇都个别欠了我一些钱,很多年了,我都忘了数目了。

临走时,姐夫紧紧的握住我的手,声声说:谢谢你,谢谢你。。。

我看到他眼眶内有泪水。。。

“免我们的债,如同我们免了人的债。”
~ 马太福音 6:12 ~

禁食祷告求恩膏,恩膏又是为了什么?

“主的灵在我身上,因为他用膏膏我,叫我传福音给贫穷的人;差遣我报告被掳的得释放,瞎眼的得看见,叫那受压制的得自由。”
~ 路加福音4:18 ~

 

Day 29 : Oct 31st (Mon)

Whether at home, in the office, or behind the pulpit, each time when I read Isaiah 58:7, where God mentioned the kind of fasting He has chosen is  “not to turn away from your own flesh and blood”, one of my sisters’ face would appear in my mind…

At first, I did not pay attention to that, but day after day, whenever I read this verse, my sister’s face would appear again! This morning I became certain God wants me to help her!

I called her and the husband to come see me, I told them the conviction in my heart, encouraged them with the word of God.
Then, I told them I want to use a very practical way to help them see breakthrough and freedom in their finance. I said that is the burden and conviction God has given me…

Apart from very practically and in a lasting manner helping them with their current need, I told them both as well, they do not have to pay me back anymore the money they owed me for many years already. I said after all I do not need the money too.

My sister quickly said: But I have the burden in my heart, I have the responsibility to pay you back…
I said: You have the burden because I never told you before your debt is forgiven;  but now, I say it right in front of you both, you do not need to return the money to me, not even a cent, God wants me to bless you.

Actually both of them separately owed me some money for many years already, I have even forgotten the amount.

Before they left, my brother in law shook and held my hand tightly, saying: Thank you, thank you…

I saw tears in his eyes…

“Forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors.”
~ Matthew 6:12 ~

We fast and pray for anointing, but what is the anointing for?

“The Spirit of the Lord is on me, because he has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners and recovery of sight for the blind, to release the oppressed”
~ Luke 4:18 ~

Day 28 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary (被吓坏的小孩 / The Very Frightened Kid)

第二十八天:10月30日(日)

Facebook的留言箱收到这则短讯:“牧师…昨晚的事情我家人叫我跟你说声谢谢。真的很谢谢你…”

原来昨晚祷告会结束时,我被告知保安人员抓到一个教会的小孩,刮花了几辆停在外面的车;他们说保安人员和小孩父母正在停车场质问这小孩。我听了很生气,怎么有那么顽皮的小孩,我一定要训他一顿!

我就走去停车场,准备好好的教训一番。到那边时,看到小孩的父母和哭到很惨以致于全身虚弱、不停发抖的小孩。。。不可能吧!怎么会是他?我无法相信,因为我知道这小孩。。。

我就听到小孩哭着连连的说:我没有。。。我没有。。。
他母亲看到我来了,很生气的骂他说:你自己跟牧师讲!
我把手搭在他肩膀上,尽量安抚他的情绪,慢慢的问他说:你真的没有吗?
小孩哭着说:他们都看到我有,但是我真的没有。。。

我问保安人员说:你们亲眼看到他在刮车吗?
保安人员说:问题就是没看到,但是就只有他在现场,而且行动可疑。
我:所以没有人看到他刮啊?
他们:没有。。。
我:那就不能确定说是他啊。。。这小孩我认识,依我看,他再大胆也不敢做这种事。

我跟小孩父母说,我相信他不会这样子做。但同时我也问小孩说:你祷告会到一半怎么会出现在停车场?
小孩(边哭边说):我出来走走。。。
我:这样做对吗?祷告会正在进行,你不祷告却离开父母跑出来玩?可以吗?
小孩:我不对。。。不可以。。。
我:这一点你是不是做错了?
小孩:是。。。
我:所以才会出现这被人误会的问题啊,明白吗?你如果乖乖留在父母身边,在教堂里面祷告,就不会有事了,你说是不是?
小孩:是。。。

我带着小孩祷告,一切圆满结束。。。

那么巧昨晚在祷告会我们不断唱着:“你的同在没有什么能取代,只是有时我会傻傻的离开。。。”,正如发生的这个事件!
我们真的不该离开神的同在,一离开,问题就会来。。。

“住在至高者隐密处的,必住在全能者的荫下。。。
他必用自己的翎毛遮蔽你,你要投靠在他的翅膀底下。他的诚实是大小的盾牌。”
~ 诗篇91:1, 4 ~

Day 28 : Oct 30th (Sun)

I received this message in my Facebook Messages box: “Pastor… my family asked me to convey their thanks to you concerning last night’s incident. Really thank you…”

The reason was after the prayer meeting last night, I was informed by the security people that they caught a boy from church who used some sharp object to scratch many cars parked outside. They said the security people and the kid’s parents were at the parking lot questioning the kid now. I got very angry when I heard that, how could there be such a naughty kid, I must sternly lecture him!

So I walked toward the parking lot, preparing to scold the boy seriously. When I got there, I saw the kid’s parents and the boy who appeared weak and was trembling from too much crying… No, it can’t be! How could it be him? I could not believe because I know the boy…

All I heard was the boy crying and saying repeatedly: I didn’t do it… I didn’t…
His mother saw me, and scolded the boy angrily: You tell pastor yourself!
I put my hand on his shoulder, trying to calm him down, I asked him slowly: You really didn’t do it?
he cried and said: They all saw me doing it but I really didn’t…

I asked the security people: Did you guys catch him red-handed and actually see him scratching the cars?
Security: That’s the problem, we didn’t see him actually doing it, but he was the only one there and he looked suspicious.
Me: So nobody saw him do it?
Security: No, nobody actually saw…
Me: Then we can’t be so sure to say it’s him… I know this kid, if you ask me, I don’t think he would dare to do such a thing.

I told the parents I believe he would not do such a thing. But at the same time, I asked the kid: How come you were at the car-park half way through the prayer meeting?
Kid (still crying): I came out for a walk…
Me: Is it right to do that? The prayer meeting was in progress, you did not join in and yet left your parents to come out to play? Can you do that?
Kid: It is not right… I shouldn’t have done that…
Me: So do you see that you are wrong in this aspect?
Kid: Yes…
Me: That is why this problem of being misunderstood happened, understand? If you had stayed obediently with your parents, praying in the church, nothing would have happened, isn’t that right?
Kid: Yes…

I led the kid to pray, everything ended well…

Just so happened that we were singing repeatedly in the prayer meeting last night: “Nothing can ever replace being in Your presence, but sometimes I would foolishly leave Your presence…” Just like what happened in this incident!
We really must not leave the presence of God, when we do, problems come…

“He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty…

He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.”
~ Psalm 91:1, 4 ~

Day 27 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary (爸爸的心 / Father’s Heart)

 

第二十七天:10月29日(六)

今天跟大家分享那天在吉隆坡听到的比喻,Pastor David Demian分享了一个很生动的画面,然后问了一个问题;我心中马上冒起一个念头说,我一定要跟教会分享这个感人比喻。

Pastor David叫我们想像一个画面,一个爸爸带他几个小孩外游,到运动场时跟他几位小孩说,大家来赛跑。因为每个小孩年龄不同,弱小的肯定是跑输的。Pastor David就问我们说,开始跑了,爸爸应该会跑在哪个孩子的身边,与他同步或作伴?

大家马上知道答案,爸爸当然是与那最弱小、跑最后的在一起,怕他被抛在后头,跌倒啊,受伤啊,什么的。。。

那就是爸爸的爱,那就是天父的爱。。。可是我们却常常觉得每当自己软弱、跌倒、不合神心意、不是一个很好的基督徒的时候,神一定不再爱我们,会生气我们,把我们丢下来不理。。。事实是,天父反而会陪在我们身边,鼓励我们,帮助我们继续跑到终点。。。

“于是起来,往他父亲那里去。相离还远,他父亲看见,就动了慈心,跑去抱着他的颈项,连连与他亲嘴。”
~ 路加福音15:20 ~

Day 27 : Oct 29th (Sat)

I shared with the church the parable I heard in KL that day, Pastor David Demian shared a very vivid illustration, then he asked us a question. At that moment, a thought entered my mind immediately that I must share this touching parable with the church.

Pastor David asked us to imagine a scenario where a father brings his kids for an outing, and in the sports field he tells his kids to have a race with him. Because each child’s age is different, so the younger or weaker ones would certainly lose. Then Pastor David asked us, when they begin running, which child will the father be running beside, same pace with him and accompanying him?

Immediately we all knew the answer, of course the father will be with the weakest and the one running last, fearing that this kid would be left far behind, that he might fall or hurt himself or what…

That is the love of a father, that is the love of our Father God… but so many times we tend to feel that God will stop loving us, be mad at us, or abandon and ignore us when we are weak, when we fall, not so pleasing to God, or when we feel we are not a good Christian… The truth is, our Father God will instead be by our side, encouraging us and helping us to continue running till the finishing line…

“So he got up and went to his father. “But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.”
~ Luke 15:20 ~

 

Day 26 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary(风随意吹 / As The Wind Blows)

 

 

第二十六天:10月28日(五)

昨天早上,在无预警之下,接了一通电话,感觉神要我飞往吉隆坡,所以我照着行了。今天又飞回古晋了。。。
看似,甚至感觉上身体会累,但灵里却饱足,得着神的喂养和鼓励。

一回到古晋也没休息,就准备晚上要在青少团分享的信息;神很恩待我,只要我向他求,他就会感动我,让我很轻易就准备好我的讲章,或脑海里就晓得要分享什么。

过后,像每个礼拜五一样,我载恩恩去学钢琴,等他下课,带他去游泳。。。生活如常,都是神的恩典!

我的讲章一般上只写下一些重点,可是每次在台上就会有源源不断的启示和感动跟大家分享。圣灵的感动和启示也是神给我的一个极大恩典,非靠自己努力,不需要想破脑袋,是圣灵随意而给。

喜欢耶稣的这一句话:

“风随着意思吹,你听见风的响声,却不晓得从哪里来,往哪里去;凡从圣灵生的,也是如此。”
~ 约翰福音3:8 ~

神的话真的很真,只要单纯相信,渴慕追求,你必定经历他的真实!

Day 26 : Oct 28th (Fri)

Yesterday morning, without any prior notice, I received a telephone call and felt God wanted me to fly to KL, so I did. I flew back to Kuching today…

Looked like, or even really tired physically, but spiritually satisfied, receiving God’s feeding and encouragement.

I did not rest as soon as I reached Kuching, I prepared the message I was to share at the Young Adults and Youths combined meeting tonight.. God is very gracious to me, as long as I ask Him, He will prompt my heart and I would then be able to easily get my sermon ready, or I would know what to share in my mind.

After that, like any other Friday, I sent Moses to his piano class, waited for him to finish, brought him to swim… life went on like normal, this is all the grace of God!

Normally I only write down the main points in my sermon notes, but each time I would have unending flow of revelations and convictions to share when I am on stage. The conviction and revelation of the Holy Spirit is also one great gracious gift God had given me, not by my own effort, not through thinking myself nuts, but freely given by the Holy Spirit.
I love what Jesus said:

‘The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit.”
~ John 3:8 ~

God’s Word is indeed very true, as long as you believe innocently, have the hunger or desire, you will surely experience His reality!