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他还这么年轻。。。 He is still so young…

我刚去了医院回来,去探访一个年轻人。。。

几年前上台湾 Good TV 节目时,他当我的键盘手。他在台湾发展他的音乐梦想,几个月前他回来了,罹患肺癌。。。
他本身没吸烟,但吸进旁边人的“二手烟”也非常危险。。。

他非常瘦,掉了30kg。。。感动的是,女友和另两位好友特从台湾飞来照顾他。。。他把女友叫来因他感觉自己不行了。。。我外甥是他好友,是外甥带我去看他。

他很虚弱,治疗伤到喉咙,几乎没声音讲话。他看到我第一句话就是“几年前在台湾帮你伴奏”。。。虽然没什么力气,他还很开朗、很健谈。。。言谈间他突然谈到有时候他思想会有骚扰,会沮丧和消极。。。他说他曾答应上帝很多事情,他要用音乐为上帝做很多事,他还有很多计划和梦想。。。

他告诉我起初在台湾发展有多辛苦,好不容易能够买冷气机了。。。好不容易能吃好一点了。。。好不容易有一点收入了。。。。可是如今却躺在这里病了。。。他说他问自己说,难道就这样结束了吗?

说着。。。说着。。。他掉下了眼泪。。。

我看得很心酸,三十一岁而已。。。离去前,我为他祷告、鼓励他,我还能做什么?

上帝啊,你可以给他机会完成梦想,用他的音乐来荣耀你吗。。。?

I’ve just been to the hospital to visit a young man…

Few years ago he played keyboard for me when I was singing for a certain GoodTV show in Taiwan. He was pursuing his music career in Taiwan. He came back few months ago, diagnosed with lung cancer… He himself does not smoke, so you see how dangerous it is to breathe in even “second-hand” smoke from other smokers…

He is skin and bones, he has lost 30kg… the touching thing was his girl friend and two other friends came all the way from Taiwan to take care of him… he asked his girl friend to come as he felt he was dying… My nephew is a good friend of his, it was my nephew who brought me to see him.

He is very weak, the treatment damaged his throat so he could hardly speak. The first thing he said when he saw me was “I played keyboard for you in Taiwan few years back”… Though very weak, he was still cheerful and chatty… in the midst of our conversations, he said sometimes he would be attacked mentally and he would feel down and depressed… He said he has promised God many things, he wants to serve God with his music and he still has a lot of projects and dreams in mind…

He told me how tough it was when he first went to Taiwan, and finally he could buy an air-conditioner… and finally he could eat better food… and finally he has some income… but now he is lying here in bed sick… he said he asked himself, is that it? Is that how it is going to end?

As he spoke, tears rolled down his cheeks…

My heart was very moved, only 31 years old… before I left, I prayed for him and encouraged him, what else can I do?

O God, would you give him a chance to fulfill his dream, to use his music to glorify You…?

那宝贵照片的故事:我的第一套西装。。。 Story of that precious photo: My first suit ever…

是的,这张照片的确非常有纪念性,而且是我唯一的一张。。。前阵子找不到时,我的确有点紧张,所以我祷告,终于让我找到了,感谢主!
那为什么这照片那么特别?你们有一些猜对了。。。

Yes, this photo is really very memorable to me and it is the only copy that I have… When I could not find it a while ago, I was a bit worried so I prayed and finally I found it, thank God!
Then why is this photo so special? Some of you guessed right…

它的确是我第一次参加歌唱比赛时拍的,当时才五年级,未满十一岁,也不知哪来的资讯和勇气会自己去报名参加成人歌唱比赛。
我想当时主办单位原本只安排前三名有奖,但大概看我勇气可嘉,也年幼可爱,就临时包了一个十块钱红包放在信封里,颁发给我当安慰奖,哈哈。。。
还记得我当时唱了刘文正的“最高峰”,在我们的小镇林梦一炮而红!哈哈!你有没注意到照片里那些哥哥姐姐们都在旁边笑,大概觉得我很可爱吧,哈哈!

但这照片还有一个更重要、更特别与叫我很感动,也是我很珍惜它的原因,那就是我身上穿的乃是我第一套西装。。。
小时候家里很穷,一年只有一次能有新衣穿,就是过年的时候;但我爸爸是裁缝师,他非常爱我。。。得悉我参加比赛,我并没要求,他竟为我量身定做一套西装,还带我去买一条领带,亲自帮我打领带,把我打扮得整整齐齐,让我去参加比赛。爸爸不善于表达感情,但那一天我永远不会忘记,我深深知道他很爱我,也很为我而感到骄傲。。。很可惜今天他看不到这篇文章了。。。

所以你们明白为什么这张照片对我那么重要了吧?

It was really taken when I participated in my first singing competition ever, I was only in Primary 5 then, not even 11 years old completely. I don’t know where I got the information and courage to register for the adult singing competition myself.
I think the orgainising committee only prepared prizes for the first three positions initially, but seeing my commendable courage and probably thinking I was small and cute, they just found some envelope to put a RM10 note inside for me as a consolation prize, haha…
I remember I sang a song from the veteran singer Liu Wen Zheng called “The highest peak” and became famous overnight in our small town Limbang, haha! Did you notice in the photo some big brothers and sisters were smiling as I sang, they probably found me very cute, haha!

But this photo has another more significant reason why it is so important, special and touching to me that I treasure it so much, and that is the suit I was wearing was my first suit ever…
We were very poor when young, we could only afford to have new clothes once a year during Chinese new year, but my dad happened to be a tailor and he loved me a lot… when he knew I was in the competition, without me requesting, he tailor-made for me this suit and brought me to shop for a neck tie and helped me to put on the tie himself. He dressed me up properly to go and sing that night. My dad was not an expressive person but I will never forget that day, I knew he loved me so much and was so proud of me… unfortunately he is not able to read this story today…

So you now know why this photo means so much to me?

过后我读中学预备班那一年(12岁多),我又参加了第二次歌唱比赛,爸爸又为我量身定做了第二套西装!他真的是很疼我。。。
这一次又是只拿了安慰奖,哈哈!我还听到有个大人说,他唱得比我好却拿不到奖,全都因为我的西装赢了他!
我的第二次歌唱比赛和第二件西装。。。

Later when I was studying in the transition class in secondary school (12 year-old plus), I joined another competition, and my dad tailor-made another suit for me! He really did love me a lot…
This time I won a consolation prize again, haha! And I overheard an adult saying he could sing better than me but he did not win any prize all because he lost out to my suit!
My second singing contest and second suit…

后来我出来古晋读书投靠姐姐们,那时没跟爸妈住在一起。
高二那年又去参加歌唱比赛。。。这一次爸爸没在,也没有人给我做什么西装了。。。而这一次比赛,我第一轮就被淘汰了,哈哈!这跟有没有西装无关,原因是其实我本来就不是很会唱歌!小时候那么敢参加歌唱比赛都是因为爸爸相信我,还为我量身定做西装鼓励我。。。上帝对我就像爸爸一样,明知道我不太会唱歌,竟然也让我成为福音歌手!爸爸的爱真是很伟大。。。

Later I came out to Kuching to study as my sisters were supporting me, so I did not live with my parents then.
When I was in Form 5, I joined another singing contest… this time dad was not around, so no one made any suit for me… and in this competition, I was kicked out after the first round, haha! This had nothing to do with wearing a suit or no suit, it was all because I actually could not sing very well! I dared to join singing competitions when young because my dad believed in me and tailor-made suits for me to encourage me… God is really like a dad to me too, knowing I can’t quite sing and yet He made me a Gospel singer! How great is the love of a father!

第三次歌唱比赛。。。没有西装。。。也没有得奖。。。
My third singing competition… no suit… and no prize too…

一首歌勾起一段回忆。。。 A song rekindles a certain memory…

“触景生情”是很确实的一句话。。。

有时候某个画面、景色、歌曲,甚至味道等等,都会让人想起一些往事。。。
当然这些回忆未必是伤心的,也有甜蜜的、有趣的。

歌曲特别会勾起我有一些回忆,因为我从小就喜欢听歌和唱歌,所以在成长过程中曾经很流行的歌曲,再听到难免会让我想起那段时间所经历或发生的事情。。。

信了主也一样,一些诗歌让我印象深刻,包括很多自己写的歌,背后都有一段故事。。。

记得有一首歌,好多年前在祷告会唱曾让我哭得肝肠万断,因为当时发生了某些事,以为这人因此也完蛋了。。。
我哭了几天几夜,如果要数做了牧师曾经历过的失望和伤害,这大概是我记忆中其中最痛的一次吧。。。

多年后,在教会又听到这首歌,在台下的我看到我原以为已经完蛋的人,却已重新在神面前事奉。。。不知该如何形容心中的感动和感恩。

当年唱这首歌时,这人曾让我流下多少伤心和绝望的眼泪。。。
可是那天再唱这首歌和看到这人,我所流的是欣慰和希望的眼泪。。。
那天,我看见了上帝的怜悯。。。

It is true that certain scenarios could provoke certain memories…

Sometimes just a picture, scenery, song or even fragrance can rekindle certain memories in your life…
And of course it does not have to be a sad memory, it can be something sweet or even funny.

Songs especially can rekindle some memories in me as I loved to sing and listen to songs from small. So songs that were very popular as I grew would somehow provoke memories of some incidents or experiences if I hear the songs again…

It is the same after believing in the Lord. Certain songs formed deep impression in me, including many songs I wrote myself, they all have a story behind…

I remember there is a certain song, many years ago when I sang it in a prayer meeting, I had never cried so much… because a certain thing happened then, I thought that was the end of this person…
I cried for many nights and days. If I were to recount the disappointments and hurts I had encountered as a pastor, this could well be just about the most painful in my memory…

So many years later, I heard this song again in church. As I stood there in the congregation watching this person whom I thought was lost many years back serving the Lord once again… it is hard to describe how touched and grateful I felt.

Years ago when I sang this song, this person had caused me to shed tears of pain and hopelessness…
But that day as I sang this song again, they were tears of gladness and hope…
That day, I saw the mercy of God…