第十天：10月12日(三)

今天自己在读约翰福音12章时，有一股莫名的兴奋、感动和喜乐，因太多地方都在跟我说话。。。
所以鼓励你们今天也认真的看约12章。

其中在带中午祷告时让我联想到的是：
“耶稣说：“人子得荣耀的时候到了。
我实实在在地告诉你们：一粒麦子不落在地里死了，仍旧是一粒；若是死了，就结出许多子粒来。”（约12:23-24)

当然这经文讲的是耶稣将为我们死在十架上，但我今天的其它领受是，要荣耀耶稣，我们生命的一些东西也需要“死”；所以求主在这40天里面帮助我们把老我旧人全然钉死，不再复活！

Day 10 : Oct 12th (Wed)

Today while I was reading John Chapter 12 myself, I had this inexplicable excitement, prompting and joy, because many places were speaking to me…
So I encourage you to seriously read John 12 today.

Among those that reminded me while leading the noon-time prayer is:
^“Jesus replied, “The hour has come for the Son of Man to be glorified. Very truly I tell you, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds. ^“ (John12:23-24)

Of course these verses are talking about Jesus going to be crucified for us on the cross, butmy other enlightenment today is, to glorify Jesus, some things in our lives must “die” too, so may God help us within these 40 days to crucify our old man and self and not let it come back to life again!

另，主说：
“若有人服事我，就当跟从我；我在哪里，服事我的人也要在那里；若有人服事我，我父必尊重他。”（约12:26)

太多时候，我们要主跟从我们，而不是我们跟从主，譬如：我们做了某些决定，然后要他赐福，或自己选择去某个地方，然后要他保守等等。。。

但 有时候我们确实希望自己所做的或决定的是神的旨意，有神的喜悦，有神同在与恩宠，可是却不确定有没有听到他的声音。今天中午有感动带领大家，祷告神膏抹我 们的思想和感觉，就是在我们不太确定神的声音的时候，让我们感觉和认为对的决定的那个感觉与思想是从神而来的感觉与思想。因此，在不知不觉的情况之下，爱我们的天父引领我们进入他旨意里面。

第二天：10月4日(二)
早上领受的经文：
耶穌說：”你們上去吧。。。我現在不上去，因為我的時候還沒有滿。” ~約7：8~

＊＊体会到有很多事情，尤其是重要的决定，包括事奉神、该做的事、很好的事情等等。。。我们都要等候上帝的时间，有时候不能等待反而会破坏好事，也破坏了神原本的计划。。。

Day 2 : Oct 4th (Tue)
The verse that spoke to me in the morning:
Jesus said : “You go… I am not yet going, because for me the right time has not yet come.” ~John7:8~

** This makes me realize that for many things, especially important decisions, including serving God, things ought to be done, good things etc… we need to wait for God’s timing. Sometimes our inability to wait would spoil something good, and even God’s original plan for us…

中午领祷告时的感动：
与其一直想着“还要挨饿几天”，我们当思想及求这40天我们要经历什么，求每一天都经历新的事情、经历神的真，和让他透过各种方式跟我们说话，有这样的期待就不会被肉体的饥饿影响。。。
也向神求这40天成为我们这一辈子每天进入神同在的开始～

The conviction I received while leading the noon-time prayer today:
Instead of thinking all the time about “how many more days of hunger do I still have to go through”, we should think about and pray as to what we want to experience these 40 days, pray that we experience everyday something new and God’s reality, and that He will speak to us in all sorts of ways. With this kind of expectation, you will not be affected by the hunger of your flesh…
And ask God to make these 40 days the beginning of our life-long entering into His presence everyday~

立下心志，这一次40天禁食要跟以往不一样。。。
我要每天有聆听的耳，敏锐的灵，要从上帝那里得着启示，听到他跟我说话，并把它记录下来。。。

愿40天过后，这也成为我的日常习惯，到老到死。。。
其实在大学期间，有一段日子我有培养这个习惯，但不知曾几何时已消失的无影无踪！
求主怜悯！也求主复苏我的灵～

这一次从10月3日开始，一直到11月11日为期40天的禁食，只喝饮料，不吃任何固体食物，一直到最后10天，只喝白开水，求主保守及引领。。。

以下是第一天的领受。。。

I am determined to make the 40-day fast this time different from the previous ones…
I want to have listening ears, sensitive spirity, to receive revelations from God and hear Him talking to me, and to record all that down…

May after these 40 days, this will also become my daily habit, till old, till death…
In fact I did cultivate this habit for a certain period during my university years, but I cannot remember since when has that disappeared totally!
May God have mercy! And may God restore my soul~

This time, starting October 3rd till November 11th, for a total of 40 days, I will only take drinks, no solid food whatsoever, until the final 10 days just taking plain water, may God uphold and guide me…

The following is what I received on the 1st day…

第一天：10月3日(一)
如往常我星期一待在家里。。。
意想不到的写了一首歌，跟我一向来写的歌比较不同形式。通常写的都较“重情感”，倾心吐意那一类歌曲，可是今天写的却是“属灵”或圣经字眼比较显着的，如“和撒那！和撒那！”。。。如同当初犹太人欢呼，欢迎耶稣进入耶路撒冷城的情景。。。

反复思想，我想这是一个预言或启示吧，就是上帝要我们这40天的禁食，最主要的渴望就是欢迎他进入我们的生命、教会、城市、国家。。。歌好听不好听是其次，重点是要有渴望及兴奋耶稣同在临到的那颗心。。。

Day 1 : October 3rd (Mon)
As usual I stayed home on Monday…
Unexpectedly I wrote a song, and it is rather different from my typical style of songs. Normally my songs are more “emotional”, pouring your heart out type, but today the one I wrote has obviously more “spiritual” or Biblical words, for instance “Hosanna! Hosanna!”… just as the scene when the Jews rejoiced and welcomed Jesus into Jerusalem…

As I pondered more, I think this must be a prophecy or revelation, that is God wants us for these 40-day fast to desire above all the welcoming of Him into our lives, church, city, country… Whether the song sounds nice or not is secondary, the important thing is to have that heart that hungers for and feels excited about the presence of Jesus coming to us…

Translation of the song:

We welcome Your presence

Hosanna in the highest, hosanna
Hosanna, O gates, lift up your heads
Glory, glory
King of kings, Jesus, You are my King

See He who comes on a donkey
The gentle King, Humble King
I will open up my heart to You
Prince of Peace, I welcome You in

May my worship be like the clashing waves
Lord of the universe, I welcome You…

写完了才发现这欢迎主到来的歌，真的配合到我们禁食的原因！
感谢主第一天就给予这样的鼓励～
願神恩膏我在這40天內寫更多榮耀他的詩歌。。。

It was only after writing, I realized it is a song welcoming the Lord’s presence, that really flows with the reason we fast!
Thank God for such an encouragement on the first day~
May God anoint me to write more songs to glorify Him during this 40-day period.