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妈妈的焦急。。。 Mum’s anxiety…

 

那天在教会对妈有一个小误会,那时我正在带领祷告会,在分享的时候,妈突然举起手开始讲话。。。
我最怕妈这样了,因为她有时候很喜欢讲见证,而且在不适当的时候,我就想这次又干嘛了?
我就做了一些手势和打个眼色,要她安静,不要骚扰聚会。。。
起初她还想继续讲,我还是不允许。她没办法只好乖乖保持安静。。。

That day I had a slight misunderstanding with mum, I was leading the prayer meeting then. While I was sharing, she suddenly raised her hand to speak…
That is what I am often very weary about concerning mum, because sometimes she just loves to share some testimony at the most unsuitable moment, so I thought what is it again this time?
So I signalled with my hand and gave her that stare to silence her, I did not want her to disrupt the meeting…
Initially she wanted to continue to speak but I would not hear of it. She had no choice but to obediently remain quiet…

 

散会后,我就像质问小孩子一样问她,你干嘛又骚扰我的聚会?不跟你说过不要随便讲话或发言吗?
我说这样子我会很难为情的,人家会说怎么牧师的母亲好像不会尊重场面。
她跟我道歉,然后她才告诉我她为何急着发言。。。

After the meeting, I questioned her like a little kid and asked why she disturbed my meeting just now? I said had I not told you before not to simply talk or speak up?
I said that would embarrass me for people might think how come Pastor’s mum does not respect certain situation.
She apologized, then she explained to me as to why she was so anxious to speak…

 

原来这几个礼拜,因不得已妈又得倒回去疗养院小住一个月。一进去不久,她就告诉我之前她在那里认识的几个老人家都已去世,她很讶异。。。
然后她也很担心她们有没有信主得救,所以这一次她又很积极的传福音。

她之所以在祷告会进行到一半举手要发言,是因为要告诉我,那晚她还没来祷告会之前,其中一个老太太跟她说她要信主,问说牧师能来为她祷告吗。妈说自己年纪大了,记忆力不好,怕忘记跟我说而导致一个老人家失去得救的机会。她说因为看到这些老人家随时都可能去世,所以她很焦急,怕若她忘记告诉我,这位要信主的老人家也万一去世,那她该怎么办,她会充满后悔。。。

Actually, due to necessity, these few weeks mum has to move into the nursing home to stay for a month again. Soon after she moved in, she told me she was shocked to find out that a few old people she got to know in there had passed away…
And she was very concerned as to whether they did believe in the Lord and were saved, so she was very eager in spreading the Gospel again this time.

The reason she raised her hand to speak half way through the prayer meeting was because she wanted to tell me, just before she came to the meeting that night, an old lady told her she wanted to believe in Jesus, and asked whether mum could bring the pastor to come pray for her.
Mum said she herself is old and her memory is not good, what if she forgot to tell me and caused this old lady to lose her chance of salvation? She said because she noticed all these old people could pass away anytime, that was why she was so anxious in telling me for fear that she would forget and this old lady might just pass away too, and she would feel so terrible be full of regret…

 

听了她的解释,我也很感动,原来她是为别人的灵魂焦急。。。
我就安慰妈说,不要怕,其实当那老太太开口说她要信主时,她已经信了,上帝也看到了!
当然我们就马上安排带领这老人家信主。
我真有一个好妈妈,你说是吗?

After listening to her explanantion, I was very touched, she was actually anxious for someone’s soul…
So I comforted her and said: Do not fear, when this old lady said she wanted to believe in Jesus, she had already believed, and God saw that too!
But of course we immediately arranged to lead this old lady to receive Christ too.
I do really have a good mother, don’t you think so?

 

 

我到底做錯甚麼? What did I do wrong?

我到底做错什么
倒霉的事总是找上我
我觉得我的人还算不错
可是机会为何总是躲避我

What did I do wrong
Why do bad things always happen to me
I consider myself quite a good person
But why do opportunities always elude me

 

我到底做错什么
好事仿佛都轮不到我
怎么别人都比我快乐
我在说什么你懂不懂

What did I do wrong
Why do good things not come to me
Why are others happier than me
Do you understand what I am saying

 

我到底做错什么
失败挫折一波波
何时才会停止
怎样才算受够

What did I do wrong
Failures and defeats keep coming
When will they stop
What is considered enough

 

我到底做错什么
你为何保持一贯的沉默
为何不把答案告诉我
我还有很多话要说

What did I do wrong
Why do You maintain Your silence
Why are You not giving me any answer
I still have a lot to say

 

暂停思索
无奈抬头
却见你沉默的温柔
依然深情的望着我

I pause a moment
Lifting my head helplessly
But I see Your quiet gentleness
Gazing at me with eyes deep with love

 

霎那间我发现
原来我已拥有那最好的
你。。。从来没离开常抱怨的我
我。。。
到底做对什么

Suddenly I realize
I already have the best there is
You… have never left the always complaining me
What did I do… right

 

**与一个很有才华的有人交谈时有感而发。。。他喜欢我写的东西,说过要合作,可是他几个月前回天家了。。。
**Inspired by my conversation with a very talented friend… he loved my writing, we talked about working together, but few months ago he had gone back to be with the Lord…

 

林义忠主日讲道实录: 合一 GT Lim Sunday sermon live: Unity

蒙福主日 28.08.11
讲员:林义忠牧师 (Ps. Lim GT)

主题 :合一
Title Unity

经文 :弗 Eph. 4:1-16
Scripture

1)圣灵的合一
Unity of the Spirit
i) 当竭力保守
Make every effort to keep: v3
ii) 以这些品德
With such virtues: v2-3
iii) 与蒙召相称
Worthy of the calling: v1

2)基督的身体
The body of christ
i) 各恩赐操作
Functioning of all gifts: v7-8, 11
ii) 同心齐建立
To build up with unity: v12, 16
iii) 得长大成人
To become grown and mature: v13-16

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