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Day 15 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary

 

第十五天1017(一)

早上读到一位朋友所写的FB状态,跟我之前所写的很类似:
“那么多要做,那么多要学,却那么少时间。。。唉。。。”

真的,我也有太多东西想要做,很多很多书想要读,很多地方想要去等等。。。
特别是身为一位牧师,看到别的讲员讲道讲到天花乱坠、口沫横飞;那么有知识、有学问、有经验。。。有时候也会感觉很自卑、很压力、很无奈、很无力;有时候也会问上帝说怎么办啊?为什么时间那么少?

感谢神,他的恩典够我们用!其实,神的心意很简单,他最想的就是我们单单纯纯信靠他,心中渴望更亲近与爱他就对了。

你可以做了轰动全世界的事情,你可以读完几个学位,你可以参加千个特会,读完万卷属灵书卷,看完圣经数百遍,对原文了如指掌等等等等。。。但那不表示你真正认识神、爱神,或与他很亲近。。。

所以,总结来说,那么多事情要做,又那么少时间的时候,神要我们懂的就是优先顺序;在这短暂的人生里,我们第一件要看重的就是:认识神、亲近神。

“。。。著书多,没有穷尽;读书多,身体疲倦。这些事都已听见了,总意就是敬畏神,谨守他的诫命,这是人所当尽的本分(注:或作“这是众人的本分”)。因为人所做的事,连一切隐藏的事,无论是善是恶,神都必审问。”
~ 传道书12:12-14 ~

Day 15 : Oct 17th (Mon)

Read a friend’s FB status this morning, it was something very similar to what I wrote once:
“So much to do, so much to learn and yet so little time…….sigh…..”

It is true, I really do have so many things I want to do, so many books I want to read, so many places I want to go too etc…
Especially as a pastor, when I see other preachers speak with such eloquence and fluency, so knowledgeable, well-versed, experienced… sometimes I can feel very inferior, pressured, frustrated, helpless; and sometimes I will ask God what am I going to do? Why is my time so limited?

Thank God, His grace is sufficient for me! In fact, God’ desire is very simple, what He wants the most is for us to trust in Him with a child-like faith, and to long to be closer and to love Him more.

You can do something that stirs the whole world, you can complete so many degrees, you can attend thousands of seminars, read uncountable number of books, read the Bible hundreds of times, and understand the original text inside out etc etc… but that does not mean you truly know God, love Him or are very intimate with Him…

Therefore, in conclusion, with so many things to do and so little time, God wants us to set our priorities right; in this short life of ours, the utmost important is: to know God and to draw close to Him.

“… Of making many books there is no end, and much study wearies the body. Now all has been heard; here is the conclusion of the matter: Fear God and keep his commandments, for this is the whole duty of man. For God will bring every deed into judgment, including every hidden thing, whether it is good or evil.”
~ Ecclesiastes 12:12-14 ~

Day 14 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary

 

第十四天1016(日)

上帝真的是很爱我们,我们心里担忧或困惑什么,没说出来他都晓得。只要你灵里与神保持亲近,祈求有敏锐聆听他话语的属灵耳朵,他何时何处都可以突然跟你说话。

今早在浴室刷牙洗脸的时候,脑子想着最近一些要帮助的人,有一些需要解决的棘手问题。。。只是想想一下,不是很认真的在寻求答案,因也在准备去教会。突然间,有个两全其美的主意出现在脑海,让我心中马上充满安慰和喜乐,知道我有答案了!
这经历让我想起诗篇139:2所说:“我坐下,我起来,你都晓得,你从远处知道我的意念”。。。

这也让我越发确定,雅各书1:5里的话是可敬可信的:“你们中间若有缺少智慧的,应当求那厚赐与众人、也不斥责人的 神,主就必赐给他。”

所以让我们都向神求智慧,也求敏锐及聆听的耳吧!

Day 14 : Oct 16th (Sun)

God really loves us a lot, whatever we are concerned or bothered with in our hearts, He knows it even without us saying it out. As long as you remain close in your spirit with God, ask for spiritual ears that are sensitive to listen His voice or words, and He might just speak to you wherever or whenever suddenly.

This morning as I was washing in the bathroom, I was thinking in my mind about some people I want to help recently, with some sticky problems to solve… it was just a passing thought, not as though I was seriously seeking some answers as I was getting ready for church anyway. Then suddenly a win-win solution appeared in my mind, and caused my heart to be filled with comfort and joy immediately, I knew I had the answer!
This answer reminded me of Psalm 139:2, “You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar.”…

This also reaffirms in me what James 1:5 says is indeed worthy of reverence and trust: “If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him.”

So let us all ask wisdom from God, and also listening ears that are sensitive!

 

Day 13 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary

 

 

第十三天1015(六)

今早一醒来就有这念头,所以就把它上载在Facebook:

“上帝若要賜福你,他自然會也能,無視你的背景、條件、狀況、機會等等,他總會有辦法,在他沒有難成的事!你只要做討他喜悅的人。。。”

然后这首经文诗歌就出现:

耶和华如此说:“你们不要记念从前的事,也不要思想古时的事。看哪!我要做一件新事,如今要发现,你们岂不知道吗?我必在旷野开道路,在沙漠开江河。
~ 以赛亚书43:18-19 ~

依我的观察, 上帝若真的要赐福,他才不管你现在所处的环境、待遇、条件等等,按人眼光是否能让你步步高升、薪金优厚;他是全能和超智慧的,他自然有办法让你蒙福超过所求所想!就因为是超过人所能想像,所以那才叫神迹,人也不能夺取那荣耀,阿们!

 

 

Day 13 : Oct 15th (Sat)

As I got up this morning, this thought came to me, so I posted it on Facebook:

“If God wants to bless you, He Will and He Can regardless of your background, qualifications, circumstance, chances etc. He can always find a way, nothing is too difficult for Him! All you need to do is be a person pleasing to Him…”

Immediately these verses floated into my mind:

Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.
~ Isaiah 43:18-19 ~

From my observation, if God really wants to bless, He will not be bothered by the environment, situation, condition etc you are in, or whether from human perspective you have any good prospect to rise and attain attractive remuneration. He is all powerful with super wisdom, He naturally has the method to bless you beyond what you ask for and think! And because it is beyond what humans can imagine, that is why it is called miracle, and no one can snatch His glory too, Amen!

 

 

Day 12 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary

 

第十二天1014(五)

有几个晚上好像没做什么特别的梦,昨晚依然有祷告说:神啊,你若要透过梦境跟我说话,就如此行吧。。。

早上醒来,感觉神没说话,没有什么有印象或感觉特别的梦境。灵修读经时问上帝今天中午带领祷告的方向,突然昨晚一个梦境浮现,随着而来的是一段经文。。。原来神有说话!

我梦见我意想不到的两个年轻人也跟我们一起禁食,特别有一位都已离神很远,甚至没看到他在教会里。在梦里,他很瘦,说他也与我们一起禁食,我很惊讶!感觉上他和以前一样火热,我感到很高兴。。。可是如今看到的事实不是如此。

当这梦境倒回来时,马上这经文就出现在我脑海里:

“弟兄们,若有人偶然被过犯所胜,你们属灵的人,就当用温柔的心把他挽回过来;又当自己小心,恐怕也被引诱。你们各人的重担要互相担当,如此,就完全了基督的律法。”
~ 加拉太书6:1-2 ~

太多时候,我们对软弱退后、冷淡跌倒的人,都报以批判和论断的眼光。今天,上帝提醒我们,他还爱他们,我们当为他们祷告,以温柔的爱心尽量把他们挽回过来。

另,第二节的“你们各人的重担要互相担当,如此,就完全了基督的律法。”。。。原来要完全基督的律法是那么简单的一件事。。。

 

 

Day 12 : Oct 14th (Fri)

For a few nights I did not have seemingly very special dreams, last night as usual I prayed: O God, if You want to speak to me through dreams, then please do…

When I woke up in the morning, I felt God did not speak, there was no impression of or any dream I feel special. While reading the Bible during my devotional time, I asked God for the direction in today’s noon-time prayer. Suddenly one scene of my dream last night appeared in my mind, followed by some verses… Yes! God did speak!

I dreamt of two unexpected young people fasting together with us, especially one who is very far from God now, and I do not even see him in church sometimes. In the dream, he looked very thin, he said he is also fasting together with us. I was very surprised! It felt like he was on fire like before, I was very happy… but what I see in reality at the moment is not so.

When this dream reappeared in my mind, immediately the following verses came to my mind too:

“Brothers, if someone is caught in a sin, you who are spiritual should restore him gently. But watch yourself, or you also may be tempted.  Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ.”
~ Galatians 6:1-2 ~

Too many times, we tend to be critical and judgmental toward those who have back-slidden, fallen or turned cold. Today, God reminded us, He still loves them, and we should pray for them and try our best to restore them with a gentle loving heart.

Also, verse 2 says “Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ.”… Suddenly realized it is such a simple thing to fulfill the law of Christ…

Day 11 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary

 

第十一天1013(四)

今天领祷告时的感动。。。求主扩大我们的心胸,就在最软弱时还能给人鼓励,就在最缺乏时也还能祝福别人,而且纯粹因为爱和关怀,没有想到回报或上帝会有什么奖赏。。。

我们也宣告教会异象其中一点:“叫万国因我们得福”。

我必叫你成为大国;我必赐福给你,叫你的名为大,你也要叫别人得福。为你祝福的,我必赐福与他;那咒诅你的,我必咒诅他;地上的万族都要因你得福。
~创世记12:2-3~

这是上帝给亚伯拉罕的应许,圣经也说我们是亚伯拉罕的后裔;因此,这应许也临到我们身上。
我相信“大国”也可以指我们所做的会越发蒙福扩大,好让我们能成为越多人的祝福。
但何谓亚伯拉罕的后裔?即,无论怎么样都对神有信心的人。然而,我相信亚伯拉罕能成为大国,能那么蒙福并不止因为他有大信心,他也有很大,很会祝福人的心胸!

上帝赐福亚伯拉罕,也要亚伯拉罕赐福别人。身为亚伯拉罕的后裔,这一点我们一定也要活出来,才是真正活在神的旨意里。

有施散的,却更增添;有吝惜过度的,反致穷乏。好施舍的,必得丰裕;滋润人的,必得滋润。
~箴言11:24-25~

Day 11 : Oct 13th (Thur)

The prompting in my heart today as I led the prayer meeting… May God stretch our hearts that we may still encourage others even in our weakest moment, and bless others when we are the most lacking; and to do all these purely out of love and concern, not thinking about any return or how God is going to reward us…

We also proclaimed one of the points in our Blessed Vision: “That all nations will be blessed through us”.

I will make you into a great nation and I will bless you; I will make your name great, and you will be a blessing. I will bless those who bless you, and whoever curses you I will curse; and all peoples on earth will be blessed through you.
~Genesis 12:2-3~

This is the promise God gave Abraham, and the Bible tells us that we are Abraham’s descendants. Therefore this promise comes on us too. I believe “a great nation” can also mean whatever we do will be extended and blessed in order that we can become a blessing to even more people.
But what is Abraham’s descendant? It is someone with faith to believe in God no matter what. But I believe for Abraham to become such a great nation and so blessed, he not only had great faith, he had a very big heart that blessed others too!

God blessed Abraham, and He wanted Abraham to bless others as well. As Abraham’s descendants, we must live this out in order to be truly living in God’s will.

One man gives freely, yet gains even more; another withholds unduly, but comes to poverty. A generous man will prosper; he who refreshes others will himself be refreshed.
~Proverbs 11:24-25~

 

 

 

Day 10 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary

 

第十天1012(三)

今天自己在读约翰福音12章时,有一股莫名的兴奋、感动和喜乐,因太多地方都在跟我说话。。。
所以鼓励你们今天也认真的看约12章。

其中在带中午祷告时让我联想到的是:
“耶稣说:“人子得荣耀的时候到了。
我实实在在地告诉你们:一粒麦子不落在地里死了,仍旧是一粒;若是死了,就结出许多子粒来。”(约12:23-24)

当然这经文讲的是耶稣将为我们死在十架上,但我今天的其它领受是,要荣耀耶稣,我们生命的一些东西也需要“死”;所以求主在这40天里面帮助我们把老我旧人全然钉死,不再复活!

Day 10 : Oct 12th (Wed)

Today while I was reading John Chapter 12 myself, I had this inexplicable excitement, prompting and joy, because many places were speaking to me…
So I encourage you to seriously read John 12 today.

Among those that reminded me while leading the noon-time prayer is:
Jesus replied, “The hour has come for the Son of Man to be glorified. Very truly I tell you, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds. (John12:23-24)

Of course these verses are talking about Jesus going to be crucified for us on the cross, butmy other enlightenment today is, to glorify Jesus, some things in our lives must “die” too, so may God help us within these 40 days to crucify our old man and self and not let it come back to life again!

 

另,主说:
“若有人服事我,就当跟从我;我在哪里,服事我的人也要在那里;若有人服事我,我父必尊重他。”(约12:26)

太多时候,我们要主跟从我们,而不是我们跟从主,譬如:我们做了某些决定,然后要他赐福,或自己选择去某个地方,然后要他保守等等。。。

但 有时候我们确实希望自己所做的或决定的是神的旨意,有神的喜悦,有神同在与恩宠,可是却不确定有没有听到他的声音。今天中午有感动带领大家,祷告神膏抹我 们的思想和感觉,就是在我们不太确定神的声音的时候,让我们感觉和认为对的决定的那个感觉与思想是从神而来的感觉与思想。因此,在不知不觉的情况之下,爱我们的天父引领我们进入他旨意里面。

最后那一句,"我父必尊重他"也让人深感无比的荣幸,竟然能蒙受全能上帝的尊重!我们何德何能啊!可见,正确的服事主是何等重要和特别!英文的"尊重"(honour)也让人联想到在一个重要典礼,你被点名记念,被叫上台领奖一样!所以你可想像天父若"尊重"你是何等隆重的一件事!

Another thing, Jesus said:
Whoever serves me must follow me; and where I am, my servant also will be. My Father will honor the one who serves me.” (John12:26)

Too many times we want the Lord to follow us instead of us following the Lord, for instance, we made some decisions, then we asked God to bless those, or we chose to go somewhere ourselves and we asked Him to safeguard us etc…
But sometimes we do really hope what we do or decide is God’s will, and is pleasing to God, with His presence and favour, however we are not sure whether we actually hear His voice. This noon I felt led to lead all to pray for God to anoint our thinking and feeling, that is when we are not very certain about hearing His voice, let our thinking and feeling a certain decision is right be the thinking and feeling from God. Therefore, we are unconsciously guided by our loving Father into His will.
That final phrase, “My Father will honor the one who serves me” also makes me feel incomparable privileged, that we can be honoured by the Almighty God! Who are we, what good or talent do we have to deserve that! That is why to serve God correctly is so important and special! The word “honour” makes one think of a very important ceremony, where you are specially remembered and called to the stage to receive an award! So, can you imagine how grand it would be if our Father God honours you!

Day 3 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary

 

第三天:10月5日(三)
我们的身体既是圣灵的殿,即圣灵的屋子,圣灵就是屋主。那屋子里面有什么要丢掉、修理、装饰等等的,都是主人的决定和工作。我们既不再是主人就没权力乱动屋子,意思即,不再是靠自己的努力、想法,还怎么样去改变自己,当交给圣灵自己决定、动工和指示我们。

Day 3: Oct 5th (Wed)
Since our body is the temple of the Holy Spirit, meaning, the house of the Holy Spirit, then He is the house owner. So whatever that needs to be thrown away, repaired, decorated etc is the owner’s decision and work. As we are no longer the owner, we do not have the right to simply do anything to the house, that means it is no longer our own hard work or thinking or whatever that can change ourselves, we should just hand over to the Holy Spirit Himself to decide and do the work or instruct us.

 

 

另,我们求上帝医治或赐我们健康的当儿,我们也当醒悟很多时候身体的状况都与我们饮食和生活习惯有关。所以,尽管上帝真的医治了,我们过不久很可能又因坏饮食习惯而糟蹋了这个“殿”。。。可是所谓“江山易改,本性难移”,几十年的饮食、生活习惯等等,如何能改变,自己很难做得到。但既然这屋子已属于圣灵,就求圣灵来动工,让他来调整我们的喜好、兴趣等等,在不知不觉的情况下也偏爱与享受健康及营养的饮食等等。。。这绝对是可能的,因亲身经历!

Another thing, while praying for God to heal or give us health, we must realize too many times our physical condition is related to our eating or living habits. Therefore, even if God has really healed us, after a while we might damage this “temple” again with our bad dieting habit… But old habits die hard, how can we change our years of eating habits and lifestyle, that is no easy feat. However, since this house now belongs to the Holy Spirit, pray the Holy Spirit come and work and let Him adjust our interests and preferences etc, that without realizing, we have already developed a preference and enjoyment for healthy and nutritious food, etc…
This is definitely possible, speaking from experience!

曾經有個肥胖的牧師,體重應該是150公斤以上吧,後來減至65左右,穿著時髦。
我問他是怎樣做到的?

他說他看著一些模特兒的身材,就憑信心宣告說:奉耶穌的名我領受!
上帝就開始動工,他的飲食習慣很自然的開始調整!
這樣也可以??!!
我聽了就學習他那樣做,結果。。。你說呢?
你是不是也想學?哈哈哈!
(先聲明這不是神學噢!)Once there was an obese pastor weighing above 150kg I should think, but later reduced to about 65, and now wearing trendy clothes. I asked him how he did it.
He said he just looked at pictures of some models and proclaimed by faith saying: I claim that in Jesus’ name!
Then God started to work and his dieting habit started to change naturally!
Wow, can you actually do that??!!
So I learnt from him, and the result is… what say you?
So are you thinking of learning too? Hahaha!!
(By the way, this is no theology!)

Day 2 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary

 

第二天:10月4日(二)
早上领受的经文:
耶穌說:”你們上去吧。。。我現在不上去,因為我的時候還沒有滿。” ~約7:8~

**体会到有很多事情,尤其是重要的决定,包括事奉神、该做的事、很好的事情等等。。。我们都要等候上帝的时间,有时候不能等待反而会破坏好事,也破坏了神原本的计划。。。

Day 2 : Oct 4th (Tue)
The verse that spoke to me in the morning:
Jesus said : “You go… I am not yet going, because for me the right time has not yet come.” ~John7:8~

** This makes me realize that for many things, especially important decisions, including serving God, things ought to be done, good things etc… we need to wait for God’s timing. Sometimes our inability to wait would spoil something good, and even God’s original plan for us…

中午领祷告时的感动:
与其一直想着“还要挨饿几天”,我们当思想及求这40天我们要经历什么,求每一天都经历新的事情、经历神的真,和让他透过各种方式跟我们说话,有这样的期待就不会被肉体的饥饿影响。。。
也向神求这40天成为我们这一辈子每天进入神同在的开始~

The conviction I received while leading the noon-time prayer today:
Instead of thinking all the time about “how many more days of hunger do I still have to go through”, we should think about and pray as to what we want to experience these 40 days, pray that we experience everyday something new and God’s reality, and that He will speak to us in all sorts of ways. With this kind of expectation, you will not be affected by the hunger of your flesh…
And ask God to make these 40 days the beginning of our life-long entering into His presence everyday~

Day 1 : 禁食日记 / Fasting Diary

立下心志,这一次40天禁食要跟以往不一样。。。
我要每天有聆听的耳,敏锐的灵,要从上帝那里得着启示,听到他跟我说话,并把它记录下来。。。

愿40天过后,这也成为我的日常习惯,到老到死。。。
其实在大学期间,有一段日子我有培养这个习惯,但不知曾几何时已消失的无影无踪!
求主怜悯!也求主复苏我的灵~

这一次从10月3日开始,一直到11月11日为期40天的禁食,只喝饮料,不吃任何固体食物,一直到最后10天,只喝白开水,求主保守及引领。。。

以下是第一天的领受。。。

I am determined to make the 40-day fast this time different from the previous ones…
I want to have listening ears, sensitive spirity, to receive revelations from God and hear Him talking to me, and to record all that down…

May after these 40 days, this will also become my daily habit, till old, till death…
In fact I did cultivate this habit for a certain period during my university years, but I cannot remember since when has that disappeared totally!
May God have mercy! And may God restore my soul~

This time, starting October 3rd till November 11th, for a total of 40 days, I will only take drinks, no solid food whatsoever, until the final 10 days just taking plain water, may God uphold and guide me…

The following is what I received on the 1st day…

第一天:10月3日(一)
如往常我星期一待在家里。。。
意想不到的写了一首歌,跟我一向来写的歌比较不同形式。通常写的都较“重情感”,倾心吐意那一类歌曲,可是今天写的却是“属灵”或圣经字眼比较显着的,如“和撒那!和撒那!”。。。如同当初犹太人欢呼,欢迎耶稣进入耶路撒冷城的情景。。。

反复思想,我想这是一个预言或启示吧,就是上帝要我们这40天的禁食,最主要的渴望就是欢迎他进入我们的生命、教会、城市、国家。。。歌好听不好听是其次,重点是要有渴望及兴奋耶稣同在临到的那颗心。。。

Day 1 : October 3rd (Mon)
As usual I stayed home on Monday…
Unexpectedly I wrote a song, and it is rather different from my typical style of songs. Normally my songs are more “emotional”, pouring your heart out type, but today the one I wrote has obviously more “spiritual” or Biblical words, for instance “Hosanna! Hosanna!”… just as the scene when the Jews rejoiced and welcomed Jesus into Jerusalem…

As I pondered more, I think this must be a prophecy or revelation, that is God wants us for these 40-day fast to desire above all the welcoming of Him into our lives, church, city, country… Whether the song sounds nice or not is secondary, the important thing is to have that heart that hungers for and feels excited about the presence of Jesus coming to us…

 

Translation of the song:

We welcome Your presence

Hosanna in the highest, hosanna
Hosanna, O gates, lift up your heads
Glory, glory
King of kings, Jesus, You are my King

See He who comes on a donkey
The gentle King, Humble King
I will open up my heart to You
Prince of Peace, I welcome You in

May my worship be like the clashing waves
Lord of the universe, I welcome You…

 

 

写完了才发现这欢迎主到来的歌,真的配合到我们禁食的原因!
感谢主第一天就给予这样的鼓励~
願神恩膏我在這40天內寫更多榮耀他的詩歌。。。

It was only after writing, I realized it is a song welcoming the Lord’s presence, that really flows with the reason we fast!
Thank God for such an encouragement on the first day~
May God anoint me to write more songs to glorify Him during this 40-day period.

 

禁食40天反思。。。 Reflection on fasting 40 days…

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这一次,2011年10月3日一直到11月11日的40天禁食,应该是我第三次40天全禁吧,21天全禁也做过两次,几次都碰到我生日的时候,这一次也不例外。。。
若不是神,我无法想像也无法做到这样长时间的禁食。所以,我没什么厉害,也没什么了不起,不必称赞和羡慕我,若神的灵没有带领、感动及加添力量,这是不可能的事,我也不会想要这样做。。。

This time, the 40-day fast from 03/10/11 to 11/11/11 has to be my third time fasting 40 days completely. I also did 21-day full fast twice, and a few times my fasting period coincided with my birthday, this time is no exception…
If not for God, I cannot imagine and I will not be able too to go on such a long fast. So, there is nothing great or super about me, there is no need to compliment or admire me, if the Spirit of God does not lead, prompt or give me strength, this is impossible and I will not want to do it as well…

有人问我一些健康、体力、营养的问题等等,问我怎样处理、克服或解决等等。。。
我也没答案,我只能说我每天一样操作,一样上班,服事等等,健康没出问题,我觉得反而变得更健康。。。

Some people asked me questions with regard to health, physical strength and nutrition issues etc, they asked how I handled, overcame or dealt with and so on…
I have no answer. All I can say is, I still functioned like normal everyday, I still went to work and serve etc, my health is alright, and in fact I feel I have become healthier…

 

我只记得第一次禁40天的时候,第39天的早上发现自己躺在房间门口,可能血糖太低突然起来时晕倒了,但当然我一点也没受伤。也是在那一次开始吃的时候,第一次上厕所排泄粪便很困难,甚至流血了;我就向上帝祷告医治,也“提醒”他我禁食是为了他的国,马上就得医治了!

所以一切都得归荣耀给上帝,没有他是不可能的!

All I remember was the first time when I was having the 40-day full fast, I found myself lying near my bedroom door in the morning on the 39th day, perhaps my blood sugar was too low and I fainted while getting up abruptly, but of course I was not injured in any way. And it was also that time when I began to eat again, I had great difficulty the first time I went to the toilet to excrete my motion, I even bled. So I prayed to God foe healing and “reminded” Him that I fasted for His kingdom, and I was healed immediately!

That is why we must give all the glory to God, it is impossible without Him!

 

最后一次禁40天是好多年以前的事了,一直不敢想像还有下一次,因为那种40天不吃东西的情景想起来也太恐怖了,人再爱漂亮、再怕肥胖,还是不能不吃东西的。所以里面会“很怕”上帝突然又感动我全禁40天。。。其实这种“担心”真的是多余的,因为倘若是来自上帝的感动,他自然会帮助你完成!就如同现在,不知不觉又开始全禁40天了。。。

The last time I went on a 40-day full fast was quite a few years back, since then I did not dare to imagine another time, because the scenario of not eating anything at all for 40 days was kind of scary to think about. No matter how beauty conscious you are, how scared of being overweight you are, you still cannot do without food. So inside me, I was kind of “scared” that God might prompt me to do another 40-day full fast… Actually this kind of “worry” is really unnecessary because if the prompting is really from God, He naturally will help you to accomplish it! Just like now, all of a sudden we have begun the 40-day full fast again…

 

老实说,这一次全禁40天的感动年头就有了,我只是等候上帝的时间。起初也有一点担心自己是否做得到,因为太久没这样做了。。。可是当我看到很多年轻人都愿意陪着我一起全禁40天的时候,那莫名的力量就从我心里涌现,我就不再惧怕了。。。

这一次的禁食,我比以往更认真和兴奋,心里也充满期待,要看到神要做又新又奇妙的事,也期待神每天的启示和感动;所以我这一次会每天记录灵里的领受和感动,尽量每天都在这里刊登我的“禁食日记”,好跟你们分享,希望也会鼓励到你们,阿们!

Honestly, this prompting to have a full 40-day fast came at the beginning of the year, I was only waiting for God’s timing. At first I was kind of worried whether I could do it as after all I have not done it for a long time… but when I saw many young people are willing to accompany me through this journey of fasting 40 days without food, that unexplained strength started to well up from my heart, and I no longer feel afraid…

The fasting this time, I am feeling more serious and excited than all the previous ones, and my heart is full of expectancy to see God doing new and wonderful things. I also long for God to reveal His heart everyday. So this time I will record what I receive or sense in my spirit, and will try my best to post here everyday as “Fasting Diary” to share with you all, hopefully this will encourage you all as well, Amen!