我不是追星族，也不迷任何歌星、明星，我早已渡过那种年龄。。。老实说，除了要做参考之外，我本身已很久不听流行曲；但我会很注意这方面的新闻和动静，晓得谁很红、很出名、很有才华等等。。。孙燕姿我当然知道，这一次因为去了北京找Jaydon(他是孙燕姿演唱会的团员之一), 又受我的好友KennC之邀(他是孙燕姿演唱会音乐总监)，帮我弄来演唱会最贵的票，得以坐在最前面观赏孙燕姿在北京的演唱会，也是我生平所观赏的第一个类似的演唱会。。。经验很特别，对燕姿的表现和专业也很佩服和欣赏。。。演唱会过后他们竟然也带我去参加庆功宴！就是在那边遇见孙燕姿，她给人的感觉很亲切友善，一点也没摆大歌星的架子，也很大方的跟我们一起合照。。。她给我留下很好的印象。。。

I don’t run after stars and I’m not crazy about any singer or film star, I’m long past that age… Honestly, apart from for references’ sake, I myself haven’t listened to pop music for a long time. However I do follow the news in this area and know what is going on, like I know who are very popular and famous, very talented etc… So of course I know who Stephanie Sun is. This time it was because I went to Beijing to see Jaydon who is a team member of Stephanie’s concert, and also upon my good friend KennC’s invitation ( who is Stephanie’s concert music director ), that I got to watch her concert in Beijing sitting right in front with the most expensive ticket Kenn managed to get for me. That was also the first time I had ever been to such a concert…. It was a very special experience and I admired and was very impressed with Stephanie’s performance and professionalism…After the concert they even brought me to the celebration with them! And that was where I met Stephanie, she gave me a very warm and friendly feeling, she didn’t act like a stuck up diva, and she happily allowed us to take a picture with her…. She left a very good impression with me.

左边的是例外人，右边的是例外人的爸爸。。。中间的当然是燕姿啦！  Remnant on the left, Remnant’s dad on the right…and of course the middle one is Stephanie!

那天晚上的聚会他没有来，起初我没注意到，一直到上台了才发现他不在。。。一向来他都很认真、很积极和很尽责；而且一向来他一定会预先通知，我感到有点莫名其妙。。。

散会后才收到他道歉的简讯 － “牧师，我只想说声对不起，为了个人的事却没顾大局，我已向上帝认罪。。。我没有尽责，也不懂得控制情绪与脾气。。。我真的很内疚。。。我真的没脸去见神。。。我真的很不配。。。原谅我的不成熟。。。我不知道该怎么做。若你觉得有需要停止我的服事，我愿意接受。。。我必须负责，对不起，让你担心了。。。”

身为牧师，你读了会有什么感受和反应？我只知道当时他很需要安慰和鼓励，我一点也没有生气。他已经知错，而且已向上帝认罪，又很谦卑的向我道歉和认错，我是谁？岂能还定他的罪吗？加上我可感觉到他伤痛的心，所以很担心他到底发生什么事这么严重，因为他从来不会这样。。。所以我回复他 － “是，因着情绪而丢掉责任是不好，但也不至于被停止事奉，以后一定要胜过。。。压力、情绪等，谁都有，我也曾经逃跑过，甚至我现在因某些事，情绪也不太好，但我还是要尽责，做好我的本份，学习更亲近主。。。”

有没注意到他的最后一句“对不起，让你担心了”？他没说“让你生气了”或“让你反感了”等等。。。他知道我会担心，因为他知道我是爱他的。。。在我们所做的一切背后，一定要有爱。。。

That night he didn’t come to the meeting. I didn’t notice at first till I went to the pulpit and discovered he was not around… He is always a very diligent, positive and responsible person, and normally he would inform in advance, so I felt a little puzzled…

I only received his text message of apology after the meeting – ” Pastor, I just wanna say sorry, for my own personal thing, I neglected my duty, I have already asked for forgiveness from God… I haven’t been responsible, I didn’t know how to control my emotion and temper… I feel really ashamed of myself now, I don’t know how to face God, I’m truly unworthy… Please forgive my immaturity, I really don’t know what to do now. If you think you should stop my serving, I’m willing to accept that, I bear full responsibility. Sorry for making you worried…”

As a pastor, how would you have felt or reacted after reading that? All I knew at that time was he really needed comfort and encouragement, I was not a little bit angry. He already knew his wrong, and he had repented to God, and had also very humbly confessed and apologised to me, who am I then to condemn him still? Plus I was very concerned as to what actually happened to him since he was never like that… So I replied him – “Yes, it is not good to throw away our responsibility ‘cos of our emotion, but it is not so severe as to terminate your serving, you must overcome this in future… we all have pressure, emotions etc, and I too have escaped before, even right now, ‘cos of certain thing, I’m not feeling very well emotionally as well, but I still need to carry my responsibilty, do my job well, and learn to draw even closer to God…”

Did you notice his final sentence “Sorry for making you worried”? He didn’t say “Sorry for making you angry” or “for putting you off” etc… He knew I would be worried ‘cos he knew I love him… Behind everything that we do, there must be love…

亲爱的朋友和支持者，我最近比较认真和有负担写部落格,因看到它的影响力很大，同时也能操练自己的写作能力。。。而且我会很努力的每一篇都写中英文耶！这样更多人都能阅读了，因为我的很多朋友和支持者是读“红毛字”的(我们这里俗称老外为“红毛”)。。。对，中英文都是我亲笔写的，不错吧？哈哈哈。。。谢谢大家掌声鼓励。。。。其实真要感谢主让我能应付这两种语言。我常跟我们的年轻人说，要服事主嘛，语言能力一定要好，这样对服事会很有帮助；所以年轻人，听我说！在学校一定要专心修好语言科！

Dear friends and supporters, I’m a lot more serious and have a lot more burden to write blogs nowadays. This is because I saw how influential that can be and at the same time I can practise on my writing skill…. AND, I will make effort to write both in Chinese and English each time! Then more people will be able to read as many of my friends or supporters can only read “angmoh” ( slang for “Westerners” for the locals here )… Yes, both the Chinese and English versions here are written by myself, not bad huh? Hahaha…thanks for all your applause… Actually I really have to give thanks to God for giving me the ability to handle these two languages. I always tell our young people, if you want to serve God, you must be good at languages, that will certainly help your ministry. So, young people, take heed to my word! You must work hard to excel in your language subjects in school!